I am suffocating
I am suffocating. From who? By my parents. Well, not exactly both of my parents, but to protect their privacy, let’s say one of them. I know he/she means the best for me. I know that so much. But guess what? I have feelings too, I know what I want, I have things I want, I have plans of my own. They think they know everything, but they’re wrong. Yes they have more experience than me in terms of everything. Literally, everything. I don’t think I’m better than them at all. But why can’t they let me make my own decisions? Why can’t they let me make all the mistakes by myself? I have to learn all these things too. I’m so sick of all the ‘terjamin’ and ‘tetap’ words they always give me. It’s like my life is definitely going to be doomed or failure if I don’t have a guaranteed jobs like government jobs. All those boring jobs where you’ll know where you’re gonna end up, all the roads ready in front of you, you just have to travel along that road obediently. Well, I’m sick of that! I want something else. I want to experience more. I don’t want guaranteed job, I want to take some risk. Let me make mistakes! Please..
