@composedsun // continued.
tom was no stranger to restlessness, especially in the middle of a project. thoughts of deadlines and busy scheduling plagues tom mind into the early hours of the morning; he lay staring at the ceiling like he does most restless nights, hands folded over his abdomen as he tries to will worried thoughts away.
gaze turns to the man beside him, quietly resting. how odd, tom thought, that he was the one awake and andrei was asleep. he hardly was complaining – he knew andrei needed the rest far more than he did. nevertheless composer finds himself inching over, carefully burrowing himself against andrei’s chest. tucked against his lovers chest, tom felt safe, secure. mind slowly clears, finally, and a sense of relief washes over tom.
lips gently press to stubbled jaw, trailing up to his ear and then across his cheek. laughter rumbles in tom’s chest as the other stirs, a smile crossing his expression. “i didn’t mean to wake you,” comes hushed whisper, lips still pressing to his skin. “you can go back to sleep.”
andrei has always been easily awoken from often shallow sleep ---- but rarely is the experience so pleasant. warmth pulses through a troubling dream as he finds himself wrapping his arms around tom, eyes pressed closed ---- as though he means to deny the very possibility that it might be time to get up, no matter the early hour.
neck stretches at these kisses, and a low hum vibrates in his throat, pleasant and quiet. maybe he ought to be stressed ---- maybe he ought to be caught up in the knowledge that he won’t be able to get back to sleep. and yet this cannot concern him in the moment, and instead, he only draws himself closer to tom, fingertips tracing circles on his back.
“ you should be asleep too. ” his voice is still rough, and there is a certain vulnerability in it ---- a softness that might only come in those moments of waking, before he can rebuild those walls around him and find his way back into that cold, distant shell. and maybe it’s foolish, to be so exposed. but he trusts tom. he trusts that nothing but gentleness might come of this moment.