#cu alter.

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“..Neither of those things are great. They’re flatter than a board.”

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Spill the beans do you love Selena or not? ( ✧≖ ͜ʖ≖) //For Culter

Truth Meme / Cu Alter (1/1)

“..Do I HAVE to answer this?” Unfortunately, by some unknown force – yes, he had to tell the truth. He had to ‘spill the beans’ as this grey-face described. Damn..he didn’t really want to open up about it. Why would he? In the end, he was a beast, and she was a beautiful woman who didn’t deserve the struggle of putting up with him. 

With a long pause of silence, the Berserker opened his mouth – but then closed it again. Everybody who Cu Chulainn had cared about MET THEIR END save Scathach – be it by his own hands or just the fact they knew him – he didn’t want that happening to Selena. She’s broken through his shell and gotten to the thing he thought he sheltered off from the world; HIS HEART.The only thing that mattered was her.

“..In America, I hated her you know. She was so ANNOYING – but she was decently powerful, and therefore was suitable for restoring me whenever I needed it. I don’t know why, or how, but..I started to care about her toward the end of that stupid Singularity. Despite the high risk of being viewed a traitor by Chaldea, she stood with me. Maybe because I forced her for half of it, but..even when I wasn’t forcing her, even when she had so many opportunities to leave when I wasn’t looking – she stood with me.

I don’t know why. I STILL don’t understand, even when she’s my Master properly this time. She was so stupid – so reckless, and yet, I can’t help but respect her choice. Not because she helped me, but because she stood true to the decision she made ‘til the end. That’s the type of person I like. 

The closer she got to me in America, the more I kept an eye on her – the more I got angry at others interacting with her. I never understood why, but she was for MY use at that time – nobody else’s..”

..But, that wasn’t the case anymore. Yes, he still viewed her as HIS, and she was 100% his territory, but…she wasn’t for just his use anymore. He actually enjoyed her being next to him, feeling her touch on his chest, feeling her hand against his cheek..and he enjoyed hearing her voice. There was only ONE explanation for why that was, right?

His face began to flush – it felt weird. It was warm, a feeling he rarely received, but it always happened when Selena was the topic.

“..I have never needed anybody. I have never WANTED anybody, until that pesky Smurf. She somehow..forced her way through my barriers, got herself to my heart – and now, every time I’m with her, I feel a weird form of happiness. Every time I’m away from her, it’s…not a feeling I like. I don’t want her on the battlefield, though. It’s better she stays away from any form of danger.” 

He knew she could handle herself, but..he wanted to make sure the ONE THING he cared about remained as safe as possible. 

“I’m nothing but a MONSTER, so having these feelings is..confusing. But, with her, it’s worth feeling this way.

I care about her a lot more than I thought I would, and…I don’t want to stop being by her side. So, yeah – I do love her. 

I love her with every fiber of my being, I guess..”

A tear began to stain down his cheek -- it was the first time such a thing has ever happened. It SCARED him deep down, feeling this way for her..enough so that he’d actually CRY over the thought of losing her? He supposed, even a BEAST could find love if they looked hard enough.

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She waddles over, bawling, and comes in for as tight a hug as she can manage; Nuzzling her teary face against him while she sobs and sniffles. She may or may not have heard all of that—

@feignedgrace​

He stands as still as possible once her arms were wrapped around him – it happened quickly; she came out of nowhere, tears just soaking her face and dripping to the ground. It seems as though she ended up snooping on him and hearing everything he said – that’s a..pain in the ass, but honestly? He’s glad she heard it…he’d probably struggle repeating it to that degree. 

“Selena –” Placing his hands onto her shoulders, he lets out a breath and just gives in – now wrapping his arms around her. 

In the middle of their embrace, he lifts her up and holds her against him, allowing one of his arms to now lay under her rear to hold her up whilst the other took hold of her hand and brought it to his mouth. 

“..Stop crying, idiot.” Muffled due to her hand, he gently nuzzles against her palm. Ensuring that she LEAVES her hand against him, he reaches out and wipes both of her eyes with his index finger. 

“..Don’t make me repeat the fact that I love you, got it..? It was hard for me to even figure out how to say it..”

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Cu Alter doesn’t really sleep. Instead, he either watches over Selena or roams Chaldea’s halls freely.  The reason for this is actually pretty simple (but let’s give a somewhat complex answer), Because he’s a copy of the real Cu’s Saint Graph but heavily modified, he DOES retain the same memories. However, instead of having brief flashes every so often -- every time he sleeps, he has dreams of every memory.  The reason he doesn’t sleep is because the most prominent memory that plays itself back is the memory of Connla’s death; the fact that it was his hands that killed his own son. Not only does he experience this every time he sleeps, but he feels the anguish that Cu Chulainn did -- the pain that he did when he realized that he ended up killing his own flesh and blood.