CQ I'm so proud of you !!!! I have PTSD and getting on the right medication was the best thing that happened to me. it's awesome to hear that you're feeling better !! 🌟
AHH THANK YOU!!!
Yeah okay for the longest time…. I, well. Okay its honesty hour time. Under the cut, of course.
When I first got a lot of attention online, I made a point to keep extremely quiet about all this. I had this idea in my head, that so many people had hard lives, and I wanted to try and show a version of myself permanently in a good mood, strong, compassionate, all that stuff. And, it’s not like I was lying. I’m a person who’s generally upbeat and optimistic, and I care very dearly about trying to make the world a little bit of a better place, even if its just on a tumblr account that I post my art and reblogs of cute things.
Like there’s a lot of places online that are negative and, I never wanted my tumblr to be one of em. So I put on this super strong front, that everything was okay, all the time, and that I was always happy and everything was great, but, it just. Wasn’t true. And yeah, I stand by the fact that I want my tumblr to stay a super positive place and at least an account people can enjoy, but sometimes cracks would just show.
Sometimes it would all become too much, and I’d post little mini-rants about how exhausted I was, then almost immediately delete them. I was so…. paranoid, to show any part of me that was ‘less than perfect’.
I can’t go into more detail then that, though.
Finally, I watched a few other people on tumblr go through different things, and DOCUMENT their experiences. Like Kylee Henke going through her surgery? Like, the responses were wonderful. I think she helped a lot of people feel more comfortable about top surgery!And I figured…. well. I don’t want to be…I want people to know what I’m going through. Because I want to help other people. And to show people…..
yes, I have diagnosed PTSD, and severe anxiety. And I am also very happy, and working hard, and I run my own business and I work out, and I hike and I explore and I’m HAPPY, and you can be happy with all those things, even if it takes lots of work, and I want to show my journey through medication, at the VERY least. I wanna give people in bad places some hope that it doesn’t have to be that way forever.
My tumblr isn’t ever going to be a place I just sorta drop all my baggage on, because hey that’s not fun- not for me and sure as hell not for yall. But…
I feel like maybe there are people out there who need to see this, every once in a while.
• 38. what is your biggest fear?dying maybe? losing my eyesight, my hands, my voice, or anything that makes life enjoyable. also of my cat dying TT sigh. why is death even a thing.
• 54. what is your favorite food and drink?watermelon, crepes with ice cream, rice with spicy peanut sauce, (urgh I love food), iced tea!
i’m literally going to never use the crabs i will keep them locked away forever if you love something never ever ever let it go. they’re too special to me i can’t lose them
hey i just wanted to let you know that with this blog, i've managed to get basically my entire friend group at the least mildly interested in splatoon lore and at most knee deep into the splatoon hype train and i wanted to thank you !!! honestly your blog is a really great reference point of how awesome the community is !! also i finally have people to scream with whenever this blog updates so sjdgfjhskdgfks
awwww what! thank u for telling me that, i’m quite moved!! it feels really sweet to hear youre so invested ;___; 💙💛💙💛
OH jsdhjsfhs that Anon talking about "picture it soft and you'll ache" is a reference to the mitski song Strawberry Blond which tbh gives off very dottie abt stripes vibes ..
AHH... wow u guys and ur mitski songs are makign me so ;_________;
oh man speaking of mitski songs, First Love / Late Spring makes me think of Sherry, especially the lines "And I was so young/When I behaved/Twenty five/ Yet now I find/ I've grown into a/ Tall child" !! I think in general the octo siblings radiate mitski vibes hshfhsbfhdsghds
wow how beautiful, i really felt that.... ;___; I WILL def have to take a dive into her discography then :’3c