amihan’s note: might revamp this when i come back, kinda putting out half-assed at this point so i can somehow satisfy myself before taking a break, happy reading!
tagging; @dora-the-grownup sorry for the wait and the way i didn't put much effort to this 🙏😭
ex-boyfriend!colt x fem!reader
if there's anything colt may be known for it will be his dedication. once he sets eyes on something, or in this case, someone he likes, he will go out of his way just to keep them by his side.
he clears his throat while rubbing his clammy hands against his jeans, fiddling with the tucked in button-up as he rack through his brain going over how the scenario will play out.
'you'll be fine, just do like what you've practiced in front of the mirror' he encouraged himself while nodding in agreement. however, as soon as his eyes stumble upon you, his brain automatically shuts down.
his once rehearsed lines went in from one ear and went out the other, mind blank while staring at the item wrapped around your hair, a neatly tied bow on top of your head.
colt doesn't remember standing in front of you but seeing your bewildered expression tells him that there will be no turning back. "colt…" you trail off, hand unconsciously tugging on the ribbon.
"do you need something?" you voice shy and quiet.
his heart aches recalling reiner's words “she’s been quiet ever since you two broke up. she doesn’t even hang out with us anymore,” the blond takes a deep breath, mentally preparing himself.
opening his eyes, he looks straight into yours, staring deeply to your eyes. “you still have that?” he says while motioning to your hair. colt mentally punches himself, out of all the questions he has to blurt out it really have to be that one.
while he’s having an inner argument with himself you reach out and hold his hand, “colt,” your gaze fleeting down to the ground as you continue your words, “i’m willing to give it another try if that’s what you came here for.”
his eyes widen at your offer, “are you sure?” he stutters out, voice shaky from both excitement and fear. fear that he will soon wake up from this wonderful dream and live another day without you tucked in his arms.
you nod your head affirmatively. during the past months, not only reiner but all of the group pursued you nonstop, asking on colt's behalf to give him another chance. “but… you got hurt.. i made you cry,”
he retreats his hands from yours while taking a step back, “i don’t deserve you, y/n” he says while shaking his head, trying to convince himself more than you. “i shouldn’t have done it, shouldn’t have broken your heart.”
you shake your head to his statements, taking the initiative to come closer and cup his face. “it wasn’t your fault,” you give him a sad smile, thumb caressing his cheek. “it was back then, i was clouded with nothing but anger.”
colt looks back at you, eyes glassy from the tears he’s holding back. “what i failed to see was how you owned up to it,” you push his hair back, both of you nodding along your words.
“how you’re willing to change it as soon as you realize.” a tear rolls down his cheek, closing his eyes as he basks in your comfort.
“but colt..” you sniffle, unbeknown that tears have been streaming down your face. he hums letting you know he’s listening, “i need time.”
you lean forward, foreheads touching each other, mirroring him as you close your eyes.
“i need time to trust you again, i can’t guarantee you when,” your voice cracking from how hurt you’re feeling on the inside, the memory still fresh from your mind.
colt nods, understanding your reasons. he brings up a hand to cup your face pulling away to leave a kiss on your forehead, his kiss lingering.
“and i will earn your trust again, i’ll never get tired of pursuing you even if it means following you ‘till the end of the earth.”
