Jan 3
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GOD OKAY THE FUCKIN BLOOD POLL GOT ME THINKING OF ALL THE TIMES MYSHKA IS COVERED IN BLOOD.
Cw: death, violent reincarnation, cannibalism, mild gore, blood, torture
Being revived over and over messes you up. It’s not just the death and coming back and the feeling of nothing in your body feeling right. It’s the amount of food you need, the panic of waking up, the rage at the world around you, the feeling of the souls of the damned clutching your ankles, some telling you to run, others begging you to stay, never knowing if it maybe was a bad dream and nothing else.
The first time Myshka dies, they scream and don’t stop. There’s still blood dripping from their nose, eyes, ears. When they are finally sedated, a hefty dose of tranquilizers they’re too young to pronounce or spell the names of sent directly into their veins, they dream of reducing the Dentist’s watchers to nothing but a pile of flesh and bone. When the meds wear off and they’re left to wander, they come face to face with two, and the Dentist finds Myshka standing over near-unrecognizable bodies, blood dripping from their teeth, hands covered to the elbow. He’s amused, and proud. The first time they kill is animalistic, gruesome.
Monstrous.
The second time, they’re despondent. Myshka doesn’t react, despite the blood covering their torso. They were dead for a bit too long, rigor mortis having set in.
The first time a partial body transfer is done. Myshka smiles when they realize the hand they were given is from one of the Watchers they killed, and the Dentist wonders for a moment if he’s gone too far.
The third time is a massacre. The Dentist barely gets control of the situation, and by the time he does, at least 22 people are dead. Myshka howls with laughter, childish glee at the carnage. The Dentist realizes they thought he would bring them back, too. It was a game to them.
He puts them in isolation for two months, reviewing the plans. He’s lost too much control, he won’t lose it again.
The fourth time, Myshka cries. Their friend tried to stop the Dentist, and dies in Myshka’s arms shortly after they wake up, leaving a handprint on their face. Myshka promises him they’ll find him.
More deaths, until they feel nothing about it. Nothing beyond a desire for true death. They don’t know how to react when the Payday gang becomes distressed at the near-death of their fellow heisters, stepping away in a quiet, confused bitterness. When Bain has been rescued, they simply offer a shoulder to cry on.
When a bullet pierces through their vest, dropping them during a heist after Bain’s rescue, they collapse, hearing Locke and Bain yell for someone to help, tell Myshka to hang on. Rushed to the safehouse, where Bain’s choice of medical team waits, Myshka feels that old feeling. Vlad holds them, trying to keep them calm as the doctors frantically get their equipment, nearly collapsing himself when Myshka whispers to him before they black out.
“I don’t want to die.”
April 7, 2014
I wanted to tell you that I was happy when I came home. But there's really nothing to tell you about that. I wasn't, really. Guess I was just thankful that I could get away with all the stress studying brought me but telling you I was really excited about coming home was another story. I planned on starting the day right, instead I woke up and found myself crying, listening to my parents argue about a thing that didn't really matter.
(you know what I'm really not in the mood to type. I'll come back when I feel better)
I'm unfortunately on mobile so -crown- ❤️
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What I think of your URL: “DEAN IT’S NOT BROKEN” but also “NOBODY CARES THAT YOU’RE BROKEN CAS” adkfghkjdfh feels :((
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