Chapter 17: I wish I was bigger
Louis POV:
I feel really bad for Harry, he is crying so hard and I hate hearing him like this. Uncle Josh is cleaning up the medicine that spilled on top of the fridge. I sighed and walked over with Harry in my arms, and I reached down and grabbed his blanket
Louis: “can you….” I paused. I was going to ask Uncle Josh to finish Joseph’s punishment… but Harry is bawling his eyes out, so I think Joseph would probably prefer that I wait and deal with it instead.
Josh: “what do you need?”
Louis: “never mind” I said leaving the room with Harry. I went into the Livingroom and I laid down on the couch, with him on top of me, and I covered us with his blanket, and then I wrapped my arms around him and I kissed the top of his head. he cuddled close. “it’s okay Harry” I said rubbing his back.
Harry: “Louiss! It hurtss” he cried.
Louis: “I know it hurts baby, but you can’t do stuff like that”
Harry: “But I th-thought.. I thought” he let out a loud sob.
Louis: “you thought it would help you feel better?” I asked, he nodded. I can feel his tears leaking through my shirt. Ugh. Harry is the youngest, he is definitely the baby boy of the family and his tears kill me.
Harry: “I d-didn’t kn-know it wass b-bad” he said grabbing unto my shirt. “Uncle Joshie is m-meann”
Louis: “Uncle Josh isn’t mean”
Harry: “yesss he iss” he cried.
Louis: “no, if I would have caught you doing that I would have spanked you too, because that really was dangerous, and you need to never do that again” he just let out a little sob and he reached back to rub his bottom. I caught his wrist though. “No rubbing”
Harry: “b-but it HURRRTSS!” he sobbed. I sighed.
Joe: “is harry okay?” he said softly. I looked over and Joey is standing there awkwardly. he put his boxers back on, but that’s it. “I’m sorry I came up… I wanted to make sure everything was okay…”
Louis: “it’s okay… I’ll finish up with you later” he pouted and nodded. he still has tears in his eyes from the first part of his punishment. He walked over and kneeled down next to us, and he started playing with Harry’s hair.
Joe: “what’s wrong with our little baby boy?” he said smiling and tickling Harry a little. Harry started wiggling around, and he giggled a little, which made me smile and join in, soon harry was doing a mix of laughing and crying, which was actually kind of funny. He started wiggling more and he screamed and laughed while trying to push our tickly hands away. “do you want us to stop tickling you?”
Harry: “YESSS!!!”
Joe: “then no more tears kid”
Harry: “okkaaay okay!” I laughed and we both stopped tickling him. Harry pulled his blankie up over his head to hide. At least he isn’t sobbing his heart out anymore.
Joe: “what happened?” Joey asked, looking at me.
Louis: “He thought he could make himself feel better faster by taking a bunch of medicine at the same time” Joey’s eyes widened, and I saw the panic in them. “Uncle Josh caught him before he could though, he was crying because he got a way harder spanking then he is used to getting” Harry looked up
Harry: “can I has some l-lotion? Please big brudderrrr!!” he said giving me his big puppy dog eyes, which is a thousand times worse with all his sad tears.
Josh: “No” he said walking into the room. “you may not have lotion Harry, you almost hurt yourself, and maybe a sore bottom for a few days will help you remember not to do it again” Harry pouted, and more tears rolled down his face. Ugh, Joey almost got him to stop crying. Harry hid his face in my chest again.
Joe: “but Uncle Josh, it-“
Josh: “Shush Joseph. I said no”
Joe: “But Louis is his legal guardian, not you, and-“
Louis: “Joseph Adam Jonas!!” I said glaring at him. “You better get rid of that attitude! I already talked to you about that today, do we need to discuss it further?” he looked down.
Joe: “no sir…”
Louis: “then apologize” he looked at me, and then he looked over at Josh
Joe: “I’m sorry Uncle Josh… I… just feel bad for him” he said rubbing Harry’s back “He has been so sick and... he is the baby, and…. I know your spankings hurt a lot” he said cringing. Uncle Josh does spank harder than anybody in our family… including grandpa, not counting the spanking I got from Grandpa when I crashed my car though, that was the worst. So I can kind of understand where Joseph is coming from, I was worried about our little brother too. It is really cute that Joey is so protective of Harry. but that doesn’t give him the right to be so disrespectful towards Uncle Josh.
