#closeted trans

[frankensteinposm0]

Don't call me that.

[rylandgracethespaceace]

The desire to be forcemasced because I’m too scared to come out and instead want someone to forcibly transition me and parade me around and introduce me as their boyfriend and act like anyone calling me a girl is insane because can’t they see I’m clearly a boy and….

[coloredangel]

I'm tired of being so useless...

My brain won't let me do anything unless there's pressure from someone else, so I can't do anything to make myself better.

This might not work, but I don't have any other ideas. I'll do the notes game thing, and maybe, just maybe, the fear of disappointing random people on the internet might be enough to trick my brain into doing something, so...

Not done/Doing/Done

2 notes: stop putting off learning to draw (still learning...)

4 notes: stop trying to poke myself with knifes and actually contact the lifeline (...)

8 notes: get a new job (my old job hasn't paid me yet, and I feel like I should be more worried about it)

16 notes: make music more frequently

32 notes: buy and wear a skirt (I've identified the kind of skirt I'm going to buy, but it'll probably be safer after I find somewhere else to live)

64 notes: leave this place (looking for a place with affordable rent)

128 notes: start that videogame project I've been putting off

256 notes: go to therapy (I'm checking the alternatives, but it seems like it might be better to physically be there instead of therapy online...I'll keep investigating for now)

512 notes: go to a pride parade (I couldn't do it this year, it was too risky, so I'll go next year if I don't give up by then)

1024 notes: legally change my name (and gender if I figure it out by then) (also maybe do some gender affirming stuff, idk)

2048 notes: I don't have any goal for this, so you tell me what to do... (Current ideas that I got from some of you: 1. HRT / 2. there's no number 2 yet)

This whole thing might be a dumb idea. If this doesn't trick my brain like I expect, then I guess I'm doomed...

[haddlock]

[theshittlergiggler]

Did a small animation abt my hc for classic matt lmfao but i got lazy at the end

[twiggy212]

When you lwk trans but you have a job and are still in school

[crane-au-sonic-the-hedgehog]

i Like the idea of abel (the blue ai) realizing she/they are trans And not saying a word about it But unlike jax not really being a asshole about it just Very quiet Because Closet anxiety and hoping no one asks about it

[zs-art]

Pride is for them. 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️