I love your writing! Could you do 50 or 53 for fitzier? Thanks!
aww thank you so much ;w; and thank you for the lovely prompt
send me a number and a pairing and I’ll write something
Fitzier, happy au where everyone lives and things are better :))
53. “When I’m with you, I’m home.”
“When I’m with you, I’m home.” James whispers to the olderman, as they find solace in their private quarters, gifted to them by Fitzjameseccentric adopted brother upon their arrival back in England. It had beenseveral months since they had been rescued from a painful death in the arctic.
Francis Crozier had watched his fellow Captain nearly perishfrom before his eyes from his old wounds. He watched helplessly as the youngerman’s body betrayed him. He had felt the effects of scurvy, the tiredness, theache in his limbs, the sensitivity to noise. They were incredibly lucky for amonth longer and they would not have been alive to meet their rescue party.
Francis tried not to dwell on what could have happened whenhe had a healing Fitzjames in his arms. He was still incredibly weak and thin,he tired easily and needed to rest often during the day but he could keep downlight food. The Irishman spent most of his waking hours fretting over hispartner and dealing with the Admiralty (only one of those things of which heactually enjoyed.)
Crozier counted down the days until he could be done withthe arctic and the blasted navy. He had his retirement papers ready for theexact moment they would be done with the Franklin Expedition. In the meantime,he tended to James and planned their leave. The traffic of London, though idealfor a socialite like James but made Francis anxious, aching for more seclusion.Crozier suggested a country side cottage, somewhere by the sea, to which James’agreed only if there was a town within walking distance nearby with somesemblance of culture. If there was one thing they agreed on, they would gosomewhere warm.
“Hmm? What do you mean by that love?” The older man shiftedonto his side, stroking James’ boney cheek. The younger man leaned into histouch, cognac brown eyes fluttering closed.
“I have searched far and wide for a place I could call home.After I lost my adopted parents, along with my true father, I felt adrift. Evenbefore then I knew I didn’t quite belong. I traveled with the navy, far andwide, to make a home of my own. It took me to the ends of the earth but Ifinally found it the day I met you, Francis.” The Irishman could not help butblush at the candor of James’ story. After all they had been through, he knewin his heart that his lover meant every word. After the day Fitzjames confessedhis darkest secrets to him, tears pooling from his eyes as he reached out tohim, Francis truly understood him and loved him even more. He found strength inthe confidence of a man he once seemed to despise.
Fitzjames appeared to be an arrogant, snobbish man, lookingfor approval from any older man in power that could give it to him. Francis sawthrough him from the beginning but it took him longer to see the real Jamesbeneath the façade; the sweet man searching for validation but in the processnever learned to truly love himself. Perhaps he saw parts of himself in hislover, but he loved and treasured the man he was when they were alone like this.
James continued softly, even with Francis’ silence;
“I do not care where we go after this but I never wish to beapart from you.” The older man’s heart soared in his chest. Francis pressedtheir lips together softly, wrapping his fingers in the younger man’s softbrown curls. He pulled away to rest his forehead on James’, murmuring to himsoftly,
september 20, 2013: vastderp points out that ray is a hypocrite, which turns into ray’s paranoia, irritable bowel syndrome, imagination station characters, psychosis, drinking problem, night terrors, and self-injury issues
september 21, 2013: seebs asks ray et al. “where’s the harassment” because he can’t find the patty on the bun, and for this seebs gets baby’s first rape fantasy
june 2, 2015: ray defames me on his blog after i write meta about his problematic fave that he didn’t like, and when i ask if he’s okay, i get to rp with his neo-nazi edgelord oc
june 3, 2015: ray finds out that i wrote a thing that could make him really mad even though i tagged it so he wouldn’t be able to find it in the tag for his problematic fave, which is his whole issue, and then ray issues murder and mutilation threats against me
september 20, 2015: ray’s chats get released, and ray panics and jumps fandoms so he can start drawing porn of children’s cartoons
june 3, 2016: ray calls roach a pedophile because ??? and that is why
happy anniversary to me. thanks for being an entertaining, tortious little shit as always, and shine on, you crazy diamond.
