#cosmonautte

[somethinglronic]

You're my hero.

A super hero?

[neur0sciences]

cosmonautte replied to your post:forgot my meds for one day n my body is literally...

I hope you feel better

Thank you darling ♥ I’ve lit candles and got my boyfriend to hold my feet to warm them up haha, he’s like a human heater!

[midnight-consumption]

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Oh my god, I have this complex theory about how everything leads to The End. I mean like how Croatian comes back, how the Leviathans mistakenly played a hand, how powerful myths and fear can be in hiding the truth, the Colt, how Dean and Cas got to be the addicts they are (Cas has got drugs, Dean's got torture wheee) and mostly, that White Suited Sam isn't possessed by the real Lucifer. Sam is possessed by the idea of Lucifer. He's just broken and crazyand "being Lucifer" was so easy.

YES YES YES.  I just saw your ask on Leila's blog and freaked out.  djhsfsdjhfhjsdf

IT WOULD BE SO PERFECT.  IF THE WRITER'S PULLED THAT OFF I WOULD BE BEYOND IMPRESSED.

[siterlas]

to phoenix-greece and cosmonautte:

Phoenix-greece, you asked for fics where Cas is a Winchester, and Sierra dropped this off in my inbox:

Rain Falling Down by Maychorian has Jimmy/Cas raised by Bobby, and the Winchesters are there too, but the companion piece Coming Down on a Sunny Day is directly about Jimmy/Cas being raised as a Winchester, also by Laura Maychorian but only on FFnet. These two are gen. On the other end of the spectrum there's the porn Wincestiel series by Stoatsandwich on Ao3 that starts with Brotherly Love.

Thanks, Sierra!

applesarefuckinghealthy replied to your post: ANOTHER question but your answer was so well...

i totally should! but btw they should ask kassie (amorremanet)! and look here amorremanet.tumblr.com/…

Cosmonautte, the link gets cut off, but it goes to here: http://amorremanet.tumblr.com/tagged/emily%20fremont If you are interested in Lilith's vessel's backstory, Kassie has a pretty good one. Thanks, Juna!

[siterlas]

ANOTHER question but your answer was so well though out I wanted to ask you this too bc of your attention to Claire: Have you ever read or seen anything or thought about whatever became of the little girl who Lilith possessed for much of season three? Because all this thought of how Claire would have been effected by the presence of Castiel for mere minutes, it makes me wonder about the little girl who held the tattered soul of the first woman for who knows how long. Ideas or maybe poems haha?

I'm having trouble finding this in my chatlogs, but Cally and I once spun out some feels where she meets Claire in college and bond over vessel trauma. The nature of the possessions are so different though. I wonder if Lilith remembers being human, like Ruby? I wonder if there's a reason why she's drawn to child vessels. She had at least two of them in S3; the comely dental hygienist only showed up in late S4. Do the girls become hunters or are left with second sight? I wonder if one of them goes all Jeffrey but then finds out Lilith is dead. (Juna, you should adopt them for Lesbian Team Free Will 2.0.) I don't know of any fics though, and no poems come to mind. Anyone else reading this, can you help us out?

[siterlas]

Hey-o, I was wondering something and I just wanted to ask you-with the promise that I won't judge you at all for your answer because its all pretend and harmless-I love your Castiel as Claire or a Tiger or a Flame etc etc posts, but I always get curious about your take on his relationship with Dean in those forms. From what I gather them remain as intense and inter-wound as in canon-but are they still romantic in your eyes? If they are, are they sexual? Again, no judgement, just intrigued. :)

Also I think I only see Dean and Cas as sometimes romantic, or just left-of-center of romance. That is to say, romance is only one aspect of their complex relationship, and the relationship itself tends to fluctuate between signifiers of several things: duty, loyalty, friendship, human urges, vulnerability, awakening, ascension, descent, misunderstanding, faith, trust, expectations, love. We can say that love encompasses all these things, sure, but I think we can as easily say that faith encompasses all these things including love, that ascension encompasses all these things including love, etc. It's about which one of them we assign as thesis concept and which ones we assign as supporting arguments, and my preferences tend to fluctuate on any given day.

Maybe these AUs are more about how Dean reacts and what it does to him, because Cas is Cas is Cas even when he's a tiger or a flame. He still orbits Dean. What would be especially interesting is the S5 where Cas starts to lose his grace so he becomes more like his vessel. Function loses out to form. No grace to stop the fire from burning Dean. No grace to quell adolescent hormones. No grace to stop the tiger from hungering after prey. Eventually it all becomes a metaphor for need/love/devotion/etc. You are consumed, you are immolated, you are drowning, you lose control.

I'm not sure if Dean/Clairestiel can be truly romantic because Dean'd think it's creepy because she's so young, so if sex happens, he'd feel like shit about it. And I'm not sure if Dean's discomfort would be something Clairestiel can understand. I also think Dean's caretaker instincts would kick in more because even though she's an angel, she looks like a kid. In 5x03, he wouldn't take her to a brothel. He'd take her to a carnival and they'd eat cotton candy and ride the ferris wheel.

Tigerstiel is like the polar opposite because if an angel looks like a tiger, it's more difficult to forget it isn't human, which is what Dean tends to do in canon. This creature is dangerous, it can kill you, and it's both humbling and terrifying to realize you have somehow won its heart, whatever heart it has. You wonder if it can turn on you at any moment. The connection you have to it can overwhelm you, but you work through the fear and wonder to try to meet it halfway because somehow you trust it anyway, and you trust that it trusts you. But you never forget it can rip you apart. As for whether it's sexual, well, IT CAN BE. Maybe it's more erotic? It's not really Dean getting fucked by a tiger and yelling "OH YEAH HARDER HARDER", but more like Cas licking Dean's wound and resisting the thrill the taste gives him? 

Firestiel has all sorts of fun hell associations! Like, Dean can never seem to escape the theme. Fire took his mother, it took forty years of his life (or death, depending how you look at it), then it took his brother, but fire also raised him from perdition, like the only way out is through. He can walk through these flames and not burn. He has walked through these flames and been burned to ashes. I like the interpretation of Firestiel as a cleansing fire, but I also like it when it can't help but burn Dean when it loves him most. It doesn't mean to, but what is fire if it doesn't burn? Shouldn't you have known better? Should he? As for whether it's sexual, you got the burnplay kink, hey hey. But like Tigerstiel, the sexual acts aren't endgame. Part of the appeal of Tigerstiel and Firestiel is the trust it takes to open yourself up to a powerful thing who doesn't always keep its powers in check, the horror of seeing it backfire, and what are you even feeling when it breaks the world/itself for you?

So idk, sometimes it's romantic, sometimes it's horror, sometimes it's kinky, most of it is the profound bond between a man and various things that shouldn't be sentient and/or young girls.

I hope any of this made sense to you.

[aloofshahbanou]

cosmonautte replied to your chat: Mike: I've like quadrupled the number of female...

When I found out my little brother-16-played Bikini Kill and Le Tigre at his kickboxing class when it was his turn to play DJ I think I hugged him for five minutes.

oh my fucking god. that seriously warms my heart. beautiful and amazing.