#crazy feels

[poprocklyrics]

I wanna give up but I don't know how Why don't you show me now?

Crazy Feels, Oh Pep!

[purplespacecats]

like honestly ECT is actually helping with The Depression just the issue is that that just made way for The Anxiety to flare up like whoa along with The PTSD 

(which i didn’t even fucking know i had but def hasn’t been helped by this whole summer at my parents’ nonsense--but the fucking mcgill shrink didn’t think ECT was “appropriate at this point” l m a o so going to my parents was my only way of fucking getting ECT which clearly i fucking needed--soon after that mcgill shrink turned down my request for ECT guess who had to withdraw from the semester because of depression l m a o and all she fucking did at that point was switch me to a new goddamn SSRI??????? then i asked for a new shrink and the new shrink not only wouldn’t consider ECT but fucking flat out refused to put me on benzos--and only reluctantly conceded to rx me a measley 10 pills total is bc i accidentally let slip that i’d gotten a bottle thru illegitimate channels anyways so she might as fucking well despite her ridic aversion to them)

[losangeleslovesyou]

OH PEP! : CRAZY FEELS

[meet-me-in-tomorrowland]

Holy nostalgia

[losangeleslovesyou]

OH PEP! : CRAZY FEELS (LIVE)

[purplespacecats]

agdjsh being on stimulants during a depressive episode is fuckin weird; it's like the clichéd angel and devil on your shoulder, except it's the personifications of depression and adderall and instead of giving me conflicting advice they're just beating the shit out of each other while I dissociate

[purplespacecats]

my shrink put me on adhd meds (concerta, which is ritalin for grownups) and it def helps with executive functioning but also ups my anxiety like woah kshlfdkj love comorbidity, lots of fun tradeoffs