#confessional poem

[poems-of-nothing]

Anesthetic

I keep on 

      numbing 

my mind 

      body 

      soul 

and  

      blocking 

out  

      thoughts 

and  

      feelings 

and it’s getting 

       in the way 

of 

 

        Me. 

[rileyandrogyne]

Does my body appear delicate to you?

Bones that snap at a touch,

Blood that begs to be spilled,

Touch me, hurt me, destroy me.

My body is nothing but pain,

All I see is the worst of me,

The fat, the oily skin, the evil,

My body is evil, bad blood,

I seek out death to end it.

Destroy me, devour me whole,

So I never have to look,

Into that cursed reflection again,

I don’t want a trace of me left,

No body, no bones, no ashes,

Leave nothing for them to find,

Destroy me.

[senor-plume]

Gentle Like Clover

I’m soft a sensitive guy who weeps pure joy when a song captures the perfect moment for you and I Touch me tender with soft pajamas and fuzz fuzz slippers protecting them ten tiny toes from this frigid New York breeze Nuzzle my neck on the sofa with the softest skin in town you will slide easily across it all with the slightest of smiles hiding behind the dimple Search my eyes for a touch of steel… a rock thrown pupil eases into mush underneath eyelashes which only blink for you (but you knew that already) Hold on to me with a mouth hiding insecurities (…pudding for the asking…) scoop up the delicate offerings and kiss them dearly This soft guy searching for a speck of muscle inside… a glimmer of football chants or Hustler flipping a clover instead of an oak my frail palm turned up and waiting fluttering …just a tiny bit

[sapphicsports]

Loss (poem)

I’ve been lonely

Oh, so lonely

Without you here by me.

Without you in my life

Things have seemed so dull

Colours aren’t as bright

Foods aren’t as flavourful

Hobbies aren’t as enticing

As they were with you.

I’ve been okay.

That’s what I’ve told everyone.

And I really believed it

Until I thought of you

And realized I’ll never see you again

I’ll never hold you again

I’ll never be with you again.

I wish I could turn back the clock

Even just for a day

So I could be with you one more time.

I wish I had had more time with you.

I wish I had appreciated your presence more

When you were here.

I miss you

I love you

And I will never

Ever

Forget you.

[poems-of-nothing]

Sometimes

I don’t know 

if we even 

know each other— 

sometimes 

I don’t know 

what's going on— 

sometimes 

I’m just confused— 

sometimes 

I don’t think 

you care— 

sometimes 

I wonder if there are 

other things 

you hide from me. 

[poems-of-nothing]

Drip, Drip, Drip

You're beginning

to leak

from the cracks

and chasms

you left in

my heart.

Memories drip

from the broken

parts of

my brain.

Oh, how it

hurts to see

your face.

[poems-of-nothing]

Mirage

Perhaps even Satan 

dreams of heaven. 

I wonder, does he 

reminisce? 

[poems-of-nothing]

Turmoil

I think

all of this

is making me

crazy,

exhausted;

I think

I'll take a nap.