#cielizzyweek2021

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“You surely are getting better at this, Lizzy” Ciel’s fiancée once again came to his manor, asking him to help her train her chess skills. At this point, it was already a usual thing to them; meeting in his manor, to play chess and drink tea together. And after a more than few meetings, he genuinely observed that Lizzie improved.

“Aw, Ciel just complimented me!” She beamed. “Sebastian, did u hear that!?” Lizzie’s eyes were jumping from Ciel to Sebastian, waiting for their reactions. Young Lady doesn’t get many compliments from her fiancé, so she’s happy every time she gets one.

Young lord could feel her gaze, even without the need to look at her face. He just wanted to let her know that she is making progress, but he did not expect her to be so happy because of his words. The corners of his mouth turned up, and his ears redden. CIel hoped that Elizabeth won’t see it or she will never stop talking about it.

“I did, my lady” known smirk was plastered on butler’s face, as if he already knew everything is there to know. Ciel let out a tired breath. He could tell what was on Sebastian’s mind just from the tone of his voice. And he did not like it.

“It’s just a simple statement.” Ciel’s voice was a bit louder than usual. He did not mean it. So to help clear his mind, he coughed in his hand, giving himself a few more seconds. He let his emotions get the better of him, and he worked too much, to let his emotions control him. Even in a simple situation like this.

Young lord finally look up from the chess board and shot a glare to his butler. His message was very easy to read.

Butler nodded his head, his smile never disappearing.

Then Lizzie’s voice made Ciel turn his head in her direction and just by looking at her face, he could tell how she feel. Although, it wasn’t that hard. She was rather open about her feelings towards him.

“I’m happy.” Lizzie’s big, honest smile was making his heart beat faster than usual. Her sincere smile and that emerald eyes filed with her trust towards him. That was no good, and there was that big lump in his throat.

But Lizzie was still talking.

“I have such a good time with you, Ciel, and even mother said that I’m not that bad anymore.” Her smile still plastered on her face, even when saying something like that. Young Lord respected her mother, although he did not like it when someone was being rough with his fiancé. Even when it was his fiancé’s own mother. That made that weird lump go away. His expression hardened.

“That only means that we should continue your training-” Lizzie didn’t let him finish his sentence, by loudly squeaking. Ciel could only grimace at her behavior.

But he didn’t have much time to be annoyed.

Suddenly, Lizzy stood up from her chair, surprising Ciel, and in a second she was already next to him, practically lifting his from his chair for a thigh hug.

Ciel’s eyes widened at her action, while his nose take in her scent. He could smell her perfume mixed with tea. It was making him dizzy. She smelt really nice.

“You want to spend more time with me! Ciel! That’s so nice!” Her voice was  cheerful, and he was way too close to her chest, so close that he could hear vibrations of her voice and her breath on his head, moving his hair a little.

His voice stuck in his throat, and he couldn’t decide what to do now.

On the one hand, it was nice, being that close to her. She was warm.

But on the other hand, he couldn’t let himself be this vulnerable. He was lord of that mansion, he had a mission, and he... did not have a future. He let out another sigh expressing his tiredness and frustration of the situation, and put his hands on Lizzie’s shoulders, delicately pushing her back, so there would be some distance between them.

“Lizzy, that’s not what I said.” He stated, his voice calm and soft. Ciel never wanted to use any other type of tone when talking with her. He knew that was impossible, and it already happened many times, but it didn’t matter. Lizzie didn’t like when he was angry, he could tell that from the expression whenever he was angry while in her company. And he liked being with her. It was a nice change from his dark and bloody world. And lately, he started feeling different in her company. Less calm and more fidgety. He wasn’t sure if he wanted to explore the reasoning of this matter.

Ciel looked straight into her eyes, and suddenly he was afraid that he will drown in that sight. Beautiful, it was all he could say. Her eyes were beautiful.

Ciel looked away for a moment, he needed a moment to collect his thoughts. Again.

“My Lord,” Sebastian started, as if already forgotten about Ciel’s message. “If I may, it is not proper to be so rude to a young lady. It’s not a proper behavior for a Lord.” Sebastian commented, with that perfect, false smile of his, that was making his master ill.

Ciel clenched his fists, his eyes squinting.

“Silence, Sebastian!” He ordered, his voice close to screaming and anger evident in his eyes.

He let his emotions control him again.

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Elizabeth was looking at Ciel.

She saw his expression, his eye. That dangerous fire in his eye was there yet again. It was not the first time she saw it, but every time she wish that it would be the last time.

