I've hit that slump again. You know where you actually start doing well, and your mentality goes from "If I keep this up maybe everything will finally work out for once" and then it all goes to shit once you make a mistake. I feel that sometimes my life is dictated by small mistakes, small misunderstandings and in this case a trivial compiler error that could have been fixed by including "#include <fstream>" at the top of my .h file. And now I've hit that depression you know. I dropped this class before and retaking it is the hard part. For me to actually fail this time around, only makes dropping it before go to shit, and spending money to take this class and paying for dorms during the summer to go to shit as well. Also I've signed up for CS100. So not passing this class would mean spending money registering for that class would have also gone to shit as well.
I'm in a slump again, and I feel like this place is constantly being visited, and I want it to stop. However sometimes, no matter how hard you work, you can still get in that slump. And for some, even if they barely work they would never get in this slump, maybe once or twice but not as often as others. Maybe its my luck in life. Maybe things will get better in my 30's, or maybe in a past life I was a mass murderer so this is pretty much karma. Can't really say my childhood, middle school and high school was the best either.
I just hope I can get out again, and save what I can once I'm back