Summary - Seventeen days without blood. Seventeen days of trying to change the one thing that makes you inhuman — all because you love him, but love doesn’t erase the hunger. It just shows you that Charles isn’t afraid to love you, even when you’re decaying in front of him.
Inspo - I read the fic ‘hurt me’ by @norcigs where Charles was the vampire and I wanted to write a version where the reader was the vampire!
Word count - 0.9k (925 words)
Timeline - Off season
Pairing - Charles Leclerc x vampire!reader
It’s day seventeen without blood. It’s day seventeen of cleansing yourself of the one thing you need most because as much as you hated to admit it; you love Charles. You want to be better for him. It was an odd emotion to experience because you had never wanted to be better for anyone, you enjoyed being feared; you enjoyed watching Max subconsciously stiffen around you, you enjoyed watching Oscar stop talking as soon as you entered a room and most of all you enjoyed how Lando apologised for pretty much everything in regards to you which includes that one time he had apologised for breathing the same air as you. Yet Charles wasn’t like that, he wasn’t afraid to talk to you and he didn't need to be compelled when he found out that you’re a vampire, he just saw you in the same way that he always had.
Charles’ unwavering opinion of you is probably how you’ve ended up here with his fingers threaded through your curly hair as you lay against his chest, your breathing shallow and a thick layer of sweat coating your shaking body. You can hardly focus on whatever he was talking about because the desire for blood is clouding your other senses. It feels like your body is being torn apart vein by vein and being tossed into a raging fire that’s having gasoline poured into it consistently. He must notice this because he stops talking and looks down at you with those eyes that definitely shouldn’t be filled with love.
“Chérie, this is getting ridiculous, you need blood.” He says, and you look into his eyes that are pure from compulsion, reminding yourself that you’re doing this because for the first time you really love someone. You love him.
“I want to be better. For you.” You reply, the response becoming an instinct now whenever he brings it up, as you try to fight your body against an urge that it was so used to you giving in to. “I’m doing this for you.”
“But I don't want you to torture yourself into being better for me. I want you the way you are. Blood-sucking vampire traits and all.” He tells you, brushing beads of sweat off of you’re greying skin like you're a precious porcelain doll. Everybody else walks on eggshells around you, trying to avoid angering you but no one handles you with as much care as Charles does, no one experiences your soft side like Charles does.
“I can’t. I want to be better for you. I’m sure the pain will subside soon enough.” You try to reassure him but the lack of blood is making you slightly delirious, causing you to stumble over your words.
Charles takes one of his arms from around your waist and holds his wrists to your lips. “You’ve been saying that since day eleven, chérie, but you’ve only gotten worse.” He says, sighing as you shake your head. “Come on, a little bit, just to help you regain some strength.
He’s right about the pain and in all honesty you didn’t know how long it would take for the pain to subside, yet you still push his arm away. “I don’t want to hurt you.” You murmur, your eyelids fluttering shut and Charles sighs once again, not enjoying you writhing away right before his eyes.
“You won’t hurt me, I promise. Please, it hurts me to see you in such agony due to the way you think I perceive you.” He begs, bringing his wrist back up to your lips. Your fingers wrap around it, trying to push it away but he holds his ground. “Please. I can’t keep watching you do this to yourself.”
Your fingers go slack at his words, sliding off his wrist as you cave, the mixture of exhaustion and begging fogging your senses. “Are you sure?” You question weakly and he has his wrist brush your lips lightly.
“Of course, mon chéri.” He says and with that you let the urges take over. You sink your teeth into his vein, he doesn’t even flinch as you begin drawing blood, he simply cradles your head and talks you through it. “There you go, I’m okay, take as much as you need. Go on.” He whispers gently into your hair, placing a small kiss of encouragement.
You pull back, breathing heavily and a tear rolls down your cheek from guilt; Charles really knew how to pull every emotion out of you. “Oh my– I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to hurt you. I-I don’t know why I did that, I’m so sorry.” You apologise, panicking, your eyes flying open in shame at realisation of what you’ve just done to the one person you love most on the earth.
