#crush one

[banjot0ad]

everytime i see you i dream about holding your hand. i wish my dream would come true. 

[banjot0ad]

Is it bad that I fall asleep every night pretending I’m in your arms?

[banjot0ad]

So my friends know I like him now. So I can talk about him openly. That’s nice but now I’m worried that I may be talking about him too much. I don’t want to annoy them :( .

Anyway. It’s crazy how the most simple conversations can mean so much to someone. Like you asked me what the page we are on. That’s it. That’s all you am said to me but I still blushed. Your breath smelled minty and nice. And I accidentally touched your knee. I was trying to lift myself up in my chair and your leg was there. You didn’t move though. It’s like it didn’t effect you.

How can I tell you I like you?

[banjot0ad]

Yesterday in drivers ed m was feeling playful I guess and he was poking me on the arm so I poked him back. This went on until j joined in and they attacked the same time from each side of me. I poked both back obviously but then they started to make fun of me because I poked them back lightly. It was just a nice fun little enter action which is rare between me and j.

I had to share because I was happy for the rest of the day. It’s not all drama like I make it out to be on here. It’s just kinda awkward but it’s been getting better overtime.

[banjot0ad]

J told me that he knows I like him today. Before the class started. He wouldn’t look at me. The worst part about it is that one of my close friends is the one that told him. I’m used to him involving himself in other people’s business but this is a new low.

I don’t mind that j knows now. I just care that it wasn’t on my terms.