The classpect system and mental illness
Disclaimer- obviously this will be talking about mental illness. There’s nothing explicit or triggering but if you’re not feeling it right now, it’s totally fine to skip. I talk about my experiences with depression, anxiety, and autism, and I also mention ADHD and personality disorders.
Boy, having a solid grasp of one’s identity sure is difficult with several different disorders in the way. But I haven’t seen anyone discussing this with regards to classpecting, so I’m here to talk about it. This is going to differ from person to person, disorder to disorder, so if you’re trying to figure out your title as someone with mental illness, take some time to ponder this.
I think the main question here is: is the mental disorder a core of who you are? Even if you would act different without it, would you be a whole different person?
For me, it’s a bit of both. I don’t define myself with depression and anxiety because I feel that they only affect how I act and what I can do. I’d jump at the chance to be rid of them because I’m sure I could live up to more of my potential without the apathy and fatigue of depression, without the constant second-guessing and nausea of anxiety.
However, I am autistic, and that’s completely different. I was born autistic, I’ll die autistic, and even if there was a cure I wouldn’t take it. I wouldn’t be myself without it because it’s the way I process things, the way I feel things, the way I connect with people, and the way my whole life has been structured.
Are you indecisive and absorbed with making the best choice possible because your aspect is mind? Or is it because anxiety is forcing you to ruminate on that instead of what you’d prefer to be doing?
Are you very concerned with remaining free and untethered because your aspect is breath? Or is it because depression is telling you not to get involved with anyone because they won’t like you anyway?
Are you an active, restless person who prefers to make any decision, including bad ones, over no decision at all because your aspect is time? Or do you have ADHD and need more stimulation than others so impulsivity is the result?
When I was first figuring out my classpect title, I paid attention to filtering out the hopelessness that comes along with depression because I knew that on my good days, that wasn’t a part of who I was, and I didn’t want to be like that. On the other hand, I think my autism actually keyed me into the rage aspect; autistic people often have very strong ideas of right and wrong, and take it very seriously when people don’t feel the same. My morality is a little confusing, to others and sometimes myself, but regardless it’s something that leads my life and I get very intense about it.
Developmental disorders like autism and ADHD are often just a part of who you are regardless of how society treats the more inconvenient symptoms as if they’re choices. Personality disorders can be the same way depending on the person; they’re something you gain during childhood and often can’t be completely “cured” so I’ve heard some people say they wouldn’t want it completely gone and some people say that it’s nothing but a burden to them.
Unfortunately, understanding the way your mental illness reflects on your identity isn’t really something I can walk someone through like I can with classpects.
I just wanted to make this post in case it resonates with anyone else, especially those still trying to understand themselves. I’ve seen a couple people suggest that if you struggle with identity, your aspect is probably heart, but I don’t think it’s that simple for people with disorders that have “lack of stable identity” as an official symptom.














