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Chapter 198: Just Delayed.

Dan’s POV:

Ken just told us about Lilly, and about what he was doing when we dropped Drake off, and… I’m pretty pissed about it… I would have never let Drake go home if I would have known that Ken was drinking, or that he had some girl there with him. I should have checked in on Ken, I knew he was struggling with alcohol, but I just trusted that he was okay. I should have just checked his work schedule, because I would have saw that he was supposed to be working, and I would have known that something was up. I’m so annoyed that Ken decided to move out with him right now, while he is making these decisions. It’s almost like he just wanted to be able to drink his life away without Paul and I being aware of it, and that’s the only reason he moved out. I cleared my throat, and Ken and Paul both looked at me.

Dan: “um… when Drake is released to come back home, I think he needs to come stay with me again”

Ken: “what do you mean? like all the time?” I nodded, and Ken shook his head no.

Dan: “we need to move his stuff back to my house Ken”

Ken: “No, he is my son”

Dan: “I know he is your son, but you were too busy drinking and fucking some girl, and now look where we are” I said gesturing towards the hallway of the hospital.

Paul: “DANIEL!” he yelled.

Dan: “I’m just saying… this wouldn’t have happened if he would have been at my house”

Ken: “I didn’t even know he was coming home! How is this my fault?”

Dan: “because if you wouldn’t have been drinking, you would have known Ken”

Ken: “I talked to Lilly, and she feels bad, and it’s not going to happen again, we-“

Dan: “I don’t care what you decide to do with your life anymore Ken… you can do whatever, I don’t care about you anymore…” I saw the hurt on his face, but I ignored it and kept going, because I’m so mad at him right now “But I do care about Drake, I love him so much, and I want him to move back into my house so that we can make sure he is taken care of. I really think he needs to come back home, we have more people around to keep an eye on him”

Ken: “you don’t think I can take care of him?” he said in a hurt tone.

Dan: “I’ve seen you drunk Ken, you can’t even take care of yourself”

Ken: “I didn’t know you were bringing him Home! If I would have known he was going to be coming home, I wouldn’t have started drinking, and Lilly wouldn’t have been over”

Dan: “You shouldn’t have been drinking anyway! you have a job Ken”

Ken: “you are an asshole, you aren’t taking my kid”

Dan: “you aren’t taking care of your kid!... still!”

Paul: “okay… guys, this conversation isn’t going nowhere. Dan, you are being rude, and Ken, I don’t think that Dan’s intention is to take your kid away”

Dan: “that is not my intention at all… I just think that Drake needs to be surrounded by people who love him-“

Ken: “you don’t think I love him?!”

Dan: “I know that you love him, but you can’t be home with him all the time… you need to work, and you sleep all day long, you drink, you are in a new relationship, I think that even you should be able to admit that your priorities haven’t been spending time with Drake lately”

Ken: “I’m trying to get better about that… I don’t want him to live somewhere else, I want him to live with me”

Dan: “Drake almost took his life away from all of us, and I think we all need to work together to make sure that doesn’t happen… and I’m sorry ken, but you can’t be there for him all the time, Deb and I can be”

Ken: “You guys have a baby! You can’t be-“

Dan: “I may be busy with a baby but at least I’m not drunk and sleeping around” Paul kept on trying to interrupt, and get us to stop arguing, but we just kept talking over him.

Ken: “I didn’t know he was coming home! I hadn’t seen him in two days! How is this my fault? It’s your fault! You should have realized he wasn’t okay! You must have done something to make him do this!”

Dan: “I didn’t do anything! I’ve been there for Drake every second since the accident! You wouldn’t even talk to him for MONTHS! DON’T BLAME THIS ON ME! YOU ARE THE ONE WHO KILLED HIS FAMILY!” Ken gasped… shit… too far. Paul stood up and he grabbed my arm and he dragged me out of the waiting room, and into the hallway.

Paul: “DANIEL! what the hell is wrong with you?? Don’t say that to him!”

Dan: “well it’s true! He is acting like I’m trying to take his kid away from him or something! But I’ve been taking care of that kid all year! If anyone is trying to take Drake away, it’s him!”