[4/19/2015 2:31:16 AM] Nacroleon: yep seebs is the literal worst of the two
[4/19/2015 2:31:18 AM] Nacroleon: too stupid
[4/19/2015 2:31:20 AM] Nacroleon: too retarded
[4/19/2015 2:31:22 AM] Nacroleon: to see what he did
[4/19/2015 2:31:26 AM] Nacroleon: lacks empathy on all fronts
[4/19/2015 2:32:13 AM] Nacroleon: maybe he does it to stim...
[5/22/2015 9:54:23 PM] kep: tbfh when [seebs] said he didnt remember ever doing that i was so mad i couldve reached my hand through the computer and nailed his fingers to the desk
These people have no idea how fucked up the level of violence in their casual conversations is. What the actual fuck?
thanks to this leak i finally understand why ray was so upset about being criticized for the ‘hot glass rod’ rape fantasy. everyone else was like “i can’t believe anyone could ever say anything that terrible” and here’s Ray thinking “What the fuck? that was tame for me!”
i’m prety sure ray and rhett think everyone is like this in private.
[6/4/2015 5:19:27 PM] Nacroleon: I kinda wonder what would break them
[6/4/2015 5:27:56 PM] kep: what they deserve
[6/4/2015 5:28:03 PM] kep: getting locked the fuck up
[6/4/2015 5:28:22 PM] Nacroleon: That too but that requires them doin something illegal
[6/4/2015 5:28:30 PM] Nacroleon: Or this getting way worse
[6/4/2015 5:30:40 PM] kep: continuing this shit and ('tugging the bait' as derp calls it) when they know its made you suicidal could be considered encouraging suicide
[6/4/2015 5:30:49 PM] Nacroleon: true
[6/4/2015 2:02:50 PM] kep: 2x2verse needs to shove it
[6/4/2015 2:03:59 PM] kep: they decided to write a crotuna rape fic in the wake of the shit
[6/4/2015 2:04:04 PM] Nacroleon: figures
[6/4/2015 2:04:14 PM] Nacroleon: they could probably stand to shove their fingers in a meat grinder
[6/4/2015 2:04:39 PM] Nacroleon: is it morally wrong to want to perform inexperienced brain surgery on these people
[6/4/2015 2:05:06 PM] Nacroleon: "cronus is my coping mechanism" indeed.
[6/4/2015 2:05:15 PM] Nacroleon: this is what we call "throwing a bone"
[6/4/2015 2:05:27 PM] kep: i was thinking of connecting their open mouth to a sewage pipe but
[6/4/2015 2:05:44 PM] Nacroleon: "oh you're kin with cronus and you relate to him in the good and bad ways? let's write him as a rapist"
[6/4/2015 2:05:49 PM] Nacroleon: very telling!
[6/4/2015 2:05:51 PM] kep: mHM
[6/4/2015 2:06:01 PM] kep: fucking disgusting people
[6/4/2015 2:06:10 PM] kep: derp probably egged them on
[6/4/2015 2:06:29 PM] Nacroleon: kill 2x2verse off without a second thought
[6/4/2015 2:07:19 PM] kep: eugh
[6/4/2015 2:07:36 PM] kep: how fucking tasteless can you get
[6/4/2015 2:14:35 PM] kep: why dont their "cronus is a rapist!!1" wanking hands ever get tired
[6/4/2015 2:15:17 PM] Nacroleon: solution: chop off their hands
[6/4/2015 2:22:01 PM] Nacroleon: :^) boy oh boy do i love being neurodivergent
[6/4/2015 2:35:47 PM] Nacroleon: sometimes i wonder what it will take for them to really stop
[6/4/2015 3:50:09 PM] kep: ughhhh same
[6/4/2015 4:23:33 PM] kep: "someone who’s neurodivergent..... acting neurodivergent?????? lmao only me and my autism are allowed to do that!!" thats literally what seebs is saying
[6/4/2015 4:24:01 PM] Nacroleon: seebs should consider ingesting some bleach
[6/4/2015 4:24:11 PM] kep: rlly tho
