I decided to give recovery another try at last week. It's now been 8 days of me eating more regularly. And it's just kinda hitting me how much i have eaten, and now I'm kinda freaking out.
I know that this is probably part of recovery, eating and then over thinking and geting upset about it. But I'm just feeling very over whelmed and upset.
Any advice on what to do?
I'm going to try to stick with recovery, even though it's very uncomfortable and kinda hurts.
One: I am so happy you’ve chosen to commit to recovery! Keep committing to it, every day!
Two: I am so sorry you’re in *this* part of recovery, as it is kind of - sometimes - the hardest part.
My advice, keep fucking going. Keep eating. If you overthink, that’s fine, just don’t eat less. Your thoughts don’t have to dictate your actions. Your feelings don’t have to dictate your actions. Keep acting like you are recovering. Keep eating. It sucks for a while, but not forever. Act as if. Keep eating.
Cool factoid! As we nutritionally rehabilitate and our bodies/brains start to realize that we aren’t in a famine, the overthinking stops! Or at least the overthinking as it pertains to food and eating “too much.” You learn your hunger cues. Your body doesn’t fail you. The discomfort passes. And then you get to give other people who are recovering advice on how you did it! (If you want.)
More advice that saved my life: read/watch Tabitha Farrar. Get a therapist, preferably an ED specialist, who can help you through the hard parts. Let your medical professionals know what you’re struggling with. Do NOT be scared or ashamed to ask for help.
Good luck and keep fighting. I’m rooting for you.