Paul: “Shush! He can probably hear you! YOU need to calm down. What you said to him just now was completely uncalled for!” I sighed and lowered my voice.

Dan: “I’m just frustrated Paul… We’ve addressed this damn drinking issue with Ken, and obviously it wasn’t enough, and Drake wanted to go home, and I only let him because Ken was home and I thought it would be good for them to spend some time together… I had no idea Ken was drinking and having sex with some girl, I wouldn’t have sent him over there had I of known!”

Paul: “Dan… you need to put yourself into Ken’s shoes for a second, he is a LOT younger than we are, and he has already experienced so much loss… what if you got into a crash with Deb and Demi, and it killed them… I bet you that you would be struggling a hell of a lot right now too” I nodded…

Dan: “you’re right… I would be crushed, a-and I would probably not be coping in very good ways either” I nodded.

Paul: “He is really struggling, and yeah, he is making some mistakes but at least he is here now, and he is trying… which I’m really proud of him for… I know that this has all been really difficult for him… and honestly, I think what you just said to him was cruel, and I’m disappointed in you for acting like this” He said crossing his arms and glaring at me. “I’m not going to let you push blame on him for this just because you are frustrated Daniel. It’s not his fault”

Dan: “Drake wasn’t at my house when it happened… that’s all I was trying to say… maybe if he would have been at our house, this wouldn’t be happening right now”

Paul: “Ken has a good point Daniel…” Paul said annoyed… ”Drake left YOUR house, could you not tell that something was wrong with him?” I looked down.

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Demi’s POV:

Olivia and I have been trying to talk to Drake, but he sort of just spaced out the whole time, up until I started crying, that finally got his attention.

Drake: “what’s wrong?”

Demi: “are you kidding Drake? Do you even realize how bad you are hurting all of us?”

Olivia: “Demi…”

Drake: “don’t act like you care” he mumbled.

Demi: “that’s bullshit!”

Drake: “is it?”

Demi: “of course I care about you… you are my brother”

Drake: “It’s interesting that you are sitting here crying, but If I would have tried to talk to you, you would have told me to leave you alone. so don’t act like you care when you don’t” I looked down… he is probably right about that. I would have probably told him to leave me alone. I’m an awful sister to everybody.

Demi: “I… I” tears ran down my face and I looked down… I don’t even know what to say.

Olivia: “Drake… why are you being like this? don’t try to push the blame on Demi, you could have talked to people, and you didn’t… you didn’t talk to me either! so you obviously didn’t even try to talk to her… We all care about you, including Demi! And we all love you, you can’t tell yourself that we don’t. I won’t let you”

Drake: “I’m just… I don’t want to be here anymore Olivia” he said looking at her with sad pained eyes.

Demi: “but we want you to be here… I know you don’t really care right now, but you scared all of us so bad”

Drake: “I didn’t mean to scare anyone, I just can’t do this anymore” he said looking down.

Olivia: “I’m so glad Taylor stopped you…”

Drake: “he didn’t stop me, he delayed me...” he whispered. Olivia and I both broke down and cried our eyes out, and Drake just kind of sat there looking broken.

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Dan’s POV:

Dan: “I knew that something was wrong with him... he was acting so weird”

Paul: “then why did you let him go?”

Dan: “I… I don’t know. Drake asked me if he could go home, but Ken was at work, and it was odd to me that he wanted to go home, because before he moved out he told me that he was scared that he wouldn’t get to spend enough time with us anymore… so I asked him why he wanted to go home, and he told me that it was because he couldn’t sleep without his own bed, and I knew that wasn’t true, because even when his bed was there, he only slept in it half the time, he sleeps in Taylor or Matthews beds most of the time… hell, that kid can sleep anywhere. So I knew that he was lying to me… so I called him out on it”

Paul: “what did he say?”

Dan: “He told me he didn’t want to be at our house, and I was honestly kind of hurt by that, because I miss the kid, and I was excited to have him back at the house, where I think he belongs”

Paul: “so did you just send him home because you were hurt?”

