April 1st 2026,
Day 5 No Orgasms for me. Probably about 12 for my Daddy! How he came, in my throat or my cunt, I couldn’t tell you hahaa, but I should start a tally!
The other day in my desperation I begged Daddy to start helping deny me again. He asked how long I was thinking and what I had in mind and I told him I’d like to try to last longer than the last time he denied me the week before our wedding and all of our honeymoon. We had never found a cake to cuck me on our trip, but he did have a video call with another woman and he also openly flirted and talked with other sexy women the whole time and took me to burlesque shows almost nightly while there. I think it was 14 days in total between orgasms. And when we started that I had no idea how long I’d actually be able to make it but my goal was till the day after our wedding. By about day 5 or 6 I was in such a slutty mental state, loving the feeling of my pussy used and my clit swollen that I was begging him to keep me denied past our wedding night. I had 0 orgasms on my wedding day but got cummed on, cummed in and pissed on while wearing my veil. We never set a date for when I’d cum again after that, he just helped keep me edging along. By day 9 I decided my orgasm should happen if I can take his cock in my ass, something I still struggle with. But by day 9 of being denied and falling further into subspace, I was begging for him to stretch and break in a tighter hole than pussy for him to use and decided if I can take his cock in my ass, then I’ve been a good enough girl to have earned my orgasms back…
So when he asked me the other day what I was thinking and for how long, I really didn’t know how to answer. Maybe a month? 🥹 Could I make it a month 🥺? What would my headspace be like by day 20? What might I be begging him for at that time?
This time, we have a cake. We started dating a woman together a few months ago and while we’ve been all dating together, I did recently share with her that I’m a cuckquean and I enjoy denial sometimes. Idk that she grasps the extent of my desires to be cucked by her and others yet, but she did say she is always happy to put on a show for me if I’d like to watch rather than participate. So I partially hope she might play into things with my Daddy too and they can be more intimate with each other directly with less involvement from me and allow me to witness it.
What will I be like by day 30? Will I be panicking again like I was the day of our wedding? Thinking my denial stretch is almost over and not feeling ready to give it up? Enjoying the slutty mental space I’ve fallen into, desperate to become a better sex object, desperate to be degraded further, desiring to keep seeing how far I’ll fall down the rabbit hole. Last time I chose I could cum if it’s from anal. I’m not sure how I’d decide to earn my orgasms back this time…how much further I’ll fall. I guess we’ll find out! 😌