Importance of my Songs Tommorow (and forever)
Tomorrow is my last singing recital with my singing practice teacher
She means a whole lot to me, and I drew her a gift
Because this is my last time I'm going to make sure I enjoy myself and do my best to show emotion in my singing. Not for others, but for me so that I'm no longer afraid of doing it.
The songs I chose for my recital mean a lot to me.
My first song is one I sang as a child. It's a religious song. But I've changed the meaning in my mind to relate to others instead. And most specifically Cookie12 and Nothing.
Both Cookie and Nothing were place holders for me. As a child and as a teen.
When I had issues they were the ones who took the brunt of it. They were the ones who implored my struggles.
And yet. Cookie has been making progress on his transition and building strong relationships.
And Nothing has become a presence in my mind representing relenquishing what you are "supposed" to be and showing who you are inside.
The 2nd song is about family.
The original song's meaning is related to mirabel feeling disconnected with her family. She is not in the family photo. All of her family has powers or are married to someone with powers, minus her grandmother who is the matriarch of the family.
She feels alone because of this, because she is past the age to gain her powers meaning she will not gain them.
She then says that she is ready. Because of all the things she would do to be worth something to her town. The town her family has sworn to help.
When I sing this song I think about how I feel as if my worth towards my family will decrease.
I have always been talented. But these talents are deemed to be from the Lord. And while it's fine for them to think that way, it's not something I can fully agree with. It's a blessing I have these talents, but they are always my own. I don't only want to use them for blessings for the Lord. I have other things that I want to do.
I feel a distance from my family because of it. I do try to get close. But knowing so much of me is not what they desire, makes me feel negatively about myself.
But I want to be ready to face everything that will come with it. I've been withstanding it all for long enough. And I can try and tell myself it's not that bad, but a miracle of their love towards me not being what they want would make a huge difference. And I can't deny that just because I don't experience the worst of what I could.
My last song is one I used to sing a lot as a kid. From the movie Princess and the Frog.
I just wanted to sing it again in front of my family.
Tiana is my favorite Princess and I still have the baby doll in my room. I also used to sleep with a blanket with her on it at night.
My mom threw an intricate party for me based around Princess Tiana.
It's just a love letter