Dan: “no… I made him go to bed, well… actually Taylor made him go to bed, because Ken was already at work, and we didn’t have a key to the apartment anyway, the next day Drake still wanted to go home though, so I tried to talk to him about it… I knew Ken was going to be sleeping all day, so I tried to ask him what was wrong, or if he was mad at me or something, but he wouldn’t tell me, and I was kind of busy, and I didn’t want to keep arguing with him about it, so I let him go home… and the next thing I know, Olivia is telling us she thinks he is going to kill himself… I should have made him talk to me… I knew something was wrong, I could tell… I shouldn’t have let him go….” I said starting to tear up… Paul pulled me into a hug.

Paul: “it’s not your fault either” he whispered gently.

Dan: “I love him soo much… I don’t want him to be sad”

Paul: “I know, I don’t want him to be sad either. We need to come together as a family to help him through it… blaming each other, and fighting isn’t going to help, so I think you should apologize to Ken” I pulled away from Paul, and I shook my head no.

Dan: “I don’t want too” Paul raised his eyebrow and gave me a stern look. I groaned... “fine, I’ll apologize, I guess” Paul smiled

Paul: “good boy” he said messing up my hair. I rolled my eyes and pushed his hands away from my hair, and I tried to fix it.

Dan: “I’m just frustrated… Matthew is leaving, and there is nothing I can do about it, and now Drake wants to kill himself, and I feel so helpless, I don’t know how to help him, and I’m scared... I’m like really scared, I don’t want to lose him, I don’t want to lose Matthew… I don’t want to lose anybody else, it was hard enough to lose my dad… I can’t go through an-anymore l-loss” I tried to stay strong, and hold in my brokenness, but I couldn’t. I broke down into a sobbing mess and I sunk down onto my knees, onto the hospital floor. Paul kneeled down in front of me and he wrapped his arms around me, and I cried into his chest. I miss my dad so much, I regret not spending more time with him towards the end of his life, and Drake is so much younger then me, and he lost his mother, and his sister, and so I know on some level the pain that he is feeling, and I know that there isn’t really anything that anyone could do or say to take that pain away, I know that he is hurting and it scares the shit out of me… How can I possibly convince him to stay alive after everything he has been through? I guess all I can do is love him, and hope that that’s enough… oh god, I hope it’s enough. We stayed like this for awhile, until some guy came and asked if we were alright. Thankfully Paul talked to him, because I can’t right now. I’m feeling kind of embarrassed for my mental breakdown, but I’m telling myself that it’s okay… sometimes it’s just too much, and you need to cry and grieve and it’s not a bad thing, it’s okay to not be okay sometimes, and it’s okay to talk about it, and it’s okay to lean on someone when you need some support, don’t just hold it in, like drake did. I took some deep shaky breathes to try to calm down.

Paul: “I love you Daniel”

Dan: “I love you too” I said leaning closer to him. He lost his balance and he fell backwards, and I fell forward onto him. “opps, s-sorry” he laughed and kissed the top of my head.

Paul: “it’s okay”

Dan: “we need to get off the f-floor, this is embarrassing” he chuckled, and I got off of him, and we got up.

Paul: “you know… Ken is scared too, and he doesn’t want to lose anyone else either…” Paul trailed off.

Dan: “Okay okay… I get where you are coming from” I said trying to wipe my tears away “I was being rude and taking it out on him when he doesn’t deserve it. I’ll apologize”

Paul: “well, I’m glad you realized that without me having to find somewhere more private to discuss this with you” I felt my face blush, and I cringed. And Paul pulled me into another quick hug, before we walked back into the waiting room. Ken is sitting in the same spot, crying. Paul walked over and sat next to him, and he put his arm around him. Ken leaned onto his side. I can tell by the look on his face that he feels horrible.

Ken: “I totally messed up, this is my fault… I w-wish Emily was here” Paul frowned and pulled him closer.

Paul: “it’s going to be okay” Paul said softly.

