if you mean this because of my last rant, I wanna clarify that I was writing CR but didn’t feel like it was good at all so I was just frustrated with myself. I said “maybe I should quit” as in writing overall, but even that was just heat of the moment words. I literally am always thinking about CR, always plotting little things about it, it’s just hard to put everything in words in a way I feel like it’s good.
now if you mean this because it’s been so long since I last posted, like I’ve said before, I’m really really trying I swear. the end of last year was tough and I still somehow managed to post every month, until my grandma passed and then I just didn’t have the mental stability to focus on writing at all. and so I took a break but I can confess that I’ve been trying to come back to writing since January, yet it hasn’t been a smooth transition back like I expected. especially now that I’m in college, I have a job and I also still need to help my family around so I barely have any time to relax and write. however, i really try to find that time and when I do, sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn’t and, while it frustrates me horrendously, I’m trying to cut myself some slack and not be too hard on myself. especially when all I can think is that I’m letting you all down.
this feels exactly like a confirmation that I’ve let you all down and it makes me wanna sob. I’m so sorry, I truly am.
but I am still writing, well trying to write is more like it, and the progress is really slow but it’s there. just hoping that I get a surge of inspiration soon cos this is actually killing me.
Hii, i’ve found Constant repeat on ao3 and it’s probably one of my favourite fics ever. But since the last update was in November i wanted to ask you if it’s discontinued
hiyaa!! i wanna start by saying that i’m so glad you’ve found Constant Repeat and you’re enjoying it, that makes me so happy 🥹
and it is not discontinued at all. december was a really complicated month for me, with my family problems and my grandma passing, so writing was almost impossible then and after my loss, i decided to take a bit of a break.
but then life started getting in the way when i wanted to come back and i couldn’t find time at all to continue writing. i’ve been trying to write as much as i can in the free moments i find in between work, school and just regular life, but you can imagine how that’s going (not great lol).
i am still writing Constant Repeat though! little by little it’s coming together and hopefully, I can post a little late into the month (as a birthday gift from me to myself lol).
i did post a little teaser of what i have so far and you can read it here! i pray i can post very soon!!! thanks for this ask anon, and for reading 🥲🥲🥲🫶🏼🫶🏼
hey love!! any update on cr 19? i’m so excited for it and love it so much 🩷🩷🩷
hi darling, i had been working on another little fic at the start if the month and i’ve just finished it so i’m now free to start writing constant repeat.
if i’m being completely honest, i’m really gonna try to update this month but i’ve no clue if i’m gonna be able to write a good chapter in the time i have left. especially with the things going on in my life at the minute, they’re taking a massive toll on my mental health and i have no motivation at all - not even to exist lol.
so please bear with me whilst i really push through this, but i don’t really know if i can promise another chapter is coming before the end of the month. hope you can understand 🤍
sooo excited for cr can we get a teaser pretty please?🥹
of course anon!! im disgustingly hungover rn so i hope your reactions to this bit give me enough energy to push through getting the moodboard done i would say to proofread as well but i genuinely am dead rn
anyway! here’s the teaser, enjoy 🫣🤭 (it's two bits from separate scenes but i thought you deserved the treat after waiting so long)
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Before they could leave, Ella made everyone get together to take pictures. A few with her own camera but most of them with her phone so it was easier to ask someone from the lads’ crew to take a picture of them all.
She smiled when looking at the results, her heart swelling in her chest seeing all the people she adored in one frame.
When she looked up, she caught a glimpse of a tan straw cowboy hat that the guys had been gifted, and getting an idea, she took it with her up to where Alex was standing, in front of a mirror by their trailer brushing his hair back after having put gel in it.
She cleared her throat to get his attention, his smile flashing for her through the mirror before he turned around.
There wasn’t even a prompt from her before she placed the hat on his head, not caring about messing up the task of fixing his hair he’d just done.
A chuckle slipped past his lips when she smirked and took two steps backwards, swiftly turning on her camera and bringing it up to her eyes so she could take a picture she knew she’d love.
“How do I look?” Alex asked her while adjusting the hat on his head, giving her a twirl that had her smirking.