Josh: “he is the baby… he is so young, and small. His body can’t handle all of the medicine that he was planning on taking. I think you both agree that he is better off with a sore bottom, then ending up in the hospital getting his stomach pumped or worse…” Joe and I both nodded.
Harry: “Louis?” harry said in a small voice. I looked down at him and moved his crazy hair out of his eyes. “I’m sorry I’m so stupid, I ju-just don’t feel good, and I wanted to make it better”
Louis: “why didn’t you come tell me? or tell Uncle josh? or anybody…?”
Harry: “I d-didn’t want you to k-know that I’m still sick”
Louis: “why?? baby boy, don’t ever hide something like that from me!” I said kissing his forehead
Harry: “I don’t want to be in bed no more” he said pouting.
Josh: “I think baby boy needs to go to the doctor… I don’t know if you guys have taken him already, but He doesn’t seem to be getting better” I nodded, Harry was doing a little better, I thought he was anyway… everybody always calls Harry baby boy, because that’s what our parents have always called him, but it totally fits, because he is 100% the baby boy
Harry: “I don’t want too!” he whined.
Louis: “well you don’t get a choice baby boy” I said bopping his nose. He scrunched up his face.
Harry: “I wish I was the older brudder” he said pouting.
Joe: “trust me, it doesn’t change too much, Louis and I both have a sore butt, don’t we louis?” I groaned and nodded.
Louis: “we sure do. Even if you were the oldest brother, uncle Josh or our grandparents would make you go to the doctor still”
Harry: “this family is-“ Joey covered Harry’s mouth before he could get himself in trouble.. again.
Joe: “such a blessing! Huh?” Harry rolled his eyes and I laughed. These kids crack me up. Joey uncovered Harrys mouth and he stood back up. “Can I go upstairs for a little bit Louis?”
Louis: “umm… I think we were in the middle of a discussion downstairs”
Joe: “yeah but… now you are too busy cuddling with Harry, he doesn’t want to be done cuddling yet” now it was my turn to roll my eyes.
Louis: “Fine, but I have to work tonight, so don’t get too comfortable up there, you aren’t getting out of this”
Joe: “yes sir, I know” I nodded, and he leaned down and kissed Harry’s head and then he left the room.
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Joe’s POV:
Thank God Louis got distracted with Harry because my ass is already hurting so much! I am sooo freaking relieved to get off his lap! But it did make me sad to see Harry so upset. I saw Louis phone, so I quickly grabbed it and then I headed upstairs. I was going to go into my room, but I share a room with Zayn and Liam and they are probably both in there, so I stayed in the hallway and I called Elena because I haven’t been able to talk to her in awhile.
(Phone Conversation)
Elena: “Hello?”
Joe: “Hey!”
Elena: “oh my god! Is this Joe??” I smiled
Joe: “Yes! it’s me! how are you?”
Elena: “I’m doing good, but I miss you! I am sooo happy you called! did you get a new phone?”
Joe: “no..” I said frowning. “this is my older brother’s phone”
Elena: “ugh! I miss talking to you!!!”
Joe: “I miss talking to you too, I’m sorry we got together and then I kind of went MIA”
Elena: “it’s okay, I understand! I just am really excited for you to move here! and your brother is going to work for my dad, so I think we will see each other a lot more”
Joe: “ehh… about that… I need to talk to you about something” I said biting my lip...
Elena: “oh.. what’s up? do you not want to be with me?” she said awkwardly
Joe: “No! I do! I really like you, but…” I hesitated.
Elena: “what’s wrong?”
Joe: “this is a little awkward, because I feel like dumb… But my brothers are kind of… we he is protective of me, in such an annoying way” she giggled
Elena: “that’s cute”
Joe: “noo, it’s… embarrassing!”
Elena: “I think it’s adorable”
Joe: “well, it’s not… Louis told me that I’m not allowed to date you until he gets to know you better, and he wants to talk to your father too about it.” I said leaning up against the wall. I really am embarrassed that I am 18 years old and I have to wait for my older brother’s permission to date a girl. it’s sooo awkward, I didn’t even want to tell her…
Elena: “so… we can’t date?”
Joe: “I.. can’t. I’m so sorry, but I want to! Please wait for me?”
Elena: “but what if Louis doesn’t like me?” she mumbled.