Ken: “do you guys really not care what I do with my life anymore?” he said glancing up at me, before looking down... Ugh that was such a harsh thing to say to him. I grabbed the nearest chair and pulled it over to them, and I sat kind of in front of him and I grabbed both of his hands which kind of made him look up at me with a weird look, we were both arguing a few minutes ago, so I can understand his confusion.

Dan: “I’m really sorry for what I said… all of it. I didn’t mean it when I said that I don’t care what you do with your life anymore… that’s so far from the truth Ken, I do care about you a lot”

Ken: “it’s okay if you don’t… I know that I have been-“ I shook my head, stopping him from continuing

Dan: “I consider you to be like a little brother to me”

Ken: “really?” he said surprised. I nodded.

Dan: “yes, I know you probably don’t feel that way, because I’ve been kind of a jerk to you, but I do care about you, and I always have”

Ken: “you guys gave us a family when we needed one the m-most, and I really appreciate it”

Paul: “we all love you both so much”

Ken: “I always knew that you guys loved drake like he was one of your own, and I’m honestly so thankful for that because he needs all of you… like he really needs all of you… and I need you guys too, I guess” he said looking away awkwardly. “I’ve messed up a lot though… I know I’m the reason Drake wanted to do this… I feel selfish for wanting him to move out with me, I… I know I said I didn’t want you guys to take him away from me, but I.. I think I might have taken you guys away from him”

Paul: “Nobody is taking anybody away from anyone, we are a family, and we always will be. And don’t blame yourself for Drake doing this, we haven’t really gotten to speak to him, we don’t know what happened”

Ken: “I think I have a pretty good idea” he said looking down.

Dan: “Ken, I was frustrated when I tried to blame you… Paul’s right though, we don’t know anything, because Drake hasn’t told us what he is going through… I’m really sorry for pushing the blame on you, this isn’t your fault… and I’m like really sorry for saying what I did about the car crash, I feel so awful for saying that”

Ken: “but you were right though” he softly. His lip started trembling and he looked down as more tears ran down his face. I squeezed his hands a little

Dan: “Hey, look at me, please?” he bit his lip and he looked up and when his eyes met mine I started tearing up again too, because I can see the pain and guilt in his eyes, and… I feel like such a dick for what I said... “that’s n-not true Ken, it was a terrible accident”

Ken: “a terrible a-accident that could have been prevented if my eyes would have been on the road… drake would be happy, and none of this would be happening” he said letting go of my hands and burying his face in them. Paul pulled him close and rubbed his back.

Paul: “Ken, you need to stop blaming yourself”

Ken: “but it’s my fault… you guys even think so… Dan just said so”

Dan: “Ken, I didn’t mean that” I repeated.

Ken: “you wouldn’t have said it, if you didn’t think so” Paul grabbed his wrists, and he pulled Ken’s hands away from his face, and he made him look at him.

Paul: “that’s not true Ken… when you were in the hospital, you said hurtful things to Drake, you told him it was his fault, did you actually feel that way? Do you think it’s Drakes fault that Emily and Selena are gone?” Ken immediately shook his head no.

Ken: “No, I never thought that, I was just hurting so bad, and… it was selfish, but It was easy to take it out on him” he said biting his lip, he still feels bad about doing that to drake.

Paul: “see, you said something when you were upset that you didn’t mean, that’s what Dan did, it was uncalled for, wasn’t it, Daniel?” he said glaring at me. I nodded.

Dan: “yeah it was very uncalled for and I wish I could take it back, I’m really sorry”

Paul: “texting and driving is dangerous… I’m not going to deny that maybe you could have prevented it, if you would have been paying complete attention to the road, but drunk drivers kill people who were paying attention on the road all the time, so honestly Ken, we will never know. you guys were just in the wrong place at the wrong time, and… I’m so sorry about that… but you can’t keep blaming yourself anymore, you and Drake both blame yourselves so much for this, and it’s tearing you both apart”

Ken: ”How am I going to help him through this? He won’t even talk to me. I don’t know what to do”

Dan: “I don’t think any of us know what to do to help him, but… Taylor was somehow able to find him, and get to him just in time… so that tells me that it wasn’t Drake’s time to go, he has another chance… and we need to help him to make the most of it” Ken nodded.

