#cris baker

[brettinthecity101]

My new short film is up for video of the week on Awardeo and I've be overjoyed if some people would vote for it please! Thanks one and all!

[brettinthecity101]

The Drop of Ink // DAY STORIES

When I was 17 I was best friends with Cris. As often happens when you're growing up, we eventually fell out in a really big way and didn't talk for seven years.  Seven years later Cris got in touch with me and asked if I'd like to get together. We met up, did some apologising and then found that we still got on really well. He'd always wanted to be an artist and I had always wanted to be a filmmaker so we were pleased to find that both of us were on our way to realising those dreams. This is a film about supporting your friends and burying hatchets. 

[hayleysdiary]

19/8/12

dear cris (or chris as it's actually spelt),

i need to get you out of my head and heart and i know this will help me get closure. 

you manipulated me. you broke my heart MORE than once. yet you still have a hold over me because you manipulated me to fall in love with you. and then you dropped me like a sack of bricks. you broke me and i believe you meant to. we broke up months ago and now i'm left feeling worthless...pathetic, betrayed, alone and paranoid.  

i don't hate you- i don't believe in hate anymore. i believe that everything happens for a reason so i know you were in my life for a reason, i just haven't worked out what that reason is. when i do...you will be out of my head. 

you're a beautiful person inside and out when you want to be and that's what you used to manipulate me to fall in love with you. but mostly you're selfish...you don't know that you're selfish because you are selfish. it makes me angry that you can't think of anyone else but yourself and you 'bros'. 

you made me feel so bad about myself that i self harmed with the words you said to me in mind. i don't think you realise you have this affect on people. maybe one day you will and when you do you will change your ways? i don't know, i don't blame anyone for me cutting myself BUT the things you said to me made me feel like i needed to punish myself. so i did. every time i look at that scar i think if you. 

you added me on facebook again. as much as i would like to speak and see you again i know that this cannot and must not happen until you are out of my system. i hope one day i can stop looking you up.  

i sincerely wish you all the best in all your dreams and accomplishments. i hope you can realise weed is not good for you and i hope you achieve all you wish. 

on the other hand i'm jealous. you've never worked hard in your life and i think you've had it easy and you seem to just land on your feet every time. but i guess that's life.

god gives his toughest soldiers the hardest times. (to go with your christian views)

as much as i hate to say this you will always have a place in my heart...but i am hoping and praying that in writing this, i can close that place up and never go back. 

thanks for the good times while they lasted.

sincerely, hayley mitchell.