“Like you were meant to be a cowboy.” She concluded as she perfected the focus of the frame, fighting herself not to bite her bottom lip and make it obvious that she was having the most sinful thoughts about him.
Not that it wasn’t obvious to him, the way her eyes darkened and went all over him with a speed that screamed she was trying to enjoy every bit of her view. He smirked back and teased, “Do I?”
Pathetically honest, she nodded, pressing the shutter and rolling the film before walking towards him. She stood flush against his chest, after having moved the camera to her side so it wouldn’t come between the proximity she so longed to have with him.
Fixing the collar of his striped shirt which clearly didn’t need to be fixed, Ella hummed, “Mhm, just missing a bolo tie and your very own boots.” Her hands brushed over the fabric on his shoulders and then smoothed down his chest. Her eyes wandered everywhere as her touch went over him and when she looked down and past that big buckled belt he had on to hold his black jeans in place, she saw his choice of shoes and gulped harshly at how well it all tied together, “Though those chelsea boots you’ve got on work well.”
Alex couldn’t bite his tongue any longer, his insides lighting on fire under her attentive gaze and he wanted to get a reaction out of her. So, with a smirk still plastered on his face, he clicked his tongue and played, “Right, stop flirting with me.”
In a split second, she blushed hard like he had caught her red handed and there wasn’t a way for her to fight against the accusation. Her tongue tangled in itself, mouth opening and closing like a fish out of the water and choking on the words stuck in the back of her throat, before the only recognizable sound was a weak, “I’m not–” that she interrupted to just tell him to “Shut up!” as she playfully shoved him away from her.
“Joking! I’m joking!” He said loudly in between laughter, she didn’t want to smile to keep her facade on but there was no way she could force the corners of her lips not to lift when the sound of his giggles reached her ears. Yet, she still hid her bright red face behind her hands so he wouldn’t get the pleasure of seeing what his words could do to her.
Taking a few steps to close the distance, one of his arms wrapped around her waist. She tried stepping away but he leaned into her space, keeping her flush against her chest. She felt so warm, she shrieked when he kept her trapped in his hold.
Her body temperature only rose when he dipped down further so that his lips brushed against her ear and he whispered in a sultry tone, “You can flirt with me all you want.”
Every sound she could let out after that died in her tongue, her breath hitching in her throat as he dropped a singular peck on the side of her neck before pulling her up with him and leaving her with a squeeze of her waist, taking the hat off his head and putting it on hers.
Stupefied. She was completely stupefied.
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“Save a horse, ride a cowboy?” Nick asked with a raise of his eyebrow, Kelly’s arm hooked around his as they walked closer to the entrance of the southern bar.
Ella turned around at the inquiry, a smirk on her face as she continued slowly walking backwards and opened her arms as if presenting the event for them, “Ladies, you’ll have to steal the hats of the cowboy you wanna ride tonight.”
Katie and Breana giggled at the information, not even sure of what to expect. Matt had his arm wrapped around his fiance’s waist and he made a show of tucking her closer to his side when he said, “Think that’s already arranged, no?”
But Ella let her answer open enough to just hint about how messy this all could get if they wanted. “Have fun!” She sing-sang, giving them all a wink before turning on her heels to face the door, opening it wide for them all to come inside the establishment before her and when Alex walked through the threshold, her smirk got bigger as she was swallowed by the familiar tunes playing loudly inside the pub.
The lads had decided to go to the bar to get drinks first, getting what each of the girl’s wanted before leaving the table they’d chosen; but when they came back, they learned that they had to be quick about putting the cowboy hats on their partners.
A guy had come up to Katie, clearly chatting her up because of how Katie’s cheeks were red and her eyes kept going from the lad to Jamie. The guitarist had turned up a notch in his pace and walked quickly to the table, setting his wife’s drink in front of her and dipping down to peck her lips so that the lad got the clue.
“Sorry man, didn’t know she was with someone.” The lad said with his hands raised, the lack of a hat on Katie’s head confusing him but he realized his mistake when he dropped his gaze and noticed the wedding band that adorned the model’s ring finger.