Ken: “this is about Drake, I don’t know why I am having a mental break down, you guys should probably go visit with him, I’ll stay here”

Paul: “you don’t want to go back to his room?”

Ken: “he doesn’t want to see me, I’ll come try again tomorrow or something”

Paul: “well, why don’t you and I go for a walk, and talk about some stuff, and Dan can go back in with the kids for a while” Ken sat up and shook his head no

Ken: “Drake needs both of you, I’ll just wait here until you guys are ready to leave” Paul shook his head no.

Paul: “No I think you and I need to talk about some stuff, I’ll come see Drake again” Ken is having such a hard time, and Paul is closer to him then I am, Paul definitely needs to be the one he talks to, because I’m obviously not able to do it without making him feel worse. Ken sighed and nodded

Ken: “okay”

Paul: “Dan, we are going to walk around, and maybe go get a coffee or something, because Ken’s like… really exhausted, so text me when you guys are ready, and will come back” I nodded.

Ken: “I’m not exhausted, I’m fine”

Paul: “you are exhausted, don’t lie to me” Ken rolled his eyes and I laughed.

Ken: “I didn’t bring my wallet though”

Paul: “well, lucky for you, I brought mine. let’s go” he said standing up.

Ken: “you don’t have to buy me coffee” I heard him whine as they walked away. I have no doubt in my mind that Paul’s going to buy him that coffee. I took a deep breath and I ran my fingers through my hair. It’s hard to be here. I feel awful seeing Drake here, probably because I’m so protective of him, I wish I could take him home, and hug him and make him feel better… but it’s not always that easy, and unfortunately Drake needs to be here for a little bit. I sighed and stood up, and I moved the chair back to where it was. And then I went back to Drakes room, and I went inside, and the girls were both crying, which makes me sad. Drakes just laying in his bed looking broken.

Dan: “stand up a second, baby girl” I said walking over to them. she stood up, and I sat in her spot, and I held my arms out to her and she climbed into my lap. “Drake, you making the girls cry?”

Drake: “not on purpose” he mumbled. Demi turned a little in my lap and she looked at me with the saddest eyes I’ve ever seen.

Dan: “what’s wrong baby girl?”

Demi: “Drakes going to hurt himself dad” she whispered. I glanced over to the bed, and Drake looked up at us

Dan: “did he tell you that?”

Drake: “I didn’t say that” he mumbled.

Dan: “Demi?” I asked, moving some hair out of her face. “why do you think that honey?” she snuggled close and buried her face into my shoulder. And I wrapped my arms around her and I rubbed her back. “it’s going to be okay” I whispered into her ear.

Olivia: “Dan…. Drake s-said that Taylor d-didn’t stop him from k-killing himself” she sobbed out.

Drake: “Olivia! What the hell” he snapped at her, Olivia bit her lip, as tears ran down her face…

Dan: “Drake… don’t speak to her like that” I said glaring at him, he squirmed away from me, closer to the wall.

Demi: “H-He said ta-taylor just de-delayed him, he di-didn’t stop him” Demi said holding me tighter.

Dan: “did you say that Drake?”

Drake: “no”

Olivia: “yes you did”

Demi: “You did too!” that Jamie guy came back in.

Jamie: “Drake, I see that you haven’t eaten anything yet, do you want me to go get you something else?”

Drake: “no, I don’t want anything”

Demi: “my brothers going to hurt himself, please make sure he doesn’t” Demi said desperately.

Drake: “SHUT UP DEMI!” he tried to yell, but he lost his voice, so it came out more like a whisper scream. Jamie froze for a second.

Jamie: “um…. Drake, you okay?”

Drake: “Ugh” he groaned, turning away from all of us.

Jamie: “your brother won’t be able to hurt himself under our watch” Demi nodded.

Dan: “He told the girls that nobody stopped him from killing himself, they just delayed it” I said concerned.

Jamie: “I’ll make sure the doctors are aware of him saying that”

Dan: “will that keep him here longer?”

Jamie: “um… it might” he said looking at Drake with a frown on his face as Drake made a whimper sound.

