SLS UPDATE!!!
That’s right! I ended up getting a series of ketamine infusions to pull me out of the nosedive my mood went through (like, just SO bad and getting worse for months and months). It did ~AMAZING~ things for my depression. I’m still struggling with my anxiety but I’ve gotten some of my meds back that were helping me so much (and was basically what helped me focus enough to write SLS in the first place) and things are looking up for the first time in more than 6 months.
So not a particularly inspiring or happy update, but it does mean I’ve been able to write more SLS. I skipped ahead to the end in order to try and motivate myself (Claire and Lex’s fight is still challenging the extent of my dialog skills, and conflict-triggered anxiety, but I’ve been practicing every day on my personal WIPs) and I’ve now got a rough draft of the epilogue!
Whoo! Progress! My epilogue is some 5.5K, just in case anyone was concerned that I had found some brevity or learned to distill my thoughts in my absence. NOPE. It’s pretty much one big spoiler about how I plan to end things so I could post it if anyone is interested, but I’m not going to spoil things for people who are just hoping I haven’t abandoned it. My plan right now is to dig out my old outlines and character studies to immerse myself back in the world. My themes and major beats are still intact, but I‘ve lost sight of how I planned the major events of the third chapter.
So if you’re concerned about SLS, never fear, I might have an update soon. Like maybe this year. Perhaps even before the one-year anniversary of the first chapter. (‘-’*)
Oh man, I’m so sorry to the people who read 20K only to hit a major cliffhanger and will probably not want to delve back in an re-read 20K just to understand the (planned) 40K second chapter (which will end on another cliffhanger). I love you subscribers. I promise, I won’t give up. I’ve read hundred of hours of Smallville fic and I owe it to the giants that came before me to add to the fandom (no matter how dead it is *cries*).
Me: Adding a few thousand words here and there on personal WIPs not meant to be shared while studiously ignoring my languishing published project. Also me in the sudden absence of major, unmanageable depression: