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[witchandhuntress]

So are you telling me that in order to get a new InuYasha series they had to kill Kagome?? The MAIN protagonist of the series??

[rainbowbeanstyles]

my teacher: today i found this drag queen that makes really cool music

student: what's her name!

my teacher: let me look it up

*looks up*

my teacher: her album is called the rise and fall of a m--

many students: CHAPPELL ROAN!|

[spook--man]

want2die ! ! ! ! ! !

[bpdcrossing]

I ruin evrythin g I love !! 

[fstanya-blog]

im so annoyed that i let myself get this big again. for a while my confidence levels were like +300 now any time i put on clothes its like -163783927 and i cant wear most of the clothes i own bc i just look huge and gross and its really getting to me so in trying rlly hard to lose some weight

[spacehomos]

a w yeah im going to colorado christmas day B)

[technicolourtriumph]

A proper, personal, real life blog post.

This is one of those things where it happened like 4 months ago - but I have literally thought about it nearly everyday.

My friends and I were in the CBD shopping for formal dresses. We chose a particular shop and the shop assistants approached us to offer their help. It  became immediately evident that they had no interest in me what-so-ever.

They began asking my friends (who are absolutely gorgeous, beautiful women who happen to be smaller than myself) which sizes they were and what type of dresses they were looking for.

After complaining about it to one of my friends, she promptly asked the assistant, "Where do you keep your size 14/16 dresses?". The woman just looked really annoyed and  waved her hand: "Oh...well we have some here most most have been moved to our other store." I went to the dresses she had pointed out and found no more than 6 size 14+ dresses. All were green, navy or black and made with far too much "smoothing" fabric.

My basic point of this story is that in a matter of seconds, these women whose jobs it is to make me feel comfortable and willing to buy a dress that will make me look and feel beautiful, managed alienate me.

Not since grade 9 have I experienced the sinking feeling that I get when my weight becomes an "issue". I felt like I was in primary school again - having to avoid certain parts of my life because I people didn't think I deserved them. Finding a beautiful formal dress is a right of passage - and the fact that my choices was restricted by tight fabric and ill looking colours made my  experience a whole lot less exciting.

Blah blah blah I want middle aged women to stop treating me like less of a person because I am a size 16. I want to be able to work-out without feeling and hearing the pity of those around me who think my only reason for doing so is to lose weight. I don't want to read past diary entries and only see passages where a 14 year old me is talking about her weight, or bullies or how gross having to weigh herself in PE made her. I want to be able to buy clothes off the rack and know that they will fit me and I just don't want any one to grow up without feeling, not even for one second, that they are any less worthy than those around them.