Sugar Talking - cl16, op81
summary the f1 season is over and yn is still learning how to handle things
a/n just as a heads up, there's a little written part. it's been so long since i narrated like that (and in english!) so pls be kind to me. and i hope you enjoy this update<3 love yall
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"I'm just tipsy," I protest. "I can make it home by myself."
Oscar doesn't look convinced —probably because I keep stumbling over my own heels. And I drank all those shots with Max half an hour ago.
"I can go home with Flavy and Estie," I negotiate.
"You're not making a strong case here, yn. They went home an hour ago. They said goodbye to you before leaving".
Oops.
I grab his arm to regain balance. We are almost at the door when Charles appears in front of us. He's wearing that shirt I got him for our first anniversary with the first buttons undone and my mind wanders to places it shouldn't. I shake my head to get rid of the thoughts.
He alternates his gaze between the two of us, "Everything ok?"
"It's fine," answers Oscar. "I'm just taking her home."
I start to protest but neither of them look my way.
"I don't think that's a good idea," says Charles. "You've been drinking too, Oscar. I didn't. I can do it."
"That can't be true," I say. But I try to remember him drinking and I can't. I've been dancing and singing and drinking for hours and everytime i looked at Charles, he has been sitting with a bottle of water and staring. At me.
Oscar doesn't want to accept. But I know even though he's not drunk now, he's responsable enough to not get behind a wheel. Still, he looks at me.
"Are you sure that's ok? We can call an Uber."
Against my better judgment I nod and kiss his cheek. "I'll be ok, Osc. I want to sleep. And I need to get my feet out of these heels."
Oscar looks back at Charles.
"Text me when you drop her off."
Charles nods and turns to me. "Do you want me to carry you?"
I shake my head. "I can do it."
"Ok but let me know if that changes. My car is this way."
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My head is resting against the car window. The lights dance and play tricks with my drunken mind as we move swiftly through the streets of Monaco.
I look at Charles driving. I remember thinking long ago, when we were together, how driving would always be his one true love —but maybe I could be his second. I laugh at that thought now.
Charles spares me a glance. “What are you laughing about?”, he asks curiously.
I chuckle, “Nothing.”
He doesn't believe me but he doesn't push it.
"I had fun tonight."
"You looked like you did," he smiles fondly. "You danced the night away. Probably why your feet hurt so much."
"You might be right."
A One Direction song starts. I get excited.
When we started dating, he lost a bet against me and this was all he was allowed to play in his car for six months. But I knew he secretly loved it, because afterwards it stayed our default music for car rides. And I hadn't been able to listen to a single song by them since the breakup.
Charles turns the volume up. I sing all the words to that song (and all the following ones) until we get home.
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I barely remember getting to my room. Probably because I had my eyes closed while Charles carried me.
Even though we spent more time at his place when we were dating than here, he is still too familiar with the layout of my house.
"Don't wake up Hailey or she'll kill me," I whisper, my face buried in the curve of his neck.
"I won't," he promises.
I try not to think of how different everything is now or the combination of alcohol and memories will make me cry. I do sniff him a little —for old time sakes.
He lays me gently on my bed and begins unbuckling my heels. They have a thousand little straps and there is no way I could get them off without help. I keep my eyes closed.
"Will this become tradition? You dragging my drunken ass home?"
"Perhaps. If it means ending the night with you, I'll take it."
I roll my eyes. "Smooth talker," I tease.
He shrugs, smirking. "You used to love it."
Even in my hazy state, I feel the conversation moving towards dangerous waters.
“So, how is it going with that actress?” I ask.
I would never ask that if I was sober. Luckily I am not.
“We broke up."
“Oh” I say. “That sucks, I’m sorry.”
He smiles with humor. “You are not.”
“I am not,” I concede.
“Want to gloat?” he asks. I cringe at the memory of those messages.
“Shut up.”
I hear his quiet laugh. It feels familiar. Too familiar.
"You and Oscar?"
"He apologized. We're just friends now."
He nods.
There's a lot unsaid in the air. I wish I could grab it and make it known. I wish I knew what's in his mind, if it mirrors mine. I miss the days when I felt like I could read him. Now the way we communicated feels like a dead language I can't decipher anymore.
“I'll hate myself for saying this in the morning. But all I ever wanted was you Charles. Not you being perfect. Just you. Being here. You know that, right?”
He sighs heavily as he takes my last heel off. “I know.”
I expect for him to say more. I need him to say more. But he doesn't.
“Why did you two break up?".
He tucks me in bed but doesn't make eye contact.
"You know why."
"Say it."
He sighs. "Yn..."
"Say it," I implore.
He kisses my head. "She's not you."
He leaves a glass of water next to my bed. I close my eyes and hear him turn off the light.
He's about to leave when I speak again. "I love you, Charles. But a heart only breaks so many times."
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georgerussell63 a fellow directioner i knew i liked you🤝🏼
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carlossainz55 i take back what i said last night about missing you
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lando anyone else remembers the night in pieces?
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