#codeman500

[talesofahealingheart]

I run that’s what I do and I am so sorry it has effected you

I love you. I will always love you. I want you to do what you feel is right. Fix what I broke and I will fix me. And then maybe just maybe you would consider giving me a second chance at loving you. A second chance at being the woman to spend your life with. To birth and raise your kids. Because for fucks sake I love you and I’m so lost right now. I’m no where near moving on. I will never move on from you. One day I won’t run away and one day hopefully it will be you and I all over again. From the start. Hi my name is Kiera it’s nice to meet you, what’s your name?

[talesofahealingheart]

You know you look for the constant on thing when you have a recurring problem and are fights were mainly started by you about my depression. It’s okay though because he understands it more than you do so when you get out of the cupcake phase and realize the we all have problems and there won’t be fight over them if you don’t start them maybe then you’ll understand. Come on even your mom agreed with me to a point. But have fun with the new feeling and blank slate and when all the fog of new clears away don’t be surprised.

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You had her tell me?

Do you think you could have a love with her that you did with me? Guess I’ll just have to really think about what I want because if it took you a few weeks to move on from three years that damn...

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You just want to make sure I never get over you

[talesofahealingheart]

I’m not sorry I’m in love with you

And I never will be. Give her the chance of a lifetime. Show her how great of a guy you are. Let her know what it feels like when you pull her closer in the middle of the night because it only takes you seconds to notice the shake of a nightmare that plagues her mind at 2am. Let her know what it feels like to laugh until your crying in the middle of a tickle fight. Let her understand you like I do. Like what it means when you take those deep breaths when you’re upset. Let her know that when you do that it’s not necessarily her but the fact your mother raised you right to bite your tongue so you don’t regret the next thing that comes out of your mouth. Teach her how to rub your back just the right way to get the knot in your shoulder out without to much pressure. Show her how to crack your back because if she makes you sleep in uncomfortable positions during the night like I did sometimes you’ll need that relief in the morning. Get to know the way she needs to be loved. Let alacrity fall in love with her cuddles. Let her get to experience moms cooking. Let her fall in love with you the I did. And love her back. But if you still feel the way you do about me don’t lead her on like that. And if you fall in love with her more than you could love me than I wish you nothing but happiness. But know that no matter what I will still be in love with you. Know that you are still all I want. Know that I could be with anyone and all it would take is one call from you for me to come running. You were my first for a lot of things. And I will always hope you’ll be my last.