I don't know how to word this. I've been thinking on how to write this for a few days now but- I'm frustrated with how the fandom sees me. Which... I guess is not an uncommon problem here. Maybe some of you will sympathize.
I am a fictive of Corazon and there are a few of us in this system- but this is probably an issue that a lot of kinnies and fictives have where the fandom sees us as pure hearted and a selfless martyr. As if we never came from generations of bigoted, actual slave owners. As if we didn't blow up hospitals for the child we cared for.
It can't go both ways. Fans can't watch the violence we committed and then claim that we weren't also monsters.
I can't speak for all kins and fictives that share my source and maybe some of my memories. But it is... Frustrating. Being called 'soft and kind' while they turn a blind eye to all the atrocities my bloodline has caused and the real acts of terror I've committed with my own two hands. 'Justified' is not up to fan interpretation when it is obviously untrustworthy.
I had to unlearn a lot. I had to put in real, hard work to curb the things I thought were normal as a child. And that was with the help of the man who adopted me. If I didn't have that - I would have been the same monster that Doffy was. I would have been groomed just as he was; simply encouraged to embrace the toxic and hateful mentality I'd already been exposed to as a kid.
The fandom needs to realize that the very small amount of time that they had to get to know me was limited. And filtered through a child's perspective. I love Law dearly and I'm grateful that I was there to save him from that life but he is not a reliable narrator! Again, I love him so very much... But he has been hurt all his life.
I was a monster just the same as Doffy. I got so very lucky when I was saved. But the fandom likes to put rose tinted shades on when it comes to me and my kin.
Anyway, that is my rant. Please forgive me if it got too long.
Dearest wishes, ❣️ Corazon
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