in one time you will meet your dream person that will date you. he is very kind, romantic, and he is just the person that you dream that you want to be with, in a simple way.
but in the next of time he dumb you like a shit. he turn to be the person that you don’t want to be. but the worst is, you are still in love with him. you still have your heart, your soul, or even your life for him. but you don’t even know how. but you are still want to be with him. you want to make your dreams come true, still.
and you guys still together. you and him. not in a relationship, but let’s just call it a very weird relationship. you can fuck the other guys, and him either. that’s the deal. you go fuck another guys, he go fuck another guys, but you still thinking about him. still wondering “is he kiss their lips?”. what a pity.
you guys ever do 3s and 4s with strangers, together. and you are very happy, with no reason. you are just happy because at least you guys still together. until he is going home. you feel empty again. again. and again. you need his existence. naked cuddling like you guys used to be, kissing like you guys used to be, and just do nothing but together like you guys used to be.
and, you still want to make your dream come true.. you want to be with him until the day has come. the day when you hold his hand tightly, and all he can do is only lay down in a hospital’s bed.. sounds like The Holding Man movie.. till the rest of their life..
but the fuck is you like the way it hurts..
ARE YOU CRAZY IN LOVE OR JUST CRAZY OBSESSED?.