“Hey, shush shush. I’m okay, okay? I’m completely fine, I let you feed off of me, I just wanted you to be healthy again.” He reassures you, wiping away your tears. “You did so well for me, chérie, I know it was hard and I know that you didn’t want to but you did so well.” He praises, understanding that was not only emotionally overwhelming with the flood of guilt but also physically demanding as you regained some strength. He pulls the duvet over you and you allow your eyes to fall shut again with fatigue.
“Charles… I’m sorry.” You whisper before letting sleep pull you under but he doesn’t reply, knowing that this apology wasn’t for drinking his blood, rather you apologising for what you are.
Hi Nini🥰 Can I request best friends to lovers with Charles? (It's ok if not, I didn't get if askbox is open or not)
hello helloo, this is the cutest trope, thank you for requesting! and i'm sorry for taking so long with it :( hopefully you'll still like it!
prompt:
best friends to lovers
'okay, let's go over the list again. phone chargers and headphones?'
charles tries and fails to act annoyed; he's mostly endlessly endeared by your love for all kind of check lists and your diligence in going over them at least three times. he doesn't even try to point out that bags were packed under your supervision yesterday - he's not strong enough to withstand your pouty face and he also knows how restless you get if you don't check everything again. so, he bites inside of his cheek to prevent himself from smiling like a fool and declares: 'chargers and headphones are here. what's next?'
charles indulges you for the next twenty minutes, checks every single item from your list and doesn't look even a tiny bit mad when you two finish. his patience towards you has no limits, just like his desire to soothe your worries and help you feel peaceful. he zips both bags, when you sigh in relief and plop right next to him on the ground, leaning on his shoulder casually. 'thanks, charles. i know it must've been annoying, but i was anxious.'
careful not to disturb you, he moves closer to the wall to lean on it. 'it's nothing. if to ease your anxiety i have to pack and repack these bags ten times, i'd do it, you know it.'
there's a beat of silence and then your hand wraps lightly around his. 'yeah, i know.'
and you do know. it's probably one the most amazing feelings in the world - to be this assured in another person. you cannot bet on yourself, but you can bet on charles when it comes to being your best friend. he's your pillar of strength, your constant support, your closest person. you never thought it's possible to be this sure in someone and yet. you never question him because he never gave you reasons to; his loyalty to you is like a pledge he wears on his skin proudly, shows it off to everyone if they ask. earth is round, sky is blue and charles leclerc is always there for you. it could've been so, so good if only it didn't make you want to cry.
'hey, don't fall asleep on me. you know your neck will hurt and i didn't pack that gel which always helps ease up the stiffness,' he says gently.
charles is always gentle. it's not really in his nature, but by default it's how he is with you. how can he not be? you're a flower in his eyes and only gentleness and care will help you flourish (which is the only thing he wants for you). his fingers itch with desire to hold you gently as well, to cradle you in his arms and keep you safe and loved but he ignores it. he is really good at ignoring a lot of his feelings towards you, because flowers can only take gentleness and there's nothing gentle in his feelings. no, his feelings for you are closer to forces of the nature in their strengths: unstoppable, uncontrollable, all-consuming. charles is so gentle with you, how can he let you know that his chest is doing a god's work every time, not letting his feelings slip? they can come out and envelop you whole, leave nothing to anyone else and he.. is not like that. can't be like that with you.
'you also started getting neck pains?' you ask, lifting your head from his shoulder. you look worried, searching for something on his face.
'no, i usually carry that gel for you.' charles answers easily, shrugging it off.
silence settles again. lately, silence started to settle much more often between you two and while usually it's a good companion, this specific kind of silence hangs heavy. this silence is filled with unspoken words and hesitance, it's charged with tension which none of you dare to break. everything always comes to its' boiling point and you can't help but think that your friendship with charles is hanging by a thread and you can't tell which way it should fall: to the left, where everything will be left exactly as it is right now or to the right, where you'll be in the new territory of confessed feelings? and charles feels it too, can barely sleep this last month due to this heaviness in his heart, which refuses to carry the weight of unspoken love anymore.