Joe: “you are amazing! He will love you”
Elena: “could we just date and not tell him?” I looked down… I could just lie to louis and just pretend that I’m not dating her… but… I don’t want to lie to him, and I don’t want to go behind his back and date her… I know that that would probably disappoint him a lot, and I hate doing that! I really do want his approval… I know that’s probably lame…
Joe: “uh… My brother does a lot for me, and he.. works so hard to make sure me and my little brothers are taken care of, and I respect him a lot, and… I know it sucks, but… but his approval is kind of important to me….” I said trailing off. Ugh… I wish Louis and Kevin would just… not care.
Elena: “is his approval more important to you then I am?” my heart sunk a little…
Joe: “please don’t make me lie to him” I said softly.
Elena: “would you?” ugh I really like Elena… like a lot… a lot! a lot! but this is not how I expected this conversation to go…
Joe: “I would, but... I don’t want to.” I said honestly. “you would rather me lie to my entire family, then just… wait for me?”
Elena: “I just don’t think it’s fair… your brother isn’t protective, he is controlling”
Joe: “it’s not like that…”
Elena: “yes it is… you are an adult now, he can’t control you anymore if you don’t let him”
Joe: “I don’t think it’s a control thing… I-“
Elena: “He told you that you can’t date me until he approves… doesn’t that seem controlling to you?”
Joe: “He loves me, he wants to make sure that you are good for me…”
Elena: “he loves controlling you” is louis just being controlling?
Joe: “I wouldn’t let my little brother date a girl that I didn’t know either… do you think I’m controlling?”
Elena: “that’s different”
Joe: “it’s not different”
Elena: “you are making excuses for him… do you not want to date me? you could just tell me that you don’t”
Joe: “I do want to date you! I just want to do it with my brother, and your fathers’ approval”
Elena: “but why?” she kind of whined. “they don’t have to date, it should be our decision”
Joe: “but don’t you want them to like… be happy for us and stuff?”
Elena: “being with you is more important to me then what they think about It. I really like you…”
Joe: “I really like you too”
Zayn: “is that your giiiirlllfriend?” he said loudly, making me jump.
Joe: “Gosh! Zayn!” I said putting my hand on my chest. He really did scare me, probably because I know I shouldn’t be on Louis’ phone right now. ugh.
Zayn: “Tell her I said Hi!” he said happily. I rolled my eyes.
Joe: “go away” I mumbled.
Elena: “you want me to go?”
Joe: “No! my little brother is being annoying, I don’t want you to go away, I want him to” I said glaring at Zayn.
Zayn: “you are so grumpy. We should change your name to Grumpy Adam Jonas, instead of Joseph” I rolled my eyes.
Joe: “Hold on a sec Elena” I said before pulling the phone away from my ear and covering up the speaker. “I think you had a long enough break, go clean, because your part of the room is a disaster” his little annoying smirk totally fell off of his face.
Zayn: “Noo! Joeee” he whined. he HATES cleaning. “I’ll stop bugging you, I promise!”
Joe: “I know you will stop bugging me, because you’ll be too busy cleaning, go!” I said pointing to our room. He shook his head no. I sighed. “come here and get a spanking then, if you don’t want to listen”
Zayn: “I’ll listen” he said pouting. I pointed to our room again and he lowered his head like a sad little puppy and he went back into our room. I put my phone back up to my ear.
Joe: “Elena?” I asked softly
Elena: “Yes, I’m still here”
Joe: “I’m really sorry about all of this… I know it’s annoying, and I wish it wasn’t like this, but… it would mean a lot to me if you would just wait for me a little bit… but if you aren’t okay with that… I will do whatever makes you happy, because you also mean a lot to me”
Elena: “I can wait for you… but I don’t like it”
Joe: “I don’t like it either”
Elena: “so… we are broken up?”
Joe: “nooo don’t call it that! that makes me sad”
Elena: “we will just call it ‘waiting for louis’” I laughed
Joe: “sounds good”
Elena: “but…. If I see your cute face, it’s going to be really hard for me not to kiss you”
Joe: “Ugh… that’s going to be really hard for me too!”
Elena: “I hope your brothers don’t make us wait too long” she said sadly “I like you a lot, and I want to be with you”
Joe: “I like you a lot too, and I will be bugging Louis constantly until he lets me date you, I promise”
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Louis POV:
Josh: “I noticed that the boxes are on the verge of tipping in the garage, so I’m going to rearrange them… and I’m going to check and see what Nick is doing.”