Dan: “Jamie, can I have a word with you?” he nodded, And I slipped Demi off of my lap and I tried to walk away from her, but she wouldn’t let me go. “I’ll be right back honey” she shook her head no.

Demi: “can I c-come with y-you?” I sighed and nodded, and we walked outside into the hallway outside of Drakes hearing range.

Jamie: “are you his father?” I was going to say yes, because I love him like a son, but unfortunately, he isn’t my son. So I shook my head no.

Dan: “um… Drake’s biological father is in prison. he has a step dad, but he isn’t here at the moment… I’ve been taking care of Drake for awhile though” Jamie nodded

Jamie: “I can tell you care about him a lot, I can’t really give you too much information though, because you aren’t… related” I nodded.

Dan: “I… understand. I am just worried, is he… doing okay?”

Jamie: “well… I’m not a doctor, I’m still in college and stuff, but I’ve been assigned to kind of follow drake around, and make sure he has everything he needs… But… I can say that I’m honestly a little bit worried about Drake too, only because he doesn’t really want to be helped. he doesn’t want to talk to anyone, he really seems to be giving up, and he is angry that he is here”

Dan: “what can I do? How can we help him?”

Jamie: “just… don’t give up on him, and he will come around” I smiled and nodded. “he is such a good kid”

Dan: “yeah he is, we love him so much. Thank you for stepping out with me for a second, I’m just… worried about him”

Jamie: “completely understandable. Drake doesn’t see his future and his worth right now, but I’ve gotta tell you man, it makes a big big difference to be surrounded by people who do see your worth… Drake is lucky to have that in you guys, he really is. There are so many people who come in here every day, and they don’t have anybody… Drake does, so I truly do believe that he is going to be just fine”

Dan: “thank you so much Jamie”

Jamie: “no problem… Drakes in good hands here, I promise” he said focusing his attention to Demi. She nodded, and I pulled her into a side hug. And then we walked back into the room. Drake was glaring at Olivia and Olivia was just sitting there crying. “Are you sure you don’t want me to get you anything else to Eat drake?”

Drake: “I don’t want anything”

Jamie: “okay, I’ll be around, if you change your mind” he said softly, before leaving the room. I sat back down, and Demi sat back down in my lap.

Dan: “Drake, I know you are upset that Olivia and Demi told me and Jamie what you said, but… they did the right thing… it breaks my heart to hear that you think that, but it is important for us to know, so that we can help you. So don’t be mad at them, or mean to them about it”

Drake: “I don’t want help”

Dan: “I know you don’t. but that’s not going to stop us from trying… and back to you saying that Taylor just delayed you, I’m going to do whatever I can to make sure you are wrong about that one”

Drake: “I wish you all would just leave me alone” he whispered.

Dan: “we can’t”

Drake: “why?”

Dan: “because we love you”

Drake: “I don’t love any of you” he lied. “so you should all just go away” I think Drake is saying this stuff because he wants to push us all away, so that we wouldn’t miss him so much if the unthinkable happened… but I’m not going to let him do that.

Dan: “can you look me in the eyes and tell me that Drake?” I said in a hurt tone. Drake looked at me and he opened his mouth to say something, but nothing came out. “I didn’t think so… you do love us, and you can’t deny that, and we aren’t going to let you push us away”

Drake: “whatever” I sighed

Dan: “Matthew wanted me to tell you that he loves you, and he is so sorry he could not come see you today…”

Drake: “is h-he leaving?” I nodded.

Dan: “yeah, he is”

Drake: “c-can he come see me tomorrow before h-he goes?”

Dan: “I’m so sorry buddy, he can’t.” Drake nodded. I could see the disappointment on his face though... Ugh. “Matthew loves you a lot, and he tried so hard to come with us today to see you, but… he just couldn’t. and believe me when I tell you that he was really upset about it”

Demi: “Daddy’s telling you the truth Drake, Uncle Matthew w-was so heartbroken that he wasn’t able to come with us today”

Drake: “was he mad… at me?” Drake asked awkwardly

Olivia: “why would he be mad at you?”