'will we...' you start, taking a deep breath. god, if there's anyone for who you are ready to fall, it's сharles. '...talk about it? about this elephant in the room?'
charles's breath hitches. seconds tick away and they last for eternity, making you think that time stopped at some moment. overthinking spiral starts to draw you in, when he voices out: 'which elephant in the room? the one about me being in love with you for longer than i can remember or the one where you never gave back any of my hoodies?'
charles watches as your eyes widen and how your mouth opens and then closes in shock. he watches how you collect yourself, internally applauds himself for not freaking out and keeping that beast called love inside of his chest for now.
'i- the first one.' you mutter, shaking a little. 'definitely the first one and you can also add info on why you never said anything.'
will you understand? will you get that he was actually trying to shelter you from his selfish side? will you accept that his love is too big, too real, too much for someone as delicate as you? that he held himself back for your own sake? his hesitance spurs you to take his hand in his and squeeze it gently. 'tell me. i will understand. you are my best friend, char. first and foremost - you are my best friend.'
'and then?' he grunts, barely forcing his tongue to move.
you smile and hope grows in his chest. 'and then my boyfriend. my one and only. do you like the sound of that?'
does he like it? god, do you even know what you do to him? beast inside doesn't roar to his surprise; no, it curls up in satisfaction instead, finally calming down. oh. oh. 'i like the sound of that very much,' he musters the courage to say.
maybe he was wrong about his beast all this time. maybe his feelings never meant harm, maybe they can not only destroy, but plant something else instead. you lean in and oh, charles gets it. his feelings were meant to plant more flowers, pretty flowers. just like you.
a/n: if you think that this somewhere along the way turned into something else then you'd be right, but i couldn't stop and i'm posting this anyway. let me know what you think! - nini
a singer's life is falling apart and the world watches her turn her pain into music
contains; smau, angst, fem!reader, singer!reader, fc used for reader (olivia rodrigo, alexandra saint-mleux)
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yourusername
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yourusername four years with the love of my life, here's to many, many more. i love you so much charles_leclerc
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charles_leclerc I love you too, chérie
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lando Happy anniversary!
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user1 CUTIESSSSS
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user2 THE FAMILY PHOTO WITH LEO I'M SOBBING
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yourusername
🎵 Bejeweled — Taylor Swift
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yourusername By the way, I'm going out tonight...
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user1 i'm in love with you
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user2 you look gorgeousssss
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user3 mother
user4 charles leclerc can you fight
| user5 speaking of charles, he didn't like this post lol
| user4 WAIT WHAT
| user6 WHAT???
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yourusername New song coming soon
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lando Well you don't sound very excited about it
user1 the caption? she's normally so excited when she releases music
user2 anyone else notice charles didn't like this?
| user3 that's so weird, he's normally first to like all her posts
| user4 he didn't like her last post either
| user3 you don't think...
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yourusername Here we go again...
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user1 WHAT DOES THIS MEAN
user2 NEW MUSIC??
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user3 she's wearing ferrari red, we're safe
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🎵 Nobody's Son — Y/N L/N
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yourusername Nobody's Son out now.
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user1 ...so i think charlesy/n may have broken up
| user2 ya think?
lando Love the song, I'm here if you need anything
| yourusername thank you angel <3
| user3 omg wait i ship
| user4 gross she's with charles
| user3 did you listen to the song???
user5 who got leo in the breakup?
| user6 THAT'S what you're worried about??
| user5 i just want to know he's safe
| yourusername He's safe with his evil father
| user5 girl what did that man do to you...
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f1gossip Y/N L/N has released her new song, Nobody's Son, which seems to confirm everyone's suspicions: her and Charles Leclerc have split up after 4 years together.
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user1 NOOOOOOOOOOOO
user2 i never thought this day would come
user3 who got leo?
| user4 y/n confirmed charles did </3
user5 in tears
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yourusername Goodbye means that you're losing me for life.
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user1 IS THIS ANOTHER LYRIC?
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user2 Charles Marc Hervé Perceval Leclerc sleep with one eye open
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user3 song of the year incoming
| yourusername try album of the year
| user3 OH???
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🎵 My Man On Willpower — Y/N L/N
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yourusername This is an album I never thought I'd write. Man's Best Friend is now yours.
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lando So proud of you
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user1 sorry i can't talk rn album of the year just dropped
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user2 y/n are you okay??
| yourusername I will be ❤️
user3 charles in the likes???
| user4 he's gonna unlike once he hears the album lmao
