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I just want to give my two cents on something.

I've played through as a fem!shep from start to finish, primarily paragon and reluctant renegade when her options are limited. I finished ME2 yesterday and started ME3 right away because I couldn't wait.

The opening to that game was actually so good? Especially the scene with the kid in the vents - I tried desperately to convince the kid to come with me, not wanting to leave him behind on a burning planet that was being savaged by Reapers.

Of course, you can't save him.

All I could think of was how Mallory (my fem!shep) was stood in the Normandy, leaving behind one of her most trusted, Anderson, watching as the little kid climbed into a shuttle, only for that shuttle to be shot out of the sky. It's a great bit of story telling in my opinion, you can see how it has affected her.

For the first time ever, I felt a powerlessness to Shepard. Like, no matter what she wanted to do, what she wanted to happen, there was nothing logistically that she could have done to save anyone.

THEN to have you follow up with a dream sequence where you are trying to reach out for the kid, only to watch them burn. Like, after everything that Shepard has been through, it would hardly be surprising to find that she has PTSD. I think that would be par for the course, you know? But I feel like this is the first time we've ever seen anything in-game to reflect just how much of a toll all of this is taking on her.

Because I don't know about anyone else's Shepard, but mine would definitely be heavily affected by that; every night is the same dream, same outcome, same feeling of powerlessness and she hates it. All the times where she'd lost people before, they were her choices, at least she had one, but this time?

No, she had to watch as the most innocent phase of life was snuffed out in an instant and all she could do was stand and stare.

IDK this scene just really stuck with me, made me tear up, and made me realise that, for all the things that Shepard has done to raise themselves to a legend... she is still just a human at the end of it all.

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I am going to write some crack fic shit with the kny lot but they all work at maccas and Muzan is the manager who hates his life and yes it is entirely inspired by this image

im also looking for who made this

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I love mutuals.

Y’all are so great. So talented. So lovely.

Whether you’re mutuals I’ve had from when I first started this blog (question, how have you survived me?) to mutuals I’ve just gained. Love you all. You’re all worthy of good things and never ending inspiration.

I’ve baked cookies pls take one

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I may... make a server for people who like Lads and anime... I feel like it's hard for me to say hello to moots and new people in those spaces on Tumblr bc im afraid tm but servers seem better? idk would ppl think that's a good idea?

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Update!!

Frank is a big boy and was gifted a bowtie for being well behaved for his groom last week. He also had a little sore spot for a couple days and was a good boy while I bathed it. Here is a new photo for him to say hello to new moots!!! He wishes you all the best and wants to give woofs and kisses <3

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Need people to understand that when I see someone commenting on my fic, I'm doing this

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For everyone who has left lovely support on previous posts, thank you 💖

Here’s an update pic of my boy

He’s been very poorly over the last week but is sleeping a lot to recover, but at least he’s on the mend!

He’s gonna have one heck of a scar! 😭

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So, Frank is much better, he's been recovering from his emergency operation for the past few days but it's a long road yet. I'm very tired. I'm very very tired and I haven't been writing at all this week even though I've wanted to, because I've been living to watch my dog 24/7 to make sure his wound is alright and that I keep on top of medications.

I've not really been active on here or discord, so for moots I am sorry I've not been around, I probably will continue to have a bit of a break and catch up on some much needed rest myself whilst I take care of my (lovingly said) idiot fluffy son.

So I'll tentatively state that this account and @gentlecipher are currently on semi-hiatus until I feel better recuperated. That may mean that when I do come back, there might be multiple one shots that get posted in quick succession, as I may spend some time getting my WIPs finished. I have two for this blog and two for GC. Anyway, I think I may actually sleep for a month. I'm so tired. Emotionally and physically.