#competitive yapping

[dykeculas]

fox lives au where he gets to see snake grow old despite thinking he would never get to do so. he jokes about them starting to look the same age but still says that it's fine, rookie, it's always hard at first whenever he has to help snake up. most of the time he feels grateful that both of them are still around, but as months go by it gets even harder than before to look at him and not think of someone else

[dykeculas]

you ever think snake resents fox for being more like a son to big boss than he could ever hope to be.

everything snake knows about how a father-son relationship is supposed to be he learned from either school or the good-hearted but failed attempts by his foster families. he got the basics: company, respect, love.

all that failed with big boss. snake learned that being linked by blood didn't mean a thing. and when it hurt, that pain was also learned.

in canon snake learns the truth from big boss himself in zanzibar (as retconned in mgs1), so by the time he gets back and reflects on it both him and fox are dead. there's no one to get mad at except his superiors, so he retires and disappears in alaska.

during their short time together, snake had learned that fox and big boss went way back. the man had saved him in numerous occasions and continents. of course none of this came out of fox's own mouth, but he knew a thing or two about intel gathering.

so he spends months trying to match this portrait of heroism with the commander he had known and murdered, but he can't. he can't picture the hurt in his eye at the sight of fox's disfigured face, because he never even caught it looking at him in the first place.

why would he choose to show this side to a random kid he picked up in the middle of nowhere instead of his own blood? he had learned that his mere existence had been and still was an abuse, but he was a victim as well. what hurt wasn't not being loved, but that the man was capable of caring, and cared a lot. he just didn't care about him.

so he spirals. what did fox have that he didn't? immediately he thinks: everything. he had loved him too, and still did. but before that he had admired him: he was the best of them for many reasons, but everything he did, he did for what he believed in. maybe if he had had the time to learn that instead of cqc things wouldn't have ended the way they did.

[dykeculas]

who up stroking their snox

yapping under the cut

first draft ever so i haven't thought of the logistics yet. snake being killed in zanzibar would mean big boss wins, so there's a lot of lore to be rebuilt based on that.

i thought about making snake resemble a specific type of snake, but couldn't decide on which. in the end i went for an 80s sci-fi look, which i think is also cool. id like fox's outfit to be more futuristic like snake's in mgs1.

as for the rest of the cast: id like naomi to be involved in snake's project in some genetics-related way because it would complicate their dynamic even more. i know big boss couldnt give more of a shit regarding snake but there must be some strange feeling to seeing your son (or yourself if you will) being turned into a machine. miller cant live with the guilt since its his fault indeed. i guess meryl is there somewhere. maybe gustava too. of course ill throw otacon between these two what am i an idiot.

hope i can actually give shape to this

[dykeculas]

thinking about fox and kaz. how kaz refuses to believe it was his own hard work what caught big boss' attention: the hair and the eyes are a bit off, but the devotion is just as blind. hell, he's even asian too.

of course this thing for light-haired eastern faith wasn't for kaz alone to blame, but the severed roots he had tried to grow onto the man still ached in a unique, exclusive way.

after outer heaven, he notices the starry eyes david makes at the sole mention of his new acquaintance before the boy himself does. and he knows how that will end, because he too had been well trained by the same hand, and knows the only difference between a heart and sludge is an order.

i'm not sure whether he would actually do something about them or not. obviously it wouldn't be out of concern for david's wellbeing, otherwise he wouldn't be training him in the first place. if he did, he would tell himself it's for the sake of his plan: he can't let the weapon he spent years putting together get disassembled by another soldier. but deep down there's an even more selfish reason: he can't let fox get to this one too.