out of the woods
this song for coops. (characters by the amazing @lumosinlove )
i just had to write it.
Cw: swearing, injury, hospital, angst, hints at homophobia, being outed
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Looking at it now
It all seems so simple
We were lying on your couch
I remember
“Re?” Remus blinked. “You were staring,” Sirius explained. “Are you alright?”
Yes. He blinked again. “More than alright,” he responded. As he leaned in to kiss Sirius, he realized he had never been more alright than just then.
You took a Polaroid of us
Then discovered (Then discovered)
The rest of the world was black and white
“Mon loup!” Sirius’ voice was loud and Remus spun around. A bright flash blinded him for a second. “Oh this is a good one, i know it!” Sirius’ already accented voice, became even more French when he was enthusiastic. That fucking camera.
“Baby, I told you, don't aim that thing at me before warning me. It's a disaster.” Sirius huffed.
“This camera is my child, Re, don't insult it.” Remus snorted, “whatever, love.”
A few minutes later Sirius pushed a small stroke of paper in his face. “Re, look.” The piece of paper turned out to be a polaroid picture and Remus was on it, with a smile on his face and his lions jersey on. “This is going in my room with the other pictures.”
And what more could Remus do, but smile.
But we were in screaming color
And I remember thinking
Maybe he should’ve been more careful.
Are we out of the woods yet?
Are we out of the woods?
Are we in the clear yet?
In the clear yet, good
Because it became harder and harder. Pretending.
Pretending he was straight.
Pretending as if he was just friends with Sirius.
Pretending that he didn’t love him.
Because, oh boy, he loved him.
Little did Remus know that he hadn’t even entered the woods yet.
Looking at it now
Last December (Last December)
New years. The night Sirius had everything. A family. A chance at the cup. A wish.
We were built to fall apart
Then fall back together (Back together)
They had overcome so much. So many challenges. And Sirius had chosen Remus each time, even if it cost him so much strength, he chose Remus.
They fell apart many times, but they always fell back together once more.
But that was before they entered the woods.
Ooh, your necklace hanging from my neck
The weight of the small necklace around Sirius' neck felt like nothing compared to the weight of the game he was about to play.
The night we couldn't quite forget
New years. The night he could never forget, even if he wanted to. Because the pictures would haunt him, for years and years.
When we decided, we decided
To move the furniture so we could dance
New years. When Sirius realised once again that he wanted to spend every second he had with Remus.
Baby, like we stood a chance
It seemed ridiculous, but it always seems in hindsight. And somewhere in him there was a part of Sirius that wanted to laugh. Because isn't this exactly what he had predicted? That they’d both get hurt.
Two paper airplanes flying, flying, flying
And I remember thinking
He had known the end before it started, and yet, he entered the woods.
Are we out of the woods yet?
Are we out of the woods yet?
Are we out of the woods yet?
Are we out of the woods?
Are we in the clear yet?
Are we in the clear yet?
Are we in the clear yet?
In the clear yet, good
Remember when you hit the brakes too soon?
Remus’ heart froze as he saw Sirius slam into the boards.
Twenty stitches in a hospital room
Remus’ heart froze once more when he entered the hospital room. Sirius looked, in all honesty, horrible.
“No,” he whispered as tears welled up.
When you started crying, baby, I did too
When Sirius had started crying was unclear, but some time later the unconscious man had tears streaking his face. And if that wasn't the most heartbreaking thing Remus had ever seen, he didn't know what else could be worse.
But when the sun came up, I was looking at you
Remember when we couldn't take the heat?
“I get it, Re, if you want out.”
I walked out, I said "I'm setting you free"
“Please don’t let me trap you, Remus.”
But the monsters turned out to be just trees
It was during the first break, when he saw Remus’ face on the small screen of his phone, that Sirius realised what mattered. That the people out there, who were disgusted with him, could fuck off and Sirius wouldn't care. That the only person he so desperately wanted to stay, was Remus.
The monsters were just trees.
Unfortunately trees have roots. These roots turned out to be Fenrir Greyback.
When the sun came up you were looking at me
When Sirius woke up, the second thing he saw was a white room with bright lights. A hospital, he figured.
The first thing he saw were brown eyes, filled with concern.
Are we out of the woods yet?
Cameras flashed. “Sirius, can you tell us anything about your alleged boyfriend?”
Are we out of the woods yet?
“Sirius! How long have you been with Lupin?” Another flash blinded him for a second or two.
Are we out of the woods yet?
“Have you dated any of your teammates?”
Are we out of the woods?
“Are there any other people like you on your team?” Sirius felt disgusted with the reporters.
Are we in the clear yet?
“Sirius! Do you accuse Greyback of playing dirty and causing your recent injury?”
Are we in the clear yet?
“Sirius, can you tell us-”
Are we in the clear yet?
“Sirius,” a gentle voice interrupted the sharp ones. A warm hand pressed against his back. “Wake up, love.”
In the clear yet, good
And there, in bed, just the two of them, they were safe from the shadows of the world. There they were in a field of daisies, together.
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well, that was a lot. i just have to write lyric fics from time to time lmao. (and i'll be honest with you, i was a bit tired when i wrote this)