Louis: “okay, thank you Uncle Josh” he nodded
Harry: “Can I go play with Nicky?” he asked looking up at me. he is still kind of crying, so its kind of funny that he wants to go play.
Louis: “I thought you didn’t feel good?”
Harry: “I don’t, but… I wanna play with Nicky”
Louis: “I don’t think I want you to be running around outside right now”
Harry: “but I won’t run around... I can color on the driveway with sidewalk chalk.”
Louis: “the sidewalk chalk is probably already packed buddy”
Harry: “but I want to go outside” he said pouting
Josh: “it’s a nice day outside, a tiny bit of fresh air might do him some good, and I can keep an eye on him and make him come back inside if I think he needs to” Harry has been cooped up in this house sick for awhile, so I can understand why he wants to go outside.
Harry: “please Louis?” I sighed
Louis: “I guess, but be good, and don’t overdo it out there” He smiled
Harry: “thankkk you louis!” he said kissing my cheek. He then sat up to get off of me, but he yelped and jumped off the couch when his sore bottom touched my legs. “Owwie” he said pouting and rubbing his bottom. Before I could even react, he started sobbing again, really hard. I sat up
Louis: “Harry, it’s okay buddy”
Harry: “it h-h-hurrrtts” he cried. I looked over at Josh, and he is frowning. I know disciplining them is very important, but It’s so hard to see them in pain... I’m like really tempted to give Harry Lotion, or an ice pack, but I know that Uncle Josh would have none of that. Harry doesn’t get really hard spankings like he got today, we all baby him way too much
Louis: “I don’t think Baby boy should go outside today” I said to Josh, he nodded in agreement, and Harry started crying even harder. Josh walked over, and he picked Harry up and hugged him.
Josh: “tonight at bedtime I’ll give you some lotion, okay buddy?” Harry nodded, and he clung onto Josh. I smiled, Uncle Josh can try to be strict all he wants, but not even he can handle seeing Harry like this.
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*later that day*
Joe’s POV:
After I got off the phone with Elena I quickly went downstairs and snuck Louis phone back to where I found it. I thought about staying down here and hanging out, but… I honestly don’t want to chance Louis seeing me and deciding to finish my butt whooping right now, it already hurts so much. I hope he forgets!!! but I know that he won’t… I pouted and made my way back upstairs to my room. Liam and Zayn are using an old beanie baby bear and throwing it back and forth.
Joe: “Zayn.. I told you to clean” Zayn looked over at me just in time for the bear to go flying into the side of his face. Liam and I both laughed at him, and he picked it up and chucked it back at Liam.
Zayn: “sorry Joey, I got distracted, I am cleaning” I rolled my eyes. it’s so hard to get Zayn to clean, because well… he hates it! but he does get distracted easily.
Joe: “I’ll help you for a little bit”
Liam: “I will help too”
Zayn: “thanks guys” we started out by pulling everything out from under his bed, and I was shocked by how much stuff he fit under there. it was the biggest pile of stuff I ever seen. We started working on separating it into different piles. We have one pile of stuff we are going to pack for him, and then stuff he wants to sell at the yard sale, or donate, and then a pile of stuff we need to throw away. and Liam was actually kind of more help then Zayn is being. I had to give Zayn a couple little bottom smacks to keep him focused on the task at hand.
Liam: “aw! Look! It’s Harry’s old monkey” he said holding up this little tiny monkey stuffed animal.
Joe: “I forgot about that thing!” I said grabbing it. it’s only got one eye, and his got stuffing coming out of his ear. Our grandma gave Harry this monkey a long time ago, and he carried it everywhere with him, and then when he lost it, under Zayns bed apparently, he freaked out and cried about it for weeks. Louis got him the blanket that he chooses to carry around with him now. he isn’t as obsessed with it as he was with this monkey though.
Liam: “should we give it back to him?”
Joe: “I don’t know, it would probably make him happy, but it was so annoying having to deal with him freaking out when we forget to bring it someplace”
Zayn: “he is older now, maybe he won’t be so attached to it anymore”
Joe: “lets…. Let Louis decide” I said walking over and putting it on my bed. “okay, so we need a trash bag, and some boxes”
Liam: “I’ll go get them” he said jumping over a pile of stuff and leaving the room. thank god because I definitely don’t want to go down there.
Zayn: “I don’t want to pack my stuff yet! What if I need something?”
Joe: “all of this stuff was lost under your bed for who knows how long, and you haven’t needed any of it you’ll be fine without it for a few weeks”
Zayn: “but look at all this stuff I forgot about! It’s like Christmas!” he said as Liam came back into the room with some boxes and trash bags.
Joe: “was louis still cuddling with Harry?”
Liam: “no, I saw Harry in the kitchen eating some Jello. He was all pouty and sad though”
Zayn: “why?”
Joe: “he got in trouble with Uncle Josh, and I think it was the hardest spanking he has gotten so far”
Zayn: “is he okay? wait… Uncle Joshie is here?”
Liam: “Joey messed up and now we have a babysitter”
Joe: “well… you guys always have a babysitter, I messed up and got myself one”
Zayn: “HA HA and you are 18!” I picked up Harry’s little stuffed monkey toy and I threw it at him
Joe: “shut up” I mumbled. Zayn is ALWAYS the first one to pick on me. but… I deserve it because I pick on him just as much. Liam and Zayn started talking about their friends, and I got back to work, and they joined me. after about a half an hour of cleaning/packing, I picked up this blue notebook and I opened it up to the first page to see what it is, and I chuckled. It’s Zayn’s Journal and the first page says ‘Dear Joe and Liam’ but before I could read it Zayn tried to grab it from me.
Zayn: “DON’T READ THAT! IT’S MINEE!”
Joe: “But look, it’s got a note to me in it”
Zayn: “Give it to mee!” he whined.
Joe: “dear joe and liam” I said holding it out of his reach “if you find this do not read it! this is private and for my eyes only-“ I read out loud
Zayn: “JOEEESEPH! Stop it!” He said jumping up to try to get it.
Joe: “But I wasn’t finished reading the note you wrote for us shorty” I said laughing at his failed attempt to get it. I’m not going to read any more of his journal, because I would HATE it if someone invaded my privacy like that, and I will never do that to my brothers. but it is kind of funny to mess with him.
Zayn: “you are meann! Please give it back Joey?” he asked softly. “it… it’s my journal about mom and dad” my heart sunk a little… when mom and dad died we were all given journals because writing can be a really good coping mechanism. I haven’t written in mine in a long time, but I can tell that this book is really important to Zayn and I feel horrible for even touching it.
Joe: “I’m just kidding buddy, I wasn’t planning on reading it, I won’t ever read your journal, I promise” I said handing it back to him. he closed it and hugged it.
Zayn: “close your eyes so I can hide it… both of you” Liam and I both covered our eyes, and I heard Zayn moving stuff around, and then he told us we could open our eyes. our bedroom door opened.
Louis: “wow, you guys need to clean your room”
Zayn: “Ugghh Louis! I’ve been cleaning our room most of the day” he said groaning and falling onto his bed, burying his face into his pillow.
Liam: “we pulled everything out from under his bed, and we have been separating it into different piles so we can figure out what to pack, sell, or throw out… it looks like a disaster, but we are cleaning”
Louis: “Zayn, did you tell them thank you for helping you?”
Zayn: “Yes I did… thank you” he said looking up
Louis: “thank you guys” he added.
Liam: “your welcome”
Joe: “no problem”
Louis: “I hate to interrupt all this cleaning, but… I need you downstairs Joe”
Joe: “right now?” I asked trying not to whine.
Louis: “yes… I have to work tonight, and we still need to finish up our discussion”
Joe: “but… but Zayn needs my help”
Louis: “well Zayn looks like he wants to take a cleaning break” UGH!
Zayn: “YES! no more cleaning!”
Louis: “come downstairs Joseph” he said sternly
Joe: “but Louis! I-“ he walked in the room and I flinched away, but he grabbed my arm and started dragging me “WAIT! we found Harry’s old monkey!” like thats going to save me from this...
Louis: “well, good, you can give it to him first” Zayn gave it to me and then Louis started pulling me downstairs. I just hung my head and followed him.
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Hey guys! sorry for not updating the other story, I need to go back and read some of that one since its been so long, I’ll get back into it, I just need some time. please message me thoughts/ideas or whatever for either story! CLICK HERE thanks! -Hannah