May 22
5 projects left. 4 must be finished tonight. 1 must be finished by Sunday night. I'm so close. I'm... I'm so close to being done...
#screaming crying throwing up#did you know that even if youre masking and drinking enough water and eating healthy that stress can still cause full body acne/pimple sores#and also make you sick like you have covid or perhaps the flu. and did you know that due dates dont give a fuck about life circumstance#sigh.#csc 3.25#codsfish school chronicles#@ my irl mutual veilia#<- since. shes the reason im behind#did you know that (tw oversharing go away unless you want emotional consequences) trying to kill yourself in public on a random monday#can cause your older sibling who youve discussed plans to murder overnight before to get so dissosiative and unresponsive that they dont#remember most of april. and that was when all my final projects were due. wgat the fuck#because of my body deciding to go into an intense and all consuming trauma response im gonna fail a class too.#im so fucking disappointed but also im so exhausted and over it that i strugfle to actually FEEL the disappointment#i just want to lie down in a hole forever and decompose for fun. then get up again and try again. but i wanna be dramatic and die first. PLE#ASEEEE PLEASE I BET IT WOULD FIX ME. PLEASE. JUST FOR A LITTLE BIT. LIKE JESUS.#codspeaks