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[cottna]

coffee for chara art

Hey! I'll draw any chara for a $3 coffee, Special offer, Tonight only!

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I just need to get drawing again so I thought this might help. Thank you!

[cottna]

Hey everyone!! I do this once every few months, but I wanna talk about how great twitter is. If you don’t have one, I encourage you to think about it, because it’s so fun and easy to connect with so many people. 

Talk with me on twitter!!

[cottondoodles]

i get so overwhelmed by noise and it puts me in a terrible mood 

[cottondoodles]

hey hey hey reply to this with your favourite song rn? i need more music to listen to??

[cottondoodles]

im so terrified of disappointing people. i hate how i constantly feel like i’m a burden. i know i’m not but at the same time i can’t help but feel like that. i get so stuck in my own head and i dont know how to stop worrying about how other people feel about me. i act like i dont care about it but i really, really do. i hate feeling like this. for once i’d like to stop worrying

i can feel the temptation to just hide away from everyone even though i know that wouldn’t help and it would probably make everything worse

i dont know what to do about this though

[cottondoodles]

i try really hard to not hate that i have a bit of a pudgy belly but man. it would be easier for me to feel confident without it ; - ; 

[cottondoodles]

i’ve been feeling disconnected from my emotions and what I’m feeling for so long now, and i’m not sure how to fix it. the days feel like they’re blurring together. i’m honestly not even sure how to describe it but i feel almost light-headed most of the time, i’ve been having moments where I don’t feel like i’m in my body, sometimes I feel like crying and I can’t figure out why, and in general i’m just having a hard time connecting these things with my emotions. i’ve felt like this for a while now and I guess it’s my depression issues? I don’t know at this point. i’ve been ignoring this because I don’t want to burden anyone with this, that doesn’t feel fair. my siblings already have their own problems and how could I possibly do that to my parents? i’m the “normal” child, i’m not supposed to have problems. i know that’s not a healthy way of thinking but I’m not sure how to not feel that way, because i know it’s easier on everyone else if I don’t say anything. i’ve always been an independent person so it’s hard for me to ask for help or admit that i have problems

and it’s not like I don’t completely feel anything, i still feel some of my emotions. I feel love and affection for my boyfriend. I can feel happy when I’m having fun with my friends. but whenever I’m alone I just feel... disconnected. that’s the best word for it, i think. I’m not even sure why i’m typing this out. i’m still trying to understand this

honestly i’m kind of scared to post this because I know some people will read this but i really need to get this off my chest. i just want to start feeling better

[cottondoodles]

1 - 100 I wanna know everything about you

oh gosh okay, i’m putting this under a readmore though (also you should answer these too then because I want to know everything about you too <3)

