2, 7, 26, 36 and 50 perchance? for adrian
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2. Does your OC collect anything? What do they collect?
rocks. rock collector. he's just like me fr. i think PSU is one of those places with like those gravel/rock gardens so adrian will pick up a rock to take into exams with him for luck and they do help. his little sister rayne picked up on this young and now she gives him rocks when he's stressed or worried about something. adrian's favourite is a pebble rayne gave him the first night they came back to the house after he won guardianship of her and zarah
7. What element would your OC be?
water. specifically the ocean. calm at first glance, riptides under the surface, stronger than he looks, capable of turning in an instant, the antithesis to fire.
26. Who is the most important person in their life? Why? Who is the least important to them (that still has an impact and why?
zarah and rayne are tied for first place definitely. adrian remembers both of them being born, holding them for the first time, helping his dad paint their bedrooms, seeing their first steps, walking them home from school. he's always had to take more of a responsibility as a caretaker by necessity, than maybe he should have, and he hasn't always made the right decisions at the right times for them, but they're his whole world and he'd go to hell for both of them in a heartbeat. the older he gets the more he starts to resent his parents for their neglect, and when he ends up becoming the girls' legal guardian at the same age his mom was when he was born, i think he has something of a crisis over like. i know this was wrong and it should've been better but i'm starting to understand why she was the way she was. complex array of thoughts that he doesn't like returning to.
least important are his grandparents (dad's side) definitely. they never paid any attention to the actual problems adrian's family had when his parents were there, they just threw money at anything that got messy and hoped it would fix something, and adrian i think does blame them somewhat for his dad's death. they were the ones who taught him that it wasn't okay to ask for help, and that's something adrian himself is trying to unlearn as well as refusing to let it fall onto his sisters.
adrian resents the fact that he has to rely on his grandparents' money to fund his way through college, even with his summer job, but he knows he has to play the game for the girls' sake so he's still planning on cutting them off in the future, but he knows he can't do that until he graduates so he is reluctantly biding his time. he had to use a lot of his college fund during his deferred year, paying bills and making sure the girls could eat, etc. his dad's life insurance covered at least some of the cost, and eventually his grandparents agreed to help. rayne and zarah were the reason they gave adrian the money for college, but adrian doesn't know that.
36. What does your character want most? What do they need really badly, compulsively? What are they willing to do, to sacrifice, to obtain?
to make it. to keep his sisters safe and give them the futures they want and deserve, to build his own life on his own terms with his own achievements, to feel awake when his eyes are open, to get a full night of uninterrupted sleep, to start liking himself again, to feel like he belongs where he is, to understand himself, to understand the rest of the world and where he stands in it. to help people. to create something new. to want and to be wanted without the guilt that always seems to come with it.
in terms of what he'll give: everything he has, and the blood in his veins.
50. If your character was presented with imminent and unavoidable death/fatality, how would they react? Would they try to avoid death anyways? Would they try to make their last days count?
adrian's logical. he knows there's nothing he can do to stop it, so he'll focus on getting himself together. five minutes to cry and scream over the reality of it, then onto what matters. he'll tell zarah and rayne, because he knows that letting them find out themselves will only make it worse (and he knows how it feels to be so suddenly abandoned by the people taking care of you, and if it's the last thing he does, he won't let them feel that). he'll secure money and a plan for what they'll do after, probably live with their grandparents until zarah turns 18, but out of the three of them, the girls will handle that a lot better than adrian will. zarah will ask if they'll tell their mom, and adrian will say yes, but admit that he doesn't want to do it. zarah will tell her.
[assuming this takes place post-losing my religion] he'd go talk to seth. adrian is a lot things, and a good liar is not one of them, so he wouldn't hold it back at all. it'd be more of a "hey. i'm gonna be dead in 36 hours," or something. they work because they don't hold back, and they're honest, and i think seth would take it a lot better than expected. then i think it's all just time. go for a walk. watch the sun go up and come down. do something you never did before, because when it comes down to the hours, minutes, seconds left, i think adrian is a lot calmer than he's expecting himself to be. seth is tense, like a cocked gun, flinching at cars passing by on the street, but ultimately it's all just time. maybe adrian didn't get to do everything he wanted to do. maybe some of what he did do wasn't what he expected or hoped or liked, but he thinks of things in context of the universe. he did live here, on planet earth. he took care of his sisters, and he knows the world is barely ready for either of them, but they'll make their marks. he did everything he could with what he had and knew and they're safe and they'll be safe and that's what matters. he's going to be outlived by seth gordon, who never should've survived college, and adrian is one of the reasons he did. adrian got to be here, and he got to live and fall in love with people and places and things that were beautiful and the phenomenon of planet earth's existence, and his place on it, isn't lost on him. he always thinks he hasn't done enough until he can't do anything else. and then he starts to think that the world is a little bit better than it used to be
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