Blue.
It had taken him so long to recover. Even now, he was struggling not to break free from the embrace of his lover. Since him, Silvius never wanted to feel anything, ever again. He felt more than terrified- giving himself up entirely for someone- he had cried every day since he’d met Blair. But today was a day where he gave it all up.
His entire being shook, but he didn’t pull away. His face in the neck of his partner, his mind begged him to stop- to pull back and leave it alone. He was going to be broken, and he cared deeply about it, but he wanted to be happy. He was clearly struggling to say or do anything, but the patience of the other only made him keep trying.
He works himself up close to a panic, before the words escape his throat- those words that he dreaded ever since he was human.
“I love you-”
He was in love for the first time in centuries. It lifted his spirits, freeing him from a cage of his past in less than a second. It brought him lower than ever before, for the terrifying thought that he would hear the same words that Vitaliy gave him.
“I love you too.”
And if he hadn’t been in the arms of the other, he would have been on his knees, a sobbing mess. He cried, and he cried hard. He thanked God for giving him this moment- for giving him such a perfect partner.
It was everything he had ever wanted.