I know I talk a lot about being alone, but I'm not. I do have a few people.--four of them that I can say for sure--that I know love me and will always be here for me and have never given me reason to doubt otherwise. People I can call my best friends. Kristine has just been amazing. She and I have been through so much together. We've held each other while the other cries, we've gone gallivanting around doing who knows what. She never fails to remind me that she loves me, and I certainly do not show my appreciation for her enough. Allegra is the bread to my butter. We have so many memories and inside jokes. I don't see her nearly as often as I should. Allegra is the reason why I discovered myself. I owe myself to her. I know I haven't appreciated her enough. I love her so much and somehow I've let myself forget what's in front of me, what's really important. And I'm sorry for that. I love you. Tommyis my gay best friend. No, but really. Tommy is the one who I feel like I can tell anything to, without feeling like an absolute bother, and with knowing that he will be honest with me and yet not judge me. And he always knows what to say to me. Plus, he totally gets me better than anyone. You know what I mean by that~ I just really really pizza him and I can't wait to just hug him in February. Kasie is the only one who I have never met or will not in the foreseeable future, but if you think that makes it any different, you're so false. Me and Kasie have been through so much together, between things like the other night, to just talking on the phone about things that are pissing us off. She doesn't know how much I love her. Guys, I'm sorry for the funk I've been in lately. In the past month, I've just kind of been falling back into what I was like before. I'm so sorry. I just need a swift kick in the pants sometime to realize what's really important. Silly failed relationships aren't important. Having a giant group of friends isn't important. My brother? People at school? Ha, they wish they were important. I promise to try and remember this. These four are the reason I'm still alive. I love you all.