1:when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?More cereal than milk, I don't like drinking a ton of milk after i finish all the cereal2:do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?Yes!!!!!!!!!!3:what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?If it's a hardcover I just use the floppy cover thingy it comes with as a bookmark. if it's paperback idk i just use whatever4:how do you take your coffee/tea?I drink my coffee with a bit of cream and I have a little bit of milk with my tea uvu5:are you self-conscious of your smile?ahhhhhh a bit, yeah'''6:do you keep plants?no but I'd like to!7:do you name your plants?non8:what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?I used to use drawing but I'm more into music for that stuff right now9:do you like singing/humming to yourself?when i'm alone or around people i trust, yes10:do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?side and stomach11:what's an inner joke you have with your friends?SLLLURRURURPPPRp12:what's your favorite planet?saturn13:what's something that made you smile today?Kixx <314:if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?I'm not sure! organized and cozy I guess? 15:go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!there are planets in space, how fucked up is that16:what's your favorite pasta dish?fettuccine alfredo?? maybe?17:what color do you really want to dye your hair?I dont want to dye my hair so idk :v18:tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up.one time really late at night, i touched my brother's hair and said it felt like a puppy's rectum. I meant to say a puppy's rump19:do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it?no but the few times i've tried it's been mostly emotional venting shit20:what's your favorite eye color?all eye colours!! eyes are so pretty. 21:talk about your favorite bag, the one that's been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.I have this black shoulder bag that a friend gave me and I love it so much, it's the perfect size for my laptop and idk, i have good memories with it22:are you a morning person?Yes and no. i like being up early but I don't like waking up early, haha23:what's your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?Take it easy, slow down, talk with people I care about, get my thoughts and feelings sorted out24:is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?Absolutely. he should know who he is~25:what's the weirdest place you've ever broken into?excuse me, i am a law-abiding citizen26:what are the shoes you've had for forever and wear with every single outfit?i really don't like them but i have these runners that i got when I was getting shoe inserts for my foot problems. I want to get some new, nicer looking shoes soon :'>27:what's your favorite bubblegum flavor?peppermint28:sunrise or sunset?both, i can't choose29:what's something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing?sometimes when kixx is saying cute things to me he gets this softer tone in his voice and it's the most precious thing ksfkljlsfdkljdf30:think of it: have you ever been truly scared?I think so. one time i was closing the bakery by myself and there were these two really shady looking people that were there the whole time. I was sure they were going to try and rob the store and i was honestly terrified31:what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks.socks are nice! i love wearing thick and warm socks during the winter and I love thigh highs for a number of reasons~ I dont sleep with socks because my feets overheats, and i dont really care about the colour of my socks32:tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.we were having a sleepover, two of my friends were tipsy, and we were watching that animated barbie tv show. it was the funniest thing at 5 in the morning33:what's your fave pastry?strudels probably34:tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?I got a big pikachu plushie when I was little that I would use as a pillow all the time. i never named it, i just called it pikachu pillow. it's really old looking and kind of dis-coloured now, and yes I still have it!35:do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often?I like those things but I don't have any that I use right now :<36:which band's sound would fit your mood right now?Oh Honey37:do you like keeping your room messy or clean?I like when it's clean but......... the mess starts to pile up pretty quickly and I don't always keep up with it right away''''''''38:tell us about your pet peeves!when people mope around too much. I don't like that because I used to do it a lot and it was a waste of time and energy that I could have spent trying to feel better. or maybe it would be better to say that I get annoyed by people who aren't aware of themselves?39:what color do you wear the most?black40:think of a piece of jewelry you own: what's it's story? does it have any meaning to you?I have a bracelet that I made with a good friend. it's not that great looking but it makes me feel happy because I made a memory with a friend because of it~41:what's the last book you remember really, really loving?Divergent42:do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!Tim Horton's, i'm basic as heck. idk it has warm colours?? there's usually a bunch of people in line waiting for coffee and food43:who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?A good friend that lives with me~44:when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything?Yesterday. It was a peaceful day and whenever I get to spend time with my boyfriend, I feel happy and peaceful uvu45:do you trust your instincts a lot?Yes. if i'm feeling uncomfortable about something i'll definitely at least take that feeling into consideration46:tell us the worst pun you can think of.i'm not doing this question, I won't pun-ish you guys like that47:what food do you think should be banned from the universe?any dishes that are too onion-heavy48:what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?my biggest fear as a kid was that I would let down people's expectations, it's still the same today49:do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?eh50:what's an odd thing you collect?I don't collect anything51:think of a person. what song do you associate with them?Oh Honey - I Love You Will Still Sound The Same52:what are your favorite memes of the year so far?dat boi, roundabout53:have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them?I haven't seen any of those movies, whoops54:who's the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?Emma55:what's the most dramatic thing you've ever done to prove a point?confessing to kixx because I thought I was going to get rejected, lmao56:what are some things you find endearing in people?people who get all flustered and excited when they talk about something they really love57:go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics?nostalgic, and hell yes58:who's the wine mom and who's the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why?i?? don't know how to answer this???59:what's your favorite myth? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯60:do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?i'm not a huge fan of pure poetry but i like when it's in music61:what's the stupidest gift you've ever given? the stupidest one you've ever received?I gave my friend a mug that had a stupid looking cat on it with a galaxy background, it was amazing. the stupidest one I ever got was actually multiple things because I got like, three pairs of oven mitts for Christmas a few years ago62:do you drink juice in the morning? which kind?Nnnnope, morning is coffee time63:are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be?I wouldn't say i'm that fussy? if it sounds good or if i like the story, that's all there is to it. I don't do too much organizing for that stuff64:what color is the sky where you are right now?black65:is there anyone you haven't seen in a long time who you'd love to hang out with?My aunt, uncle and cousins probably66:what would your ideal flower crown look like?one with lots of white flowers, i love white flowers~67:how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?I feel really calm. they make me want to cuddle up in a blanket and have a relaxing day68:what's winter like where you live?very cold,  very snowy, very nice69:what are your favorite board games?Clue and Red Dragon Inn70:have you ever used a ouija board?NO, FUCK THAT71:what's your favorite kind of tea?mint chocolate rooibos or choclate macaroon black tea.72:are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you'll forget it?oh man, yes. I need to write stuff down all the time if i want to remember to do it73:what are some of your worst habits?lip biting, procrastination, forgetfulness74:describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.They're a weenie75:tell us about your pets!I have a dog named Pookie, she's smol and stupid and I love her. i also have a cat that we originally called Socks but now we just call her Kitty76:is there anything you should be doing right now but aren't?sleeping77:pink or yellow lemonade?yellow? i still like pink tho78:are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?hate79:what's one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?when kixx was away from home for a bit he drew things that he wants to do with me when we meet irl and everything about that was cute80:what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why?very pale blue. I picked it a while ago when I was in elementary school and i dont remember why? i just really like blue81:describe one of your friend's eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.shit i dont know how to do this82:are/were you good in school?I got almost straight A's so idk, maybe a bit83:what's some of your favorite album art?I don't spend time looking at album art, i dont know84:are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?nooooooooooooo I can't stand the idea of having permanent ink on my skin85:do you read comics? what are your faves?I LOVE COMICS some webcomics I really like are Octopus Pie and Prague Race86:do you like concept albums? which ones????????87:what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?the bee movie88:are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?non89:are you close to your parents?I would like to think so, but i get really easily annoyed with my mom. I have lots of deep conversations with my dad though so that's nice~90:talk about your one of you favorite cities.I haven't visited enough places to answer this aahhahaha91:where do you plan on traveling this year?If at all possible, I'd love to visit my boyfriend. but i don't know if that'll happen due to work/money stuff so who knows92:are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?just bury me in cheese93:what's the hairstyle you wear the most?it's usually in a ponytail since i have to keep it up for work94:who was the last person you know to have a birthday?Sam I think?95:what are your plans for this weekend?tell my boyfriend i love him at least two times, maybe more96:do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot?if I didn't have auto-updates my laptop would stay the same forever97:myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house?INFJ, Taurus, Hufflepuff98:when's the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it?I went hiking about 3 weeks ago and yes!!!!!!! I love hiking!! 99:list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.The Staves - Sadness Don't Own Me, Nothing But Thieves - Last Orders, Wolf's Rain - Gravity100:if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why?Neither, I don't want to accidentally fuck something up in the past, and if I went into the future wouldn't that be like losing 5 years of my life??? so much could happen in 5 years and I don't want to miss any of it