But of course it wasn’t.

And Elizabeth likes his eyes. There were pretty, ocean blue. But when he was angry, she could always see that dangerous fire. It always feels like it could burn you alive in a minute. Lizzie was afraid that someday, Ciel could be angry at her. Really angry, with that fire in his eye.

She didn’t want that. She couldn’t let that happen.

She didn’t like it, but it didn’t matter. It was okay, because those were Ciel’s eyes. And his eye is always soft, when he is talking with her. It is warm, but not dangerous. It’s part of him, and that’s okay. She’s accepting that, because she loves him dearly.

But it’s not that she knows nothing about her fiancé. For example, she knows how to deal with an angry Ciel. She knows that. And that’s enough.

“Ciel!” She linked their arms together while beaming at him. “Let’s go to your gardens. I saw there some beautiful flowers that you must look at!”

“Lizzy, I’m not exactly at the-” He started, but Lizzy didn’t even let him finish his sentence.

“Let’s go!” And she just started dragging him to the direction of gardens. “Sebastian, you stay indoor!” She only yelled, being already far enough that a normal human wouldn’t hear her command. But Sebastian wasn’t normal. He was a Hell of a butler.

“Yes, My Lady”

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“And done! See? We're matching now!” Lizzy adjusted boutonnière in Ciel’s pocket. It was made of a blue and pink flowers that she found earlier in the garden. On her head was a garland done with the same kind of blooms.

“We are Lizzy, but surely the garden lack now a lot of flowers.” His remark was filled with cheekiness and smile and there was a smirk on his face and calmness and that was more than Lizzy could have wanted right now. Her heart was beating so fast with a joy, and she wanted so badly to hug him again. And, oh she would, but she didn’t want to ruin that moment. He was a stubborn and patient girl if she wanted to be.

But on the outside, she just pouted cutely at him. “I had to choose the best kind of flowers for us!”

“And what about these? They’re the same color as the once we are wearing now” Although his face still was filled with tiredness, his voice wasn’t. And oh, Lizzy could’ve listened to his not-tired voice for ages.

She crossed her arms.  “Those were good, but there wasn’t enough of them for the two of us.”

“And what-”

“Aaaaah, stop already with the questions!!” She hid her face in her hands. And when she glanced through her fingers at Ciel, she could swear that she saw a ghost of a smile on his lips!

Her heart swelled at that view. At that moment, she thought that she could die happily.

...

Or no. She didn’t have her first kiss with Ciel yet. So no dying until their first kiss.

“That’s okay Lizzy. I won't talk about it anymore.” His voice was soft, a new kind of soft. That kind that she didn’t hear before from him.

“Mhm.” She didn’t want to look fully at him just yet, because she’s afraid that she would just jump right into his arms. It wasn’t anything new for them, sure, but... but that didn’t feel right at the moment, and she feels really ladylike right now, with him beside her, hearing his soft voice...

Suddenly, she’s shy and not sure what to do with herself.

And then, she could feel Ciel’s fingers on hers. His touch was gentle. She could feel warmth spreading across her face. Ciel didn’t stop there, he slowly starts pushing her hands from her face.

“That’s better” He said, still holding her hands. His thumb is running soothing circles on the back of her hand.

It’s a nice feeling. Addictive. Because it’s a rare thing. Them, touching, even in private of his manor.

He’s holding her hands in a tight grip, as if he was afraid that she would leave him.

(Because it couldn’t be that it’s Ciel who was afraid that if he let go of her hands, he would disappear, right?)

But it’s not tight enough to hurt. It’s just… For Lizzy, it just shows his caring side.

She squeezes his hands, because she cares too. He’s blushing lightly and she’s blushing too.

He squeezes her hands back. Lizzy looks at their hands, and she can’t hold it in anymore. Tears start falling from her eyes and she let go of one of his hands and just jump into his arms.

“What- Lizzy, what’s wrong?” He asks, caution in his voice, because he’s afraid that he was too vulnerable, that he showed her too much and he shouldn’t do that even with her. It’s dangerous and now she’s probably confused, she-

“Hug me Ciel! I missed it!” She hides her face in a crook of his neck, and Ciel isn’t sure of anything anymore. But it’s Lizzy, his fiancée. He probably just thinks too much about it.

He does not say a world, just awkwardly place his hand on her back and start slowly stroking her back, wanting to calm her.

He did not realize two things.

One, they were holding hands all that time.

And two, his butler was watching.