Drake: “I don’t know… for ruining his last day home or something”

Olivia: “he is just w-worried about you”

Demi: “if you would have d-died or got s-seriously hurt, that would have ruined e-everything for him… I think everyone is just th-thankful that you are here, and y-you are safe” she said in a shaky voice. I feel so bad that the girls are crying, it’s making it really difficult for me to hold it together and I wanted to try to be strong and stuff for him, but I’m sure he can tell I’ve been crying too.

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Edward’s POV:

Karie: “are you ready to go home Edward?”

Edward: “umm… I was talking to Zac, can I go tell him bye?”

Karie: “of course sweetie”

John: “we aren’t in any hurry”

Karie: “in fact, I hear Bethany… I’m going to sneak over and give her some cuddles” Karie said excitedly

Denise: “she’s so cute! I put her in a little dress today and she’s wearing a little bow in her hair!”

Karie: “Oh my gosh! John! I’m buying Bethany some adorable clothes next time I go anywhere that has them! and you can’t stop me” John chuckled

John: “did you forget about the little outfit you bought her while we were on vacation?” Karie gasped

Karie: “I did forget! Goo get it! please?” she begged. He gave her a quick kiss and then he went back outside to look for it and I went back upstairs. John and Karie are such dorks. I can just imagine how excited they would be if they had a baby. they love kids so much, it’s kind of sad that they waited so long for another kid, and they ended up with me, that sucks, that makes me feel a little guilty. They are such good people, and I’m a crappy teenager. So I hope that they can have more better kids someday. I walked into the room I left Zac in, and he is standing in the same spot, looking like he just seen a ghost or something.

Zac: “are you going to tell on me?” he said looking at me with wide eyes.

Edward: “why do you have that?” I asked again… “where did you get it from?”

Zac: “if you tell Paul and Denise, they will kick me out… please don’t say anything! I really like it here” he whined... I rolled my eyes. I wasn’t even planning on telling on him, because I have done my fair share of breaking the law, and I’m not really a snitch. But I still want to know what’s going on.

Edward: “if you don’t answer me, I will tell” I lied.

Zac: “I’m just trying to help”

Edward: “what do you mean? Help how?”

Zac: “Paul and Denise are doing so much for me, and they are like broke right now, and… I wanted to try to help them”

Edward: “so you are selling it?” He nodded. “where did you get it from?”

Zac: “my d-dad grows it”

Edward: “Paul and Denise would be PISSED if they knew you had that”

Zac: “they aren’t going to find out, Sam… um…” he shut his mouth and his eyes went wide… and so did mine…

Edward: “Sam…? Sam is buying that from you?” I said shocked.

Zac: “No! just forget it” he said trying to walk away from me. I grabbed his arm.

Edward: “I’m not going to forget it! tell me what the hell is going on, or I’m going to go downstairs and tell Denise right now!”

Zac: “No! don’t!”

Edward: “what does Sam have to do with this then?” I said letting go of him and crossing my arms.

Zac: “Sam is buying it from me tomorrow after school”

Edward: “but why? His roommate smokes pot all the time, why would he need to buy it from you?”

Zac: “he said that he thought Anthony would slip up and tell you if he got it from him, because he runs his mouth a lot”

Edward: “ugh that pisses me off” I said running my fingers through my hair.

Zac: “I promised him that I wouldn’t say anything…”

Edward: “well I’m pissed at you too! it’s fucked up that you would sell that stuff to my boyfriend… How did he even know you had it?”

Zac: “the same way you found out actually… He thought it was your backpack, and he found it and he said he was so confused, so he searched through the rest of the backpack to see what else you had, and then he found something with my name on it…. I probably should have hidden it better” I wish I would have been there to see Sammy’s reaction if he thought that was mine, because I bet he was shocked.

Edward: “honestly dude, you probably should put it somewhere else because it’s making your backpack start to smell like weed now”

Zac: “is it really?” I nodded.

