And I will keep going. Because I deserve this. I deserve this degree. I started this fight and I'm going to finish it. I can do this. Depression is lying to me. I am capable. YOU are capable.
There's something to be said about the video game analogy with the struggle of success. Recently, I beat a major final boss in a video game. I won't go into detail for spoilers' sake.
My first attempt, I got obliterated on turn two. I looked up a guide and tried again. I thought I had figured out the pattern, and still got taken out several turns into phase one of a three phase fight. So I backed out, and decided to max out my party's levels and unlock all their skills.
I stepped back from the seemingly impossible situation, and spent three hours grinding. It was boring. It was tedious. But it was necessary, and I knew that. It was all going to be worth it in the end.
There was a point during this three-hour period where I said "The enemies I have to actually fight give me more EXP than the lower level auto-battles, so even though they take more time I'll go for those, too."
I went back to the boss after maxing out everyone's levels and skills, and while I still had to focus and think about my decisions in battle, I won. And there's a really cliche sappy life lesson in that.
This is super freaking cringe and I will not apologize. My ramblings must be freed to the hellsite so I may share motivation or whatever. You can do it, nerds.
