I’m crying and a little bit overwhelmed but in a good way. I wanted to get my life together and start living not just existing. So I bought a pass to a Shadowhunters convention in Scotland next March. That means I have to actually get over my fears face my anxiety and get a job. Have to get a passport and leave my Country for the first time ever. It’s a little scary but it’s something I really want to do. So I now have a goal to work towards it’s gonna be a lot of stress and work but I’m gonna do it. I am gonna step out of all my comfort zones and do something I thought I never could. Go somewhere I never thought I would be able to go. Make the impossible possible. Oh and Matthew Daddario being there is obviously great motivation. I’m gonna owe him for this for sure. I said no way would I commit this early without him and of course he was announced first. Maybe I’m too emotional it’s just a big deal for me.