#coronazone

[dee-seejay]

#coronazone #theordeal #hashish #bekind #rhymesayers (at Upper Lewes Road) https://www.instagram.com/p/B_cr6XbHAORXKY8mVkMlTJsy9ZQMOgVqNVUMBY0/?igshid=2oqclus604zc

[ineedthebutterflies]

#Coronazone

Have you heard of this phrase yet?

A couple days ago, my roommate tagged me in this post that she found that defined exactly what this new term means. It means:

“Engaging in flirty, romantic, and/or sexual conversation with someone you have no intention of dating once social-distancing is over, solely because self-isolation is leaving you bored and lonely.”

To be completely honest with you, when I first read the meaning I was completely amused because that is exactly what I was doing at that very moment. A few days before she showed me this, I redownloaded Tinder and I even created a Tantan purely because I was bored and wanted to talk to people that weren’t my roommates...or so I thought. It started off innocently enough; I made the account just to talk, it’s quarantine time, what could they possibly do? Meet up with me? Lol, no. 

So, I’ve been chatting with a few people and I continue to tell myself that it’s just for fun--but the longer I wait for replies, the stupider I feel. Here I am, a 20 year old college student who loves to say that I don’t need a man to make me feel whole, or that I’m not craving a boyfriend. But I’m waiting at the edge of my seat for a reply from a stranger that I barely know. Not only that, but for some reason, whenever I’m on these dating apps I suddenly feel the urge to change the way I text, the way I react to things, and the worst one of all, I suddenly feel the need to present myself in a way that's almost dumbing myself down. 

For some reason, being on these dating sites has made me feel less like myself (as lame as that sounds). I care more about what one stranger thinks of me than of what someone who has known me for years does. I told myself that this was all fun and games, but it’s honestly taking a toll on my self confidence. I don’t want to be someone who spends their days waiting for a reply from somebody...that is literally what I have never wanted to be. All this time in self-isolation is making me crazy, I have too much time on my hands to overthink things, and unfortunately, doubting my entire being is one of them.

[no-mire-lo-sabio-del-presente]

These two geese are out here every day on my daily walks, rain or shine, and they’re honestly one of the few things keeping me sane in the #CoronaZone. (at Medford, Massachusetts) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-k5k7qp7QiV2lckVROgbN4TcW5J3ZjLuiVgPA0/?igshid=1i0010331thfw