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[fictionkinfessions]

Post-Life clarity in which I look at my kins like holy shit. I was in a truly fucked situation. How was I not biting and killing everything in sight. Why was this all normal to me.

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you ever come across a kinfession from your mortal enemy and just. nooooo fuuuuuck feelings of fondness. this guy literally killed me I can't be catching feelings

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The annoying part of being fictionkin is that everybody makes assumptions about you. Like hello. You don’t know me. You don’t even know what I was like in my source, you have no clue if it was ‘canon divergent’, what parts were different than ‘canon’ or what parts were the same. Sorry to anyone who had a bad experience with an alternate version of me from a past life. That’s like. Not my fault tho lmao.

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I'm so tired of people treating exotrauma for any sort of alter humanity as not real or completely made up. I've woken up in a cold sweat and almost started bawling because I had a nightmare about it.

"It shouldn't affect you, it's fictional,"

It does. I don't know what to tell you. You can think it's not that serious all you want but for the love of God, keep it to yourself. I don't want you dismissing me as crazy just because I'm terrified of Going Back. You would be too.

-#🦵🪚 (tag as torture cw maybe ? I don't know if it would count since it's all only implied in this ask.)

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I keep seeing people in kin settings saying that kin trauma isn’t real per se cause it’s not smth you actually experienced in this life so it’s not real trauma. Besties I wish it was like that I wish I didn’t want death when thinking about this one person who hurt me in multiple lives. I don’t want to freeze up when I see a picture of him in any of those lives. I don’t want a panic attack when thinking about him. And yet here we are.

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if you kin a problematic character who's done horrible shit and you regret it and you feel horrible you have to listen. listen to me right now I am speaking directly into your ear now. self flagellation will get you NO FUCKING WHERE I promise you whoever you are trying to apologise to will just be annoyed by you sitting in a corner complaining about how horrible and evil you are. here is what I want you to do: I want you to live every day and I want you to try to be kind and do your best. every single day. because that's all we can do.

maybe you believe you aren't worthy of forgiveness and/or maybe the person you are seeking forgiveness from refuses to give it to you. Leave them to their peace and point your gaze to the horizon.

I am going to tell you something. statistically at some point in this, your current life, you will do something to hurt someone and the person you hurt will not forgive you. maybe it isn't as serious as your kin but more likely than not it WILL happen. and do you know what happens after? everything else. life doesn't stop. we have to keep going whether we like it or not I WANT YOU TO KEEP GOING!! KEEP TRYING TO BE KIND IF THAT'S WHAT YOU TRULY WANT! proving your remorse through your actions rather than your words will speak a thousand times stronger to your intent. and being kind feels good. just because you hurt someone in the past doesn't mean your kindness towards someone else is meaningless now. or tainted. try to leave the world a little better than how you found it. Chip at the stone with small acts of kindness. we won't always be forgiven, and we can't always forgive ourselves, but we can choose to be kind NOW!

Sincerely, many very bad guys, but some good guys too.

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the bad thing about putting yourself through the kin guilt torture chamber is when you realize no amount of "i forgive you"s will ever really fix how terrible you feel. Anyway, we ball

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[fictionkinfessions]

Saw that the lil ai teeth guy from tadc completely crashed out in the new episode and began tormenting his humans.

Good for him. Get ‘em.

-AM

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