#corrupted_memory

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I& was about to rant about something but I& got distracted and now it doesn't matter , it was a petty thing , but that happens with important events too , it's like my& feelings autorepress themselves

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Long rant ahead , I& had a bad interaction from not one but two Jax fans , back to back , it all started because I& explained why people found the song choice of Isn't She Lovely quite tactless , and racist in fact , let's not sugarcoat the situation , one downplayed the racism by saying it happened years ago , when there has been a pattern from Micheal , his apology was quite shitty and disingenuous when you take time to look at it instead of taking his so called redemption at face value , this is serious , the fact that a big portion of the staff including the creator either : committed a racist act , enabled it , or associated with racist people should tell you how little Glitch did a background check in that regard , the other dismissed the controversy as jokes because no one cares that people make these comments , well that should change , how about we start caring instead of acting like it's always been this way ? This behavior played a role in the mistreatment of Black tadc fans , it's almost as if every microaggression would mount back to the systemic abuse .

I&'m just so upset the first one claimed to be chronically offline , then assumed the allegations are fake when I& didn't hand out a proof rightaway , I&'m not Google , try to do a bit of research from your part , being aware of racism isn't an online exclusive thing , it's everywhere , fandom just happens to be part of those many areas , and its internet nature shouldn't make you take it less seriously .

I& really don't believe Micheal Kovah changed when he partaked in racism voice overs , sang a rap cover where he dropped the n word multiple times , the other singer explicitly mentioned his name , the Anne Frank x Goku video ? ? Then at last the situation where they kept making jokes about words sounding too close to the n word , this is an obvious pattern , I& even heard he did blackface , I& don't have proof yet so don't quote me& on this .

It's just so bizzare that everyone decided to take his so called " accountability " as it is , " dubious , immature , and not so great " , isn't the best way to adress your racist actions , his follow up about harassment was so annoying , this isn't a direct quote but talking about how you can't do anything about it because it's accountability is obvious guilt tripping , shut your mouth .

I guess I shouldn't expect better from a Jax fan who had the " Isn't She Lovely " in their status , how lovely it is to twist a song about Black joy of fatherhood into a low quality montage about the barely existing relationship of a misogynistic self insert of a white person and her plot device enabler .

This is actually isn't our first interaction , I& vaguely now remember people defending Jax as the protagonist when it's always been an ensemble show , but damn experiencing it first hand almost made my& blood pressure skyrocket , I& kid you not my& hands were shaking , TADC fans are so dumb ...

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Summer is here ... Withers and dries into dust , it's so fucking hot already , even worse at night , spare me& this pain

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That feeling when you& check pluralspace and there alters you&'ve never seen before but not in the usual way , this system does have layers damn it . Actually , I& don't know how I& woke up in control , I& don't feel like doing anything , not even eating , I& don't know what's wrong with me& this morning