Despite the apology, Jamie made a show of taking it off his head and placing it on Katie’s. The model blushed even more when seeing Jamie so evidently territorial and she bit her bottom lip when he nodded with a fake smile, “S’alright, now you know.”
The tone of his voice was threatening enough to make the guy hurriedly turn around and leave, not even saying bye to who he had just tried to chat up.
Ella chuckled, watching as the rest of the band who had stood there halfway to the table with pressed lips was finishing their walk back, trying not to laugh at a fuming Jamie.
When they all placed the drinks on the table, Ella patted it to bring Jamie’s attention back to them, since he had been glaring at the guy’s back as he walked away, and with an amused grin, she loudly warned the lads, “They’re fast so go on placing those hats on your girls.”
It was enough for Nick and Matt to quickly place their hats on Kelly and Breana respectively. Ella brought her whiskey and coke up to her mouth to take a gulp of it and chuckled at the lads’ panicked faces as the alcohol went down her throat.
Tonight is promising.
Noticing there was one cowboy left, Ella left her glass on the table and leaned back in her seat. She looked at Alex and wiggled her eyebrows to tease him, “Only a matter of time until they come to snatch yours away now.”
But Alex surprised her when he shook his head, rounding the table to lean down and whisper in her ear, “Don’t think so.” just as he took the hat off his head and placed it over Ella’s.
Maybe it was being home that brought her the confidence, or the delicious taste of Tennessee whiskey on her tongue, or perhaps finally giving a name to all that she felt for the singer, but she adjusted the hat on her head and turned to whisper back in his ear, “Good choice, sweets.”
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i know they're short but i can't share much more without giving it away so i hope this can get you excited for what's to come.
if you want another little teaser though, i would highly suggest going on youtube and watching this (keep and eye out for what happens around minute 1:34) think you can imagine how Ella felt with that Arabella performance 👀👀👀
anyway pray for me to power through this fucking hangover and i'll see you guys with this chapter very very soon (hopefully monday!!!) mwahh love yous xx
hi, i saw this on twitter the other day and my mind immediately went to constant repeat
HAHSHAHS OH MY GOD I LOVE THIS ITS SO FUCKING FUNNY!!!!
you just know the second Alex sees it he’d buy it, no second thoughts had at all. cos he just knows that he’ll have her pissing herself laughing as he proposes and nothing sounds better than getting to hear her laugh and see that smile he adores while he’s down in one knee.
and let’s face it, Ella is from the south so she loves her odd tacky trinkets (when she’s on tour with Alex and they go to a truck stop, she’d acquire a bunch of shit she doesn’t need but those ugly ass studded denim caps speak to her) and she’d actually fucking adore it and keep it in display next to her jewelry box.
it’d be so fucking funny as well when ella posts a picture of the most beautiful fucking ring ever (which is definitely a big starbrite cut green sapphire with little stunning citrine accents around it, cos of course Alex would match it to the colour of her eyes) in the most obnoxiously tacky little ring box and everyone starts commenting congratulations but taking the piss out of the box choice, Ella would get so defensive about it because she genuinely adores it with her whole heart.
still, everyone would be obsessed with the video he managed to take of it happening: her sobbing into her hands as she sees him getting down in one knee only for her sobs turn into cackles when he pulls the cowboy hat box out of his pocket.
hiii!! not sure as of yet cos i’ve been focusing on csd since i posted chapter 17 at the end of october so i haven’t even started writing the next one but i promise you that i’ll get on it as soon as possible!!! 🤍🤍🤍
i have a lot of chapter 18 drafted out already so i hope it’s an easy ride to write it and i have it done as quick as i can for you guys to read 🤞🏼
hi loviee! i’ve been writing and making progress slowly but surely. juggling csd and cr at the same time so i gotta be greedy and ask for a bit more time and patience to have something ready for y’all soon. been very busy these past weeks and finding the proper time to write when my brain is actually working has been a bit of a hassle butttt it’s coming together i promise and i’m so excited about this chapter!!!
had a bit written already so i might have about 10k by now but there’s a lot more left to write 💀💀💀 if you want a sneak peak let me know though, i’ll happily give you a little teaser for the time being! 🫶🏼
