#cici b

[feltpoetry]

“i gave him everything i was, but he can keep that. i like everything i am now, better anyway… and he can’t have this”

cici b

[whyowhyme2]

[evelinawood]

[memories-of-a-lost-soul]

[humilityinfrontofgod]

“If only he knew, just how many nights I would close my eyes, and pray, to unlove him… if only he knew.” Cici. B

[monstersturntotrees]

[wmiqaqueen]

[daphneemarie]

I have spent YEARS making shit complicated for myself by staying with men who either weren’t able to, or simply didn’t WANT to give me what I needed... what I wanted. Fighting, arguing, screaming, crying, trying...so much trying. Repeating myself...oh my God, all I fucking DID was repeat myself over and over again-and why? For what? At work, stressed and crying in a bathroom stall. At home, tossing and turning in my bed, tormenting myself with “why is he treating me this way?” questions...Fucking stupidness. And I’m over it. I have a good heart, and I’m not giving it to any more men who prove that they don’t deserve it. This vicious cycle started with me allowing it all to happen. I absolutely did not know my worth back then, but now that I do, there will be no settling, or feeling guilty about standing firmly in my wants and needs. I’m not asking for a man to move fucking mountains for me-I’m asking for the very same things they want from me. You want respect, loyalty, peace of mind, love, and happiness? Well, so the fuck do I. So if you cannot give me the same shit you’re asking for, then you’ve gotta GO. No more complications. You either will or you won’t - and if you won’t, it’s all good...there’s someone out there who WILL...and happily.