//Okay this hit me like a ton of bricks whole driving, but Alexander is in a performance of the Nutcracker and spies Klaus in the crowd, Klaus non the wiser bc of the costume and his intense focus on business, talking to a Bratva man during it.
i need to know how Alexander would take this
Alexander danced pre pro. Quit around 20 and took a 13 year break. He is 33 now.
Even with his excessive combat training and continued frequent cardio, it was tough returning to ballet. His body felt sore in the first couple of weeks, things like hot baths were his new best friend. Certain things he used to excel in he was not great at any more. But his turns and balance were better than his pre pro days. He knew he could not ever think about 'getting back' to where he once was. His body was different, and so was he. It would take time to rediscover the dancer he was now.
His turnout would never be the way it used to be. He used to be extremely proficient on pointe, but now the demands of pointe were almost too much on his body. Being able to happily do 16 fouettes en pointe, now he was lucky if he got about 12 on demi. He definitely had improved heaps since he restarted and had regained a lot of technique, but he would never be at the level he had been at 18.
For optimal performance in dance and to prevent injuries, it was essential for dancers of all ages to engage in a targeted warm-up routine before each class or performance. While many dancers include stretching into their pre-class routine, stretching alone is not considered a warm-up and does not effectively prepare a dancer’s body. He would start with getting the body warm, then move on to mobilizing his joints, to dynamic stretching and preparation of the nervous system.
What many did not know (or did not think of) was that warming up was not only about physical readiness, but also about mental preparation. A proper warm-up allowed dancers to transition from a state of rest or inactivity to an active and alert state. Going through a warm-up routine triggered a psychological switch, signaling the brain that it was time to focus and perform. It helped dancers mentally prepare for the demands of their training and could help reduce anxiety before performances. The warm-up phase was also important to increase the mind-body connection. This whole process could improve the concentration by shifting the focus away from external distractions and towards class instruction, alignment, technique and choreography. The mental readiness achieved through warm-ups helped dancers perform their best.
It would be that same mental readiness that would be shattered when he catches Klaus not only between the spectators but when he sees him with a face that he knows. It would be much worse if Alexander noticed the Bratva man first and THEN seeing that the person he is talking to is Klaus. It would hit him like a ton of bricks.
He would do his best to continue performing while his concentration is broken like this, the reason why he has done all of it and invested all of his time and sweat for this performance would have been lost. The ache for the calmness and quietness, the innate excitement of staring out into near blackness while everything but the music was so quiet. The nervousness that made him feel so alive while he was simultaneously trying to stay calm and feel the moves, trying to perform his best extension and cleanest lines. The emotional resonance when dancing, when he was shedding all those dark thoughts and emotions, stepping into the light and dissolving into music. That overall wonderful and magical feeling that he wanted to feel and claim for himself, one more time. Unachieved.
He would feel like a tragedy. The reality is that there is no escaping from how he feels and what life is for him. The past will not take him back and he would start to question if the past held anything for him to begin with, if the present already does not. Where is his place? Somewhere where friendships are much too complicated and where he was without the right to have them. To have any connection outside of work, really. Because none of it is real. He is not real.
Then he wouldfall into work mindset solely.