Edward: “yeah… AND if someone else would have found it and thought it was mine, I would have been SO MAD! And you shouldn’t have it”

Zac: “I don’t smoke it or anything, I just want to help…”

Edward: “so going to jail for selling drugs is your solution? That’s stupid. Paul and Denise are not going to want your illegal drug money”

Zac: “they won’t know…”

Edward: “what are you going to tell them the money came from?”

Zac: “I don’t know… I haven’t figured that part out yet”

Edward: “there are so many other ways to help, like get a job or something!”

Zac: “they won’t let me help! they keep saying that I’m a kid, and I need to focus on school”

Edward: “you aren’t a drug dealer Zac, you are better then this… I want you to go flush that stuff”

Zac: “I can’t… Sam already paid for part of it, and-“

Edward: “I don’t give a fuck… Sam lost his money then! Get rid of it”

Zac: “But-“

Edward: “I’m doing this to help you Zac… please just flush it? I’ll help you think of some other way to help… and if you don’t get rid of it then I’m going to tell on you, because you can’t be doing this”

Zac: “Sam-“

Edward: “I will deal with Sam… Please just do the right thing Zac… I’ve spent my whole life doing the wrong thing, trust me, it doesn’t help”

Zac: “okay.. but it’s not here…” he whispered.

Edward: “Yes it is actually, I took it from you” I said pulling it out of my pocket. “Flush it, now!” I said sternly “and don’t try to do this again… it’s a really dumb idea, I’m serious” I said quickly handing it to him. Zac took it and we walked over to the bathroom and I shut the door and locked it behind us, I really don’t want to get caught with weed on me because of someone else again… John was pissed the first time it happened, and I know that they are probably mad enough at me already. Zac walked over to the toilet and he opened the bag, and then he hesitated and looked at me. “I promise I’ll help you find a way to help Paul and Denise out, you don’t need to do this” I said in a gentle voice. He nodded, and he looked back down, and he emptied the weed into the toilet, and then he flushed it. “I know that you probably hate me right now, but you did do the right thing” I said as he threw away the bag it was in.

Zac: “I’m not going to be able to get anymore from my dad…” he mumbled.

Edward: “good. you don’t need it, and you don’t want to get in trouble man, it’s not worth it” I said opening the door.

Zac: “thank you for not telling…”

Edward: “I will tell, if I find out you have it again, I’m not kidding…” he pouted and nodded.

Zac: “Okay, I won’t. I’ll figure something else out” I nodded, and opened the door.

Edward: “maybe we can talk to everyone, adults included, and we could all come up with a way to help them? I think they would appreciate that way more... and the adults are way smarter than us when it comes to stuff like this”

Zac: “you are probably right… I wasn’t trying to hurt anyone, I wasn’t trying to hurt Sam either, I.. Sam scared me” he said as we were walking down the stairs

Edward: “what? why? How? Did he threaten you or something?” I felt myself kind of hold my breath, because if Sam did threaten him… that will be a big problem for our relationship. I will freak out on him so bad.

Zac: “no, he didn’t threaten me, he just scared me because he told me someone robbed him when he tried to sell it and he thought they were going to hurt him”

Edward: “when did this happen?”

Zac: “when he lost his job and he was scared about paying bills and stuff”

Edward: “he never told me about this…”

Zac: “he didn’t want to scare you… he only told me to try to get me to rethink what I was about to do.”

Edward: “I’m glad he talked you out of it… but I’m really sad that he wants to buy it from you. Sammy promised me he wouldn’t use that stuff anymore”

Zac: “Maybe he just wanted to help me out..? maybe he wasn’t going to use it”

Edward: “I doubt that” I said disappointed. I probably wouldn’t be so disappointed in him if he were just honest with me about it. he has told me over and over again that he didn’t want to do that anymore, so it’s sad to see him struggle with this. we walked the rest of the way downstairs and Denise, Karie and John were all gathered around the baby. I wanted to roll my eyes, but I can’t deny that she’s pretty dang cute.

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Hey guys! I’m sorry that it’s been such a long time since I updated this story! I don’t know why I’m struggling so much with it. I honestly don’t even know if this chapter is good or not. Let me know? Thanks -Hannah

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