#cosmic mumbles

[ghoulishfreak]

heyyyyyy girl you've gotta check out this video. hold on, you'll need these noise canceling headphones. just trust me bestie, it'll make the video so much better!

are you feeling it? oh my god you are totally drooling your stupid brains out. haha, come on pretty girl, you know you wanna touch yourself. good girl.

[jesterstep]

Consider this: Sanders Sides DEH AU

Virgil as Evan, Patton as his dad, Remus as Connor, Roman as Zoe, Logan as Alana, Jared as Deceit

Listen it’s 1AM, I’m listening to the DEH soundtrack and I’m sleep deprived and I desperately wanted to share this idea with someone

Also Requiem in this context is making me cry like

“Cause when the villains fall, the kingdoms never weep!”

“After all you put me through, don’t say it wasn’t true, that you were not the monster.. that I knew.”

Anyways I’m crying now it’s fINE

Don’t even get me started on the Prinxiety, on Good For You with Dee and Lo and Pat feeling so betrayed and angry, with Virgil breaking down during Words Fail, with familial Virgil and Pat in So Big / So Small,, I just have a lot of feelings

[styxjuice]

Explaining Myself

So yeah, I didn’t do Resbang this year. This semester has been awful for me, but it’s finally nearly over, so I feel it’s time to explain why I haven’t done squat in months aside from a few Inktober drawings. “Where are the fics, Cosmic?” my fans would say if I had any.

Well, college, mostly. This semester, mainly my literature teacher, has caused me to feel more horrible than I have for a year. It was an online class, so I never met her in person (although I know her in person and she’s pretty nice), and the workload would’ve been manageable if I didn’t have three other classes, one of which requires a lot of studying. So exams and reports piled up, and then my therapist changed jobs in the middle of it. Great timing.

Sooo my confidence in my work and any time I could’ve used to work on anything were both flushed down the toilet. I didn’t spend as much time on tumblr because of the time it took away from my schoolwork, and I distanced myself then because there was a lot of toxicity going around the website that didn’t make me feel any better.

But I’m back now. So now what?

Well, I’m going to try to work on more fics and art, but I’ll probably refrain from participating in ship weeks because the deadlines stress me. However, I may join Resbang next year as an artist because of the larger window, and I consider 2-3 works of art more doable than the elongated fics my brain comes up with.

I’d like to thank my followers for sticking around as I fail to produce content and my interests flop around like a flag in a hurricane. You guys really are the best, and I’m very grateful for your support, whether it’s through likes, reblogs, or just adding to the follower count number. All of it means a lot to me, and I hope I continue to make you as happy as you make me ^^

[ghoulishfreak]

a naive boy clicking on a hypno blog thinking he'll just look and see what its about. slowly losing himself to spirals until he's muttering to himself about how his cock controls him, his cock makes him weak, his cock is just a toy

[ghoulishfreak]

i think the 2 brands of priest kink are

1) a priest who has power over others, priest who makes you kneel and serve him for Absolution. confident with God on his side

2) a priest who is humiliated and disgusted by his unholy desires. who prays for hours to get rid of his sin, but still falters, still craves

[ghoulishfreak]

this is one of my favorite spirals

feels like it's taking you down slowly

really give me a sinking feeling

down

and

down

and

down

it doesnt spiral in the traditional way

it pulls

it drags

takes you

deeper

and

deeper

and

deeper

so many

pretty colors

keep staring

it feels so good to keep staring

relaxing

sinking

deeper

into the pretty spiral

[ghoulishfreak]

You don't know how you got here. You don't know what's going. Whatever it is, that thing, has already taken away your ability to remember. It's looking at you, you can feel it looking at you with its giant, hypnotic eyes.

You know you only looked for one second, just barely caught sight of the thing. But even that was enough to make your mind so blank and empty. You need to get away, away from this monster so you could think again. You stumble for a while with your eyes closed shut, hoping to create some distance. When you're finally feeling brave enough, you try opening one of your eyes to take a peak.

KNEEL

OBEY

SUBMIT

Fuck! How could the eye still be in front of you? You can feel it eroding more and more of your mind. It was even projecting thoughts into your brain. You needed to get away, you had to get away.

But... it's starting to feel more and more hard to get away. You couldn't move your legs no matter how hard you tried. How could you escape something so huge? And it's feeling more and more enticing to just open your eyes. It hurts to keep them shut.

No, you can't give up. You need to... need to get... away? No... that isn't right. You need to... need to....

KNEEL

OBEY

SUBMIT

Right. Yes, that's right. You feel yourself fall to your knees. Yes, that feels so good. So much better to obey.

OPEN YOUR EYES

Yes

You see the monster's massive eyes. You know now, you were never going to escape its gaze. It sees you. It controls you. It feels so good to keep staring and obeying.

PLEASURE

You obey. You reach your hand down and start pleasuring yourself. You don't remember taking your clothes off, maybe the monster did it for you. The thought's are fleeting as you stare deeper and deeper into the monster's eyes. You feel your thoughts being taken from you, pleasure and obedience filling up your entire being.

PLEASURE

OBEY

SERVE

The Eyes were all encompassing. You could not resist. It felt so wonderful to obey, to keep pleasuring yourself. To serve this being. Distantly, you feel yourself cum, but the pleasure doesn't stop. You don't stop touching yourself because you haven't been ordered to stop.

This is your life now. Wherever The Eyes go, you will go. You will obey. You will serve.

[ghoulishfreak]

you know how sometimes people will snap in front of someones face to snap them out of a daydream? i can imagine someone doing that to someone with an easy, fuzzy brain and having the completely opposite effect 🤭