#colin rambles

[clevery-guyy]

“Louis Wain’s art got more and more psychedelic as his schizophrenia worsened.. omg he went crazy..” SHUT UP SHUT THE FUCK UP STOP FUCKING DEMONIZING THE MENTALLY ILL AND DISABLED STOP FUCKING DEMONIZING DISORDERS YOU FIND SCARY SHUT THE FUCK UP THIS IS ALSO FACTUALLY INCORRECT GO FUCK YPURSELF

His final illustration. I love Louis Wain, my favorite artist. This one really hits

[sword-sys]

Not to be gay on the sys blog but if a boy kissed me I’d die

[f1uffy-turtle]

Quick question

So, I was wondering if you guys would be interested in me sharing the stuff that I have been writing for quite some time now? From short stories to song lyrics and the like. It'd be really appreciated if I get replies or reblogs for this. Maybe even some constructive criticism, especially since I've been really insecure about my creations since forever.

[clevery-guyy]

ACTUALLY HOT TAKE BTW! (Moots pls don’t hate me for this)

Been getting a bunch of radqueer and radnormal shit on my page dude,,,,, 😭 like idgaf about neither but I took a peek and why do radq just seem more happy? I don’t agree with many concepts such as transrace or transabled, or xenosatanism. But like, other than that idgaf. Because (in my opinion) it isn’t really super horrid to want to accept even the ‘worst’ identities. Like how paraphiles are told to dni but objectum is allowed and mega normalized. You know that’s a para too right..? And there’s a lot of terms that I think like originated from the whole radqueer thing that are also normalized (take lesboy as an example, which I am myself btw!) and while looking at some stuff I noticed that the radnormals were like. Mean. They were so VIOLENT with gifs of them hanging radqs and shit like oh my god dude this might sound insane but I don’t think anyone deserves to die like ever. Also paras are mental disorders, not saying if you have one that you are insane but I’m saying that you are kinda hating on something someone has developed in their brain. I looked at radnormal and it seemed so full of hatred, discourse, like it was made to be hateful. But the radq spaces were like. A little house of (not well) people.

TLDR; I think the whole rq rn thing is crazy, but at least the radq are happy and not drawing art of people being hanged (they actually flip it to be funny or wholesome). I myself am not radqueer nor do I align with the beliefs (for the most part) but I don’t care what you do really. Feel free to disagree or debate or chat about it! I took this more as an opinion backed thing than a facts based thing!

(I also think the whole proship debate thing is stupid. Sorry but I really am ambivalent towards it. That’s why I don’t have a dni, I don’t really care about your personal stuff unless you make it my problem.)

[clevery-guyy]

I want to get into animal hospital, it’s really fun and I enjoy playing it. But I’m scared that it might make my dhmis fixation go away.

So if anyone has any tips on how to have two fixations at the same time that would be great

[clevery-guyy]

Spoilers for TADC final act underneath! Read at own caution ⚠️

I have to ramble about this episode man, like so bad.

Okay first of all, let’s address the elephant in the room.. JAX IS A TRANS GIRL!!! I knew it! I knew she was! And she’s an emo?! Ohhh my gosh. But her being trans does not excuse her actions! And gangle had every right to have these mixed feelings. But I have a thought. The feminine (maid Jax) side of him (as shown in the abstraction scene) seemed to have had a teasing crush on gangle. While it may not seem genuine. I think it was an actual romantic interest on her. Maybe I’m reaching too hard but since Jax is SO deep in the closet the teasing could have just been another way to repress the gender trouble she was having. It could have been a case of “if boys tease girls when they have a crush on them” which is very stereotypical and may have even been a way of masculinization towards herself. So what if she really DID like gangle and was trying to keep the egg uncracked at the SAME TIME..

But of course this doesn’t excuse what she did to gangle. Gangle never deserved the horrible treatment she received and she had every single right to have complications about Jax’s abstraction. She didn’t cry and I understand why. I would not cry for someone whose main goal was to make me miserable. Also gangle is a brown girl let’s gooo but gangle wasn’t as focused on so I personally don’t have very much to say about her.

I loved the character growth, even if a bit rushed. But the movement of the stars implies that this happened over years on end as the circus was made to comfort the characters. Caine’s development was likely rushed because of the time crunch. But I like to see it as a moment of regret, I’ve had those before too. That right after it all happened you get what happened, you understand how you hurt people and you know what you could have done.

Pomni’s character arc was also amazing. I loved her fear growing into maturity and how she had helped others. Pomni really was a wake up call. But I’m saving my favorite for last

Ragatha. Oh dear Ragatha.. I cried so much for her. I understood completely. One example being the yelling scene with Jax. Of course ragatha is trying to diffuse things at first, but then Jax yells at her too. Tells her that she can stay with mommy. That immediately got me sobbing, she thought she had no freedom in the circus, that she was trapped. But reality set in. She wasn’t just trapped in the circus, she might have been trapped in her own home with her mother. Both worlds she would be left suffering with no resolve, which is why it hit even harder when she learned she had her own successful career! Ragatha was free, she was happy. Or at least Susie was. But that was enough to make ragatha feel a little bit more free too. And with Jax, again. Trying to be friendly and kind towards someone that hates you. That always seems to be horrible to you. Because you don’t want it to happen again, what did you do to mess up this time? To make them angry? You need to fix it. The part that hit me hardest though, was after Jax had yelled at Ragatha, and she just stood there. She was frozen, I can’t put it into words but she was trying to protect herself. I know the feeling all too well, getting screamed at by your own parents. Constantly. And all you can do is freeze, if you don’t move don’t do anything don’t say anything then you might be okay. Just face it, let them yell at you and don’t talk don’t move or get even worse of a reaction worse of a punishment more screaming. I can’t describe it more than this primal fear, you stare as things get out of focus and all you can hear is screaming, time warps and moves slower, everything gets blurry you can’t do anything but freeze on the person nothing but that and the fear in your head. I knew what it was when I saw it. It was portrayed incredibly. Even when she was off to the side I kept my eyes on her I couldn’t look away, I saw that all too familiar look. Like a scared animal.

[clevery-guyy]

Hello world =]

Colin’s the name; art is my game (he/him) I am 15 years of age (soy Latino 🇨🇴🇨🇺)

Art requests = OPEN!

Art trades = OPEN!

With art requests, I would highly prefer if they had to do with stuff I actually know (dhmis, dandys world, mlpFIM, etc). Sorry if it sounds rude

My Pinterest is computery_guy

I love my fictional husbands

[clevery-guyy]

Who is YOUR designated experiencing the horrors character!

(Mine is colin who suffers the most, but also shrig and lamp)