When I have nothing to think about, my mind either wanders into remembering how much I loved holding you tight, or some nights I just dive into a monologue in my own mind, arguing through theology and when I feel completely alone. I venture into a new part of life saying to myself, "We all worship a God who already taught me how to die." And would he do it again if he knew I was going to be survive? I get on my knees to get closer to the sky, because I wanted to do the same; and I had my many blessings... then I kissed them goodbye; because I have this habit of being selfish. And blaming my shortcomings on just being a habit. But I love it because it's convenient. And I keep saying I'm gonna change, and I am changing every day, I understand now what I did wrong. I would've killed for one more chance to redeem my self worth... But now I know nothing but time can fix true love. Even then, it's not guaranteed. So until then I'll just keep moving forward, learning and searching. Then I remember again the moment I destroyed the one person I ever truly loved. Just to find out that I had no idea what love was. And the conformity that came with materialistic ambitions reduced my heart to nothing more than a target for depression. When no product is for luxury anymore, and now just a cure for this depression. Should I turn my back on her, hoping to find a new solution? ...✍ -MF🌻 ~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Follow, Add, Like, Subscribe, Stalk: Twitch.tv/MichaelFoxx YouTube.com/c/MichaelFoxx Instagram.com/MiikeFoxx Twitter.com/MiikeFoxx Facebook.com/FoxxGamingChannel ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Shameless plug hashtags: #sadart #comfortablechaos #disabledgamer #beardedgamer #InstaGood #GamersOfInstagram #likeforlike #TwitchStreamer #instalike #YoutubeGamer #YouTubeStreamer #throwbackthursday #sundayfunday #Lovestagram #emptyvoid #emptysoul #sadboy #thursdaythoughts #thursdaymotivation #sundayvibes #artist #blackandwhitephotography #quotesporn #graffitiart #searchingforwonderland #sundayquotes #coloradophotography #Colorado