Distractions were frowned upon in the resistance which two people in particular chose not to pay attention too. As higher ups they should've known better than to be running around so recklessly but they couldn't care less, both craving attention from someone of the opposite sex. At first they'd agreed to keep it no strings attached this was harder though than either had imagined. After about two months Kaydel got distant in fear of what she was already too far into to get out of, she'd fallen in love she'd refused to look Poe in the eyes or kiss him on the lips. Poe took notice fast when he started waking up alone sometimes in her room she'd leave in the early hours of the morning to avoid the way his voice made her feel and the look he gave her. It made her stomach do somersaults and she liked it more than she felt appropriate. He'd become so much more than a distraction. What broke her most had been when she woke up and climbed out of the strong arms of Poe Dameron and he mumbled something about loving her. This was when she decided things had gotten out of hand completely and although the words she heard made her want nothing more than to climb back into his arms and sleep but her duty to the resistance kept her on her feet and moving grabbing articles of clothing like a mad woman and dashing into his bathroom before releasing a breath she hadn't realized she was holding. She slumped against the door and slid down head in her hands. Overwhelmed was the only word that came to her mind as tears welled up in her eyes she tried to lie to herself and say she was fine and the man outside the door sleeping had no effect on her. Finally able to pull something inside herself together, she washed herself and put her clothes on before sneaking across the hall to her room to change into a different pair of clothes that weren't her sleep clothes. She had almost 2 hours before she was supposed to be on the bridge so she decided she'd read to keep her mind off Poe. Of course it wouldn't work nor would anything else, he'd been burned into her mind.
She had the same effect on the brown eyed man. Both wanted nothing more than the other. Their friends and colleagues noticed their distraction but refused to ask after all it wasn't their mess to get in. This morning in particular when Poe woke up alone something felt different he couldn't come up with a word for the feeling but he knew he needed to find Kaydel. It wasn't hard she was in her room forcing herself to read a book. Poe walked swiftly over to the bed where she sat.
"We've got some things to talk about Kaydel." He spoke softly sliding back against the wall to sit next to her.
"About what Commander?" The woman replied seemingly uninterested still trying to distance herself from him which he made extremely hard when he sat right next her legs touching his warmth radiating.
"Your kidding me right?" He asks getting impatient with her games acting like he's just something that's there whenever she needs a warm body, which was how it started but he wouldn't deny the fact he felt more for her and he thought she wanted more from him too. He wasn't wrong but she wasn't about to admit it, she'd spent years building up her walls, gaining her trust was an honor. She kept her eyes glued to the book even though the words were anything but clear to her at that moment.
"I'm not sure what your talking about Dameron." She huffed frustration was evident but Poe didn't know which kind.
"I mean cut the crap Kaydel you know what goes on between us means more to both of us no matter how hard we try to hide it and I'm tired of it I want you in more ways than one!" Poe whispered shouted. Kaydel dropped the book his words hit her like she'd been shot by a blaster.
"Poe you know we can't do this, if Leia found out we'd both be demoted or worse I don't want that for you or me your the best pilot here and what's going on between us should've never started it was stupid and look where we are now I can't kriffin’ work because I can't get you off my mind and when you leave I'm a nervous wreck worrying about what if one day you get in that x-wing and I never see you again Poe? I couldn't handle that, I can't handle that." Kaydel starts off strong voiced then her words drift, she ends her thoughts with her cheek press to Poe's chest.
"We can do this K, Leia will understand she is married and had a child Kaydel if anyone is going to understand this it's her and they wouldn't demote you for this that'd be stupid of them. What's going on between us is more than just someone to share a bed with you and I both know that, it's why you've been so distant lately leaving early and not looking me in the eyes, it hurts to wake up alone like that especially when you leave me in your room." Poe joked at then end trying to cut some tension they'd never been good at the words part now that showed quite obviously. He meant everything he'd say he really believed that Leia would understand their relationship, he knew that Kaydel dare he say loved him? Poe also knew the sting of falling asleep with her in his arms and then to wake just to find her gone hurt worse than most of the injuries he'd sustained in the past couple of years.
"We've got a couple of hours until our duties start you know?" Kaydel whispered and looked up at Poe and kissed him on the lips.
"Well I was gonna go take a shower but that can wait I guess." Poe mumbled as Kaydel kissed his jaw.
"I love you." She smiled.
This is started off based of strangers by Halsey but I veered heavily off my intended path due to the fact that the song is heartbreaking in a way and I wanted this to end on a happier note. I posted this on my wattpad earlier also but it’s here too now because I’m proud and happy with it although it seemed longer on wattpad mind is stop_greenburg if you were wondering (shameless plug). I put in more commas and fixed a grammatical error on here that I didn’t on wattpad because I read over it here and I’d read it 5 times off wattpad (where I originally drafted it) anyway it’s on wattpad under ‘Star Wars Shorts’ the cover is multiple pictures of me and my friend fighting with lightsabers I only have one other chapter up and it’s a Poe AU. It’s 1322 words on their including my 2 authors notes (I rambled I’m sorry it’s a nasty habit I happen to be doing it now) I’ll leave it at that.
