What About Some FiqaBots?

I am always changing. Robots change too. Right now, I'm still a beta. Until I found a version of myself I like to stick with, I'll always be a beta version of myself.

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I am suffocating

I am suffocating. From who? By my parents. Well, not exactly both of my parents, but to protect their privacy, let’s say one of them. I know he/she means the best for me. I know that so much. But guess what? I have feelings too, I know what I want, I have things I want, I have plans of my own. They think they know everything, but they’re wrong. Yes they have more experience than me in terms of everything. Literally, everything. I don’t think I’m better than them at all. But why can’t they let me make my own decisions? Why can’t they let me make all the mistakes by myself? I have to learn all these things too. I’m so sick of all the ‘terjamin’ and ‘tetap’ words they always give me. It’s like my life is definitely going to be doomed or failure if I don’t have a guaranteed jobs like government jobs. All those boring jobs where you’ll know where you’re gonna end up, all the roads ready in front of you, you just have to travel along that road obediently. Well, I’m sick of that! I want something else. I want to experience more. I don’t want guaranteed job, I want to take some risk. Let me make mistakes! Please..

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I may look calm. But in my head, I've killed and replaced my shoes with other shoes more than 3 times already. I am definitely regretting my choice of shoes to wear this morning, except my outfit, cus I'm lovin' it. I wish there was a bestfriend who can take my ootd picture whenever I need it. My lifestyle changes includes my working outfits too, which I'm so passionate about right now. I can't remember how much I've spent to get all these clothes I had wished to wear for so long. Previously, I had been working at a factory, which gave me uniforms to wear. I never had the financial crisis back then, but still, it is so satisfying to see myself in different clothing everyday, it makes me looking forward to go to office everyday. Well, my outfit is not the only thing thats makes me so eager to go to work everyday, though. There's something else.... Arrived at office and morning resting, FiqaBot

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Bucket list! 💪🏼

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My wishes of sweet life changing is something like this tho..

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I've always attracted to libraries. The smell and sight of books is like a drug to me. Library is a place where informations and knowledges are stored, just like the www (world wide web). I love to just walk around libraries, smell the old books scent, read a few, choose which ones to read and borrow back. I'm like a library crawler FiqaBot. Google has their own crawler too named googleBots. There's so many things I need to learn about googleBots since I started working here. I thought the best way to get to know these robotic crawler creatures is to be one, myself -> FiqaBot. The idea came when I was having a discussion with a guy who has the most perfect facial feature to me. I told him I think like a robot, and afiqahBot just came out of nowhere. Ever since then, I've been keeping this nickname to myself, wondering when can I actually use it. Oh yeah, googleBot is one of the elements of my life changing regime I'm currently in. Sweet and bitter life changing that is. We'll see more about this bots later on, perhaps. Putting on face mask before sleep, FiqaBot

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How did I ended up getting a stalker? Oh well, it really is my own fault. I don't deny it, but I can be desperate to want something right away sometimes, and ended up in a situation of,,well, kinda unexplainable (not in a good way). I know he is my stalker because he says it himself, and he really is acting like my stalker. Cyber stalker to be exact. I am still blessed that he hasn't found me physically. After iftar at my room, FiqaBot

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Let's just say, I like to type away everything..

On the second post which is also on the same day after I posted my first post. (I wanted to put picture post first) <- no reason. It’s actually about some answers to cliche question like “why did I start a blog?” kinda thing. Anyway, I did had some blog(s) before but it didn’t turn out to be, well, updated. Plus I forgot where all those went. I seriously hoped no one would EVER found out though.

Now, if I want to update on that gap of years between my previous blog(s) and like, current situations of my wonderful life, I’d need to write a book about it. My life may not seem like a happening one like getting viral or into movies or anything but so many things defintely happened. I mean, I’m talking about 8 years of gap. 8 years since I’ve written anything! (Thats exagerating, because clearly I’ve written so much, mostly my names and phone numbers, addresses, etc. okay I’ve written a lot of words too, like my degree’s final year thesis, master’s thesis, research articles, some blabberings on my social networks, etcetera) I realised that I have been typing away most of my knowledges, feelings and secrets through social media (like it’s a good thing), and I want to use blogging as a way to, well, type more. Social medias are great but they’re kinda limited and people would ask like, hey, why’re you posting all these stuff here? Ya know? Because I like writing so much, I figured out, hey, why not blogging? (Again). So, here I am, somehow ended up on yet another (possible soon to be ignored away) blog. Well hopefully this time, it will last longer. I am planning to write about how the name FiqaBot actually came. It wasn’t random, it came accidentally during a very special discussion, which I will surely describe here, one day! It was a raning day on my office, FiqaBot

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One of the influencers of why I started this part of my life (or re-started a blog, actually). GoogleBots: these small little creatures seems to be what might makes up most of my career from now on.