2016 was a year of working with great clients, and reconnecting with myself and the people I love, through chaos and with my camera. I took on assignments I felt like were made just for me. I felt more creative than ever, and photographed my own life with the same intensity with which I’ve photographed so many people who have trusted me in their most vulnerable moments through the years.
I’ve joked that 2016 is more of a verb: | [to͞o ˈTHouz(ə)nd sikˈstēn] To end abruptly, take too soon, maim, kill, destroy, set aflame, ruin, abandon, in an untimely, incomprehensible, insane, reckless, nonsensical, unreasonable, unjustifiable, shocking way; to repeatedly inflict tragedy upon someone or something, inducing compounding sorrows; having died in 2016:
“Molly’s house got 2016ed by a tree during Hurricane Matthew.”
”My grandfather’s brain is getting 2016ed. Alzheimer’s.”
“Look, that dumpster is on fire. Who 2016ed that dumpster? Wait that’s no dumpster – that *is* 2016.”
“David Bowie, Prince, Muhammad Ali, Leonard Cohen, George Michael, and that lady who fell 30,000 feet during a plane crash and lived, all died this year – 2016ed.”
From the last incomprehensible white-knuckle weeks of my marriage, to my cousin Tommy’s overdose death, to the rise of Donald Trump, and all the celebrities who passed, if 2016 proves anything, it’s that the tropes of “everything happens for a reason or “the phoenix rises from the ashes” are crap. The universe is fickle and indifferent – it births stars from ash, but doesn’t care if they shine on you.
My life and my career tell me that most suffering is meaningless. But it’s the best teacher. It teaches you what you are really made of. Priorities come into stark relief; molehills don’t feel like mountains anymore. You learn to create your own catharsis and closure. Suffering is a glue stronger than gravity that bonds people. Everywhere I looked, I saw people being resilient, despite personal and cosmic suffering. They picked themselves, pushed on, they created, and commiserated and